Sweet Wife Arrives: Mr. CEO, Please Pamper Me-Chapter 637: V507: Love is to help each other, love is to stay together through life and death. [8]
The heart feels as if it’s being twisted by a knife.
She was merely heartbroken over his bloody cough and unconsciousness, but to him, he’d rather die than let anyone interfere in his life.
She was an outsider, from start to finish.
The most tormenting period for her was when she clearly recognized her own status for the second time.
The first time, to him, she didn’t even need to remember her face.
The second time, to him, no matter how long she accompanied him, he could abandon her whenever he wanted.
Later, it could be seen as giving up; she understood better how she’d presumptuously overthought.
She was never anyone to him, never was, a one-sided affection for five years. Even if he was the only man who existed in her life, to that man who knew nothing, she was as insignificant as a bubble.
Women can be so foolish sometimes, giving their body to someone, easily letting their heart follow suit, unable to control it.
She started focusing all her energy on work.
Giving up might be the hardest, most difficult decision one can make alone.
But from the day of giving up, she felt her days became just ordinary.
She was always perceptive, from childhood to now. Facing the harshest times, when directors unapologetically slapped her across the face, she could still laugh. What else could she not be perceptive about?
So when facing his sadness, she no longer quietly watched.
Facing his despair, she no longer thought she might comfort, save him.
She truly separated bridge from bridge, road from road with him.
She threw herself exhausted into film crews every day. Sometimes amidst filming series, she’d fall in love, seeking that feeling of being loved, it’s quite nice...
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But fate seemed to play a second joke on her; facing the marriage’s end between He Qimo and Gu Zixuan, on the night she was deceived, she once again became his woman.
The result was devastating for her.
Because of that incident, the career she painstakingly built over several months was ruined overnight.
At that moment she wondered how her life could become so tangled and unclear.
However, he couldn’t possibly offer her anything; after using her, the most he would give was money, but if her spirit crumbled, what good was money?
So she resisted, caused trouble, refusing to comply even to the death.
Among those daily clamorings, half were because she was angry at his actions, the other half was a genuine desire to find a way out of the tangled mess.
She feared that as time went on, she might start confusing her own status, harbor illusions that weren’t hers, how would she live like a clown again?
But what she didn’t expect was He Qimo would truly kiss her.
Even more unexpected was sometimes in his fit of anger, he used such intimate actions to vent his dissatisfaction.
Their physical entanglement seemed to deepen, sometimes when He Qimo kissed her, she’d hold the divorced him, not knowing the date or meaning of such actions...
Had she...become a mistress?
Or merely a contracted actress?
Did he have...even a slight feeling solely for her?
So, now at this moment...as she touches the child suddenly arriving through this tormenting journey, she thinks back on the past few years, facing Song Xiaoli, unable to hold back greater sorrow.
"Xiao Li, he can never love me, not in this lifetime, but I’ve fallen again, what should I do?"
