MTL - Wildfire-Chapter 6
Tangning said in a hoarse voice that he wanted to forget it. There was pain and confusion in his eyes, but he didn't have anything to say about regret.
Tang Suoyan looked at him, but he was quite calm, and only asked: "Why? Just because you can't accept it?"
Tangning shook her head, and gently scratched her pants with her fingers, "Brother Yan, I've had enough of this kind of life. I think our life together is like an empty shell."
"Where is it free?" Tang Suoyan asked him directly.
Tangning didn't dare to look him in the eye, so she just stared at a little bit below his eyes and said, "Everywhere is empty."
"for example."
"Don't you think so?" Tangning asked him, "It's like we've been separated for so many days this time, but you don't even remember what we were arguing about. I don't think this is how two people get along normally. It's been so numb."
Tang Suoyan leaned on the sofa and squeezed the space between his brows. He didn't defend himself.
"I've almost forgotten how we got along in the past. I don't know if it's the same as now." Tangning took a breath and slowly exhaled, "I don't even want to see you, I feel pressured. I'm afraid you want to get along with me I do those things, and I can't refuse, but I'm really... very disgusted. These make me feel very tired, and I hide every day, afraid to see you. "
Tang Suoyan laughed suddenly, leaned on the back of the sofa, laughed mockingly: "Hearing what you said, I thought I was a person with a lot of sperm and an upper brain."
They can't remember how long it's been since they've done it, and probably can count on one hand the number of times they've actually done it throughout the last year. Tang Ning was two years younger than Tang Suoyan. These years, Tang Suoyan gave way to him everywhere and was used to everything. Tang Suoyan was so busy with work, the time they could spend together was really limited, and Tangning didn't like it. Compared to a normal couple, they had done too little.
"I know this isn't your problem, it's my problem that normal people should have." Tangning scratched her pants again with her fingers, and said with difficulty, "But I can't control it."
Tang Suoyan didn't tact a word today, and every sentence was very direct: "You also have a reaction."
These words made Tangning a little embarrassed. He bit his lower lip and nodded, "Yes, my body is reacting, but I can't accept it mentally."
"What can't you accept? Which step?" Tang Suoyan kept staring at him with a blank expression.
Tangning said, "Everything."
It's ridiculous for two people to sit together and discuss such a thing. It's ridiculous, especially for lovers who have been together for more than ten years.
Tang Suoyan asked Tangning if she needed a psychiatrist. Tangning firmly said no, it was not a psychological problem.
He finds **** ugly and embarrassing, the basest human desire. He hated two people having **** naked like animals.
Tang Suoyan asked him again if he had thought about it.
Tangning was silent for a few minutes before nodding.
Tang Suoyan nodded to show that he understood. Tangning thought he would get angry, but he didn't. He just said, "Tangning, we're almost forty years old. But I feel like you've stopped growing up at the age of twenty. I don't know if I made you like this or you were born like this."
Tang Suoyan sat up straight and looked into Tangning's eyes. Tangning's eyes were always red as he listened to Tang Suoyan in silence.
"Your first thought when you encounter a problem is always to separate, say a breakup, and then throw everything to me, and I will figure it out. I don't know how you view the relationship between **** people, in my opinion it is the same as Heterosexuality is no different from marriage."
Tang Suoyan's voice is very nice. When he speaks in a low voice, he is very magnetic and catches people's ears. But what he said today was not a pleasant love story.
"Separation is always too easy for you to say. When you were young, you played with your temper. I treated you as a child, and I coaxed you to stay with you. But you can't keep doing this until you are seventy or eighty. Separate, and come back when you are reluctant. You said that you will become numb after tossing too much. I don’t know if you are numb or not. I only know that I am not used to your game until now, and I still feel uncomfortable.”
Tangning listened to him all the time without interrupting. Tangning raised her eyes and looked at him when Tang Suoyan said he was feeling uncomfortable. The two looked at each other. Tang Ning's breath was caught by the intense emotion in Tang Suoyan's eyes, and then he immediately turned his eyes away.
"This time I'll give you a chance to take back your words, Tangning."
Tang Suoyan usually called him "Xiao Ning" and never called him by his name directly. Today, she calls "Tangning" again and again.
"Tangning." He repeated, staring straight at the other person's face, "You have to think it over before you say what you want. I promise you will never have a chance to regret it this time. I don't know Years of life, and what position I have in your heart, I only know that I don't care about you, and you can throw away this relationship with me."
Tang Ning opened his mouth as if he wanted to speak, but Tang Suoyan didn't give him a chance.
"After returning to China, you have changed a lot. You don't want to come back, I know. In fact, I can always spoil you. If you are angry, I can coax you. But the premise is that you like it and you need it. Since you don't like it so much, then it's okay. Forget it. It’s still the word you said, it’s really easy to use.”
After Tang Suoyan said this, he went back to the room. He went to the guest room. The master bedroom was reserved for Tangning. Tangning had everything in her pajamas, but he didn't change them.
He left in the middle of the night, and Tang Suoyan knew when he left.
Tang Suoyan didn't fall asleep. He knew Tangning was sitting on the sofa the whole time, and Tang Suoyan didn't open his eyes when the door rang.
He covered his forehead with his arms and remained in this still state for a long time.
Tao Xiaodong has three stores in total, and basically spends more time in the new store. It is the biggest and the most crowded. There are dozens of employees in the store, not including tattoo artists.
There are two bosses in the store, one is Tao Xiaodong and the other is Huang Yida.
Huang Yida is a fat man who loves to drink tea, and he can't be considered too fat, just a bit strong. He is in his forties, and has worked with Tao Xiaodong for more than ten years. At first, Tao Xiaodong only had craftsmanship and no money, and Huang Yida gave him all the money to open a store and brand for him.
The two brothers, Tieci, haven't broken up for so many years, and they haven't even blushed because of money. Now Tao Xiaodong has everything, fame, and money. The money that Huang Yida invested in him at the beginning seems to be nothing now. But Tao Xiaodong didn't say anything else, and Tao Xiaodong scolded Huang Yida back several times when he offered to withdraw from the group.
A family does not speak two languages, Tao Xiaodong always said so.
The young ones in the store call Huang Yida "Uncle Yida", and the older ones call him "Rhubarb".
Tao Xiaodong will be leaving again next month, and he won't come back for a month or two after he leaves. He was always on the road, and he said tattoos had to be found, had to be seen. There are always unseen things, the world is full of better people, and artistic creation has no end.
As soon as he left, he left all his affairs to Huang Yida. Tao Xiaodong was actually very dependent on him. Rhubarb had given him a lot of freedom over the years. He could leave whenever he wanted, and do whatever he wanted. He is an ambitious man, he wants a lot, Huang Yida has never said anything else, you can talk about what you want, let's find out.
The new store is a small building of more than 1,000 square meters, a commercial district where every inch of land is expensive. Da Huang bought it directly, not rented it. In fact, Tao Xiaodong didn't have much money in his hands. Rhubarb invested almost all the movable and immovable funds in it. The plan was made suddenly, and no preparation time was given in advance. Tao Xiaodong was also a little hesitant at the time, Rhubarb had sorted everything out, and came over to him and said, "It's all work."
Rhubarb is such a down-to-earth person, straightforward and not entangled. Tao Xiaodong didn't even say thank you, there's no need to say that, too much would be far away.
"Brother Dong, shall we go to the exhibition in Guangzhou? It's held along the line. I see they posted us on Weibo yesterday? You told them you're going?" As soon as Tao Xiaodong came to the store, Huan Ge came to him and asked.
Tao Xiaodong raised his eyebrows: "I didn't mention it to me, I don't have time next month, so go out."
"Ah, I think they mean that we are settled, I will ask Uncle Yida again."
Huan Ge's job is to manage work accounts on various platforms. He majored in new media operations in college. He has been working in the store before graduation. It has been almost three years now.
"What do you want to ask me?" Huang Yida had just arrived, and when he walked in, he heard Huan Ge talking, and asked behind him.
Huan Ge didn't look back, Tao Xiaodong pointed behind him, and he turned to look, "Ah", and asked again.
Huang Yida was also quite surprised: "It's nothing, he never came to ask me, didn't he get unhappy with us last time? He never called me again."
Huan Ge was a little confused, and asked: "Shall we go then? Can I still retweet their Weibo?"
Tao Xiaodong thought for a while and asked Huang Yida: "I definitely don't have time to go, what about you? Do you want to go?"
Huang Yida was also very upset: "If you don't go to them, you have to think about Xiao Jiujiu, thinking that you deliberately don't give them face, and if you don't go here, they can do it for you. Go or, I will lead you there. It won't work if you don't go Ah, all the news has been sent over there.”
Tao Xiaodong laughed: "I haven't grown up along the line for so many years, so be careful."
Tao Xiaodong is very popular and a good thing. But this also has a disadvantage, that is, everyone feels that they have a good relationship with him, and anyone who has something to do wants Tao Xiaodong to support him. If you don't go, you will lose face and don't treat me as a friend. This is quite distressing, because Tao Xiaodong really doesn't have that much time to compliment each other. Along the line is a tattoo artist from another city, who is also very good, and used his own name when he became a company. Tao Xiaodong has known him for many years. He is easy to get angry and picks up on things.
After Huan Ge asked, he went back to his desk to study, preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination. The tasks of their employees here are not heavy, and they have relatively free time when their tasks are completed. They can be busy with their own affairs, and they can also learn tattoos from any tattoo artist in the shop.
There are dozens of resident tattoo artists in the store, most of whom have been with Tao Xiaodong for many years, and there are also a few young ones who joined in the past two years. They are all excellent tattoo artists, each with their own style, no matter which one is very strong. There are also two European uncles and a Japanese tattoo artist in the store. Apart from Tao Xiaodong, they have the most pictures.
Tao Xiaodong had to finish all the recent pictures before going out, so he was in a hurry to catch up with the pictures during this period.
Today's work is full of work, and Tao Xiaodong has very few small pictures in his hand, almost all of them are large pictures. The customer was a young man who couldn't bear the pain, and kept hissing in front of him.
Tao Xiaodong asked him what he wanted to eat and told him to order it for him downstairs.
The guy said: "I can't eat anything, don't worry about me, just bring me a glass of iced Coke, it will relieve the pain."
"Eat, it will last until night, you can't stand it." Tao Xiaodong told him.
The boy sighed with a drawn out voice: "Then just give me anything."
"Let's eat box lunch, their box lunch is really delicious." A customer next to him said.
There is a kitchen downstairs, and the food is very good, and all the customers are brought along, and everything they want is delivered to them. The lunch box was brought up by a little girl in the store. She brought a large plate with several lunch boxes stacked on it for delivery upstairs.
"Is there any ice, little beauty? Can you bring me a glass of ice cubes?" said Tao Xiaodong, the little girl who rushed to her lunch box from the customer.
The little girl didn't even give him a look, turned around and left after giving him the lunch box.
"Little beauty?" The boy called out to her again, "Bing!"
The man still ignored him and didn't even glance at him.
He looked back at Tao Xiaodong, surprised by the coldness of their employees.
Seeing his eyes, Tao Xiaodong said, "Someone has brought it for you."
"Ah, thank you." The boy turned back.
After a while, the little boy who delivered the ice came, put the cup on the shelf next to him, and smiled at him. The guy politely said thank you again.
The little boy ignored him and left.
The customer finally couldn't hold it back, and still asked a question: "No, Brother Dong, do you all have such personalities here?"
Tao Xiaodong smiled through the mask, his eyes always seemed to be smiling, he tilted his chin to the little boy just now, and said, "Don't be picky, he can't talk."
The boy blinked and pointed to his throat: "Can't speak? Or... can't speak?"
"cannot."
The boy was so surprised, he asked again: "The little beauty just now...?"
Tao Xiaodong raised his needle-changing hand and pointed to his ear: "She can't hear."