MTL - Wildfire-Chapter 5
These two really do make a good match.
One is the chief ophthalmologist, and the other is a genius in cardiac surgery, both of whom are excellent. No matter which aspect you look at, it has to be said to be a good match.
Tao Xiaodong met Tang Suoyan through Tian Yi, who was a senior whom Tian Yi had always admired and admired. Not long after Tang Suoyan came back from abroad, Tian Yi personally sent Tao Huainan into his office, saying that Senior was my younger brother.
One of Tang Suoyan's scientific research directions abroad is retinitis pigmentosa, a world problem that both at home and abroad are trying to overcome. There is no effective way to cure the defects in genes so far.
Tao Huainan was eleven or twelve years old at that time, and was brought to Tang Suoyan by Tian Yi. What he smelled was the disturbing smell unique to the hospital, as well as the clear mint smell of the person in front of him.
Tao Xiaodong and Chi Cheng were not there, Tao Huainan was a little uneasy in the strange environment, so he leaned towards Tian Yi.
Dr. Tang in front of him raised his hand and touched his head. His palm was very warm. He stayed on top of his head for a while, and he didn't even take off his hand when he was asking Tian Yi.
Just like his brother's unconscious movements when chatting with people.
Tao Huainan has been blind since he was a child, when he was four years old. All that remains in his mind are fragmentary images, which are the world he has seen. The more time passed, the more I couldn't remember clearly, and later I couldn't even dream clearly. There is always only a faint and fuzzy sense of light in front of my eyes, and it makes no difference whether it is there or not.
To be blind is to be blind, Tao Huainan has long accepted it calmly. He has experienced the reaction and psychological process that an acquired disability should have early on, and because he was still young at that time, it was not difficult to accept it. I am even fortunate that I went blind at a very young age, and my memory of colors is not deep.
Tao Huainan never cared about his eyes, anyway, it was already like this, it didn't matter to him whether it would continue to develop, there was no difference in the result.
That day, Dr. Tang leaned down and said to him: "Don't give up your eyes, you have to protect them. No one gives up on you. There are many, many excellent doctors and scientific research teams in the world who are trying to find a way. The condition of your eyes is very serious. Well, it's healthy, and it's holding on to itself."
Tao Huainan pursed his lips and nodded.
Tang Suoyan smiled, and flicked lightly on his forehead, making a soft sound. He said: "You don't know how beautiful your eyes are, protect them. Trust the good doctors, trust me. I hope one day when I have a way to cure it, your eyes will still be as beautiful as they are now."
The mint smell on Tang Suoyan's body seemed to be absent, sometimes there was a little bit of it, and sometimes it wasn't there. Tao Huainan sniffed, remembering the mint fragrance on his body.
It was an afternoon that Tao Huainan remembered very clearly. His brother was out and Chi Cheng went shopping for him. He was taken to the hospital by brother Tian Yi, and then said to take him to see a very powerful doctor.
Before that, he had seen countless doctors, and his brother took him through many eye hospitals.
After that, Tao Huainan only had this doctor, and he liked Tang Suoyan so much.
Tao Xiaodong, who Tao Huainan likes, naturally also likes.
Tang Suoyan was a very good doctor, but Tao Xiaodong didn't dare to talk to such a person. They only had dinner together once at the beginning, and it was just to talk about Tao Huainan's eyes. Afterwards, they only met each other when they took Tao Huainan for follow-up visits, and said hello to each other when they met, without any further contact.
It seems that those social methods are inappropriate and disrespectful to Tang Suoyan. Such a distance seems good to Tao Xiaodong, not abrupt.
Because of this relationship, when Tao Xiaodong looked at Tangning again, he always felt a little bit more in love with the house. Afterwards, every time I saw Tangning and Tao Xiaodong, he acted more caring and friendly.
There was a meeting with many people, most of whom were alumni of their medical school. Tao Xiaodong knew quite a few of them well, so he blocked a few drinks for Tangning. Someone made fun of them, Tao Xiaodong quickly waved his hands: "Don't talk nonsense."
Xia Yuan also asked privately, "Xiaodong, don't you...have a crush on Tangning?"
Tao Xiaodong immediately shook his head: "Nothing."
"Then why do I think you treat him well?" Xia Yuan glanced at Tao Xiaodong, scrutinizing his expression, "Or am I wrong?"
"Don't think about it, think about everything." Tao Xiaodong frowned, he didn't want to talk about it because he had nothing to do.
Xia Yuan kindly advised a few words: "People have a family, don't you know that one? What kind of pot goes with what kind of lid, don't go astray."
Tao Xiaodong picked up a book casually and threw it at Xia Yuan, stood up and didn't listen to him: "Shut up, tell me if you're right, don't talk about it, aren't you embarrassing?"
Tao Xiaodong really has no idea, not at all. Not to mention whether Tang Ning has a family, Tao Xiaodong had no intentions at all, not to mention that Tang Ning's care for Tang Ning itself came from Tang Suoyan. After he and Tangning added WeChat, they didn't send a single message, so they didn't contact each other.
Even hearing other people talk about Tao Xiaodong in this regard feels shabby and can't bear to listen.
Tangning is a very decent person. Every time I see her, she wears a white shirt and trousers. Back then when Xia Yuan was young, it was this energy in him that Xia Yuan wanted to see, he didn't seem to be close to anyone, but he wasn't too arrogant, which made people miss him.
Someone who knew him well said that Tangning didn't have any particularly close friends, and he kept a little distance from everyone. It's the same in the hospital at ordinary times, gentle and polite, not talking much, and not angry.
Such a person is too perfect, like a dummy.
Perhaps he is the real him only in front of Tang Suoyan.
Tang Suoyan's car waited in the parking lot of the Second Courtyard for about an hour before Tangning came out after get off work. Tang Suoyan parked very close to Tangning's car. When Tangning came over, Tang Suoyan honked the horn.
Tangning saw it and subconsciously raised her eyebrows.
Tang Suoyan pressed the button again, and Tangning came over and got into the car.
They hadn't seen each other for a long time, Tangning avoided him a little bit. It has been more than three months since the year before, and I have just met for the first time. Tang Suo said, "Let's talk."
It's really not a problem if it goes on like this, everyone knows it in their hearts. Tangning also nodded calmly, "Okay."
Tang Suoyan didn't say a word after that, and the two drove home, Tang Suoyan's home. A lot of Tangning's things were moved, but there are still many traces of his life here. Tang Suoyan left his things untouched. This is where he has lived for several years, and everything is familiar.
His slippers were still on the shoe cabinet at the door. The two of them changed their shoes in silence, and then went to the bathroom to wash their hands. The habit of living together for many years was engraved in their bones.
After that, they cooked together in tacit understanding, and the division of labor for preparing and cooking vegetables was clear. They didn't even need to speak, and they could complete these without communicating.
After the meal, both of them sat down on the sofa. Tang Suoyan had just washed his hands, and his hands were still a little damp. He took out a piece of paper and wiped it off, and said to Tangning, "What do you think? Tell me. "
What was Tangning thinking?
Tang Ning was unable to answer Tang Suoyan's question. He was silent for a while with his chin tensed, and then asked Tang Suoyan, "Do you remember what we did this time?"
Tang Suoyan nodded.
He did remember why they were awkward this time. This time it wasn't Tangning who was angry, this time it was actually Tang Suoyan who turned cold first.
The reason is a bit hard to say, especially for decent people like them.
Tang Ning has always disliked intimacy, he somewhat dislikes sexual intercourse.
When they were both in their twenties, Tangning wasn't too enthusiastic about this matter, but at that time he didn't show any disgust and was able to cooperate. And Tang Suoyan can make him happy, and Tang Suoyan can make him beg for mercy and cry. At that time, Tang Ning looked normal, and when Tang Suoyan wanted to do it, he was usually able to accept it.
But in recent years, he has become less and less fond of doing that kind of thing, and most of the time he just put it off, using the excuse of being too tired. It's all about your love and my wish, if one party doesn't want to, that's no fun.
Although Tang Ning was undoubtedly comfortable when doing it, Tang Suoyan was an absolute master and knew enough about Tang Ning's body. There was no possibility of disharmony between them, but Tang Ning was unwilling or even disgusted.
This time it was because Tang Suoyan wanted to do it, Tangning half-pushed it, and didn't explicitly refuse to say that he didn't want to do it, even his physical reaction was already clearly saying that he wanted it.
But in the end he pushed Tang Suoyan away violently.
"...I don't want to." Tangning frowned and inhaled forcefully. He didn't even look at Tang Suoyan.
Tang Suoyan was silent at first, then asked Tangning, "What's wrong with you?"
Both of them were naked at the time. Tangning pulled off her pajamas and put them on, and said in a low voice, "I don't care. I just don't want to do it. Can I get it out for you?"
It was like this many times before, Tangning did not hesitate to lower her body or kneel down, or use other methods, but she did not want to let everything happen and continue naturally.
It is really difficult to talk about the disharmony of sexual life between lovers, especially when it happens between two people who are both physically and mentally healthy.
Every time Tangning pushed away, she was too determined. His face was filled with disgust and disgust. The disgusted expression on his face was a bit hurtful.
Tang Suoyan's face was not good-looking. He rarely lost his temper or made a dark face towards Tang Ning. Tang Ning didn't like seeing him with a dark face.
Tang Ning said, "I just don't like doing it, and I don't want to do it more and more. If you think you won't be able to live without doing this, then forget it. I really don't like it."
When he said this, he still had a bit of a temper, anger for no reason.
Tang Suoyan never forced Tangning to do anything. He directly said that Tang Suoyan never continued when he didn't want to, but it was too shameful for a lover to do this. Tang Suoyan buttoned his pajamas in silence, then looked at Tangning and said in a deep voice, "Solve the problem. Don't just throw me a 'forget it' every time, these two words won't solve anything."
Tangning couldn't stand Tang Suoyan talking to him angrily, "How to solve it? I just don't like it. I must accept it and do it with you to solve it?"
In the end, they didn't talk about anything. Tang Suoyan was in a bad mood, and Tangning spoke with thorns. From then on, they became cold. A few days later, Tang Ning moved out, and Tang Suoyan got busy too.
But it's unreasonable to put it off like this, this matter must be resolved after all, and what needs to be discussed must be discussed thoroughly.
They have been calm for a long time, and more than three months are enough for both of them to withdraw their fire, think about the problem calmly and then solve it, so that they can be at peace with each other.
Tangning sat on the sofa in silence for a long time. After a long time, all the dog walkers in the neighborhood had left. The lights in the building opposite were already on, so he opened his mouth.
If you say something after being silent for so long, it means that it is not easy to say.
He looked at Tang Suoyan, his eyes were a little red, and he said in a hoarse voice, "I'm not angry this time, and I'm not angry. Brother Yan, I really want to...forget it."