Help! Five Beast Alphas Want To Breed Me!!(BL)-Chapter 180: Happy

Elián;

My reflection in the shut window looks like a stranger waiting for my permission to speak.

Lips are sealed shut, and mind clearly miles away.

I stare at my eyes, my hair, how much weight I’ve gained, and how much life now resides in my once shallow eyes.

"It’s intriguing how alike we look," Elien speaks, suddenly breaking the silence in my mind, and I jerk in fright.

"Jesus, Elien! You gotta stop doing that. You scared me!" I retort inwardly and there’s silence.

"Sorry." He replies and I stare at my... at our face.

"Elien... are you okay with what’s going on?" I question as I realise that I haven’t had any proper conversation about things with him.

"Okay with what?" He replies and I move closer to the window.

I touch my face and a pang of guilt rises in my chest.

"Everything that is happening... I want to be with Koda. I want to start a family, I want so much... and yet I forget that this is your body. Your world. I’ve taken over everything and you just sit in the backseat of your own body, I... it must feel unfair to you...." I speak, and there’s silence.

"There’s something I haven’t told you..." He speaks softly, and I raise a brow.

"The night you arrived... the night you came to our world, I was going to kill myself." He adds, and my drops as my heart stops.

"I had gone to the Ashfang estate to see Lioran one more time. I just... wanted to hold him one more time. But then I saw the anger in his eyes. The hurt. I knew that... I was the last person he wanted to see. I was the one who caused him so much pain, I had no right to show myself in front of him. So I... I stood on the highest bridge I could find on the palace grounds, and jumped. Just as I was about to hit the water... I got struck by something. The next time I woke up... you were here." He explains and I just listen in silence.

"Look, the point I’m making is... for so long, the only constant in my life was me blaming myself. Hating myself for leaving Lioran. But you...you’ve given me other things to live for. I’ve laughed because of you. I’ve felt free with you here. I’m not a captive in my own body anymore. I’m finally breathing."

He pauses, then adds quietly, "You love Koda a lot. I won’t stop you from being with him. Hell, you’ve had a bullshit life. If your second chance is living through me, then... fuck yeah, take it. I already lost my love. I won’t let you lose yours."

My lips quiver as I stare at our reflection

"You mean that?" I question and I hear him chuckle.

"Yes, I do pouty. If you want more than one of the Alpha, go ahead! If you wanna fornicate till your cock turns blue, go ahead! Whatever makes you happy. I’m just your one-man army cheering you on from now on!" He replies, and I smile.

My mind runs back to Lioran, and I have so many questions. So many things I want to know, so many things I want to ask, like why Lioran hates him so much.

However, he’s just told me something huge tonight. I shouldn’t rush him...

My stomach grumbles, and I look down at my stomach in confusion. Was that hunger or do I need to poo? I just ate.

******

Koda;

I walk into my bedroom and stop when I see Elian by the window. He’s in an oversized shirt, and baggy shorts.

His gaze is on his stomach, and he seems to be lost in thought.

I smile at how small and adorable he looks standing there like that. Without making a sound, I walk up to him.

He gasps in shock when I wrap my arms around him from behind, and he looks up at me.

"Koda..." he breathes, and I kiss his hair.

"Yes, my love." I breathe, and through our reflection, I see him smile as he relaxes in my embrace.

I bury my face in the crook of his neck and I feel him shiver. He doesn’t say a word, and neither do I.

His scent fills my lungs as I hold him closer, his heartbeat steady against mine. In this moment, the whole world is quiet, and all that matters is us, breathing in sync, sharing warmth, and just... living in this moment.

"Elian," I murmur, brushing my lips against his hair, and he exhaled softly.

"Hm?" He replies and the soft reply warms me.

"You know I’m not joking about wanting to marry you, right?" I question, and he lifts his head slightly to look at me through the window’s faint reflection.

His eyes are soft but questioning. Almost like he doesn’t believe me.

"I was going to surprise you," I continue, and he stares at me through the reflection in silence.

"However, now I think it’s best you know. Father and my brothers... are coming over for the wedding." I inform, and I feel him stiffen in my arms.

He slowly turns around to face me, and I look down at him.

"Rhydian’s coming?" he questions what a tone that sounds like annoyance, and my brows crease.

I nod gently, and I watch his expression drop like the mere thought of Rhydian irritates him.

"He is coming with everyone else," I reply, and for a second, he looks torn.

I cradle his face and make him look up at me.

"You don’t want him to come?" I question and he blinks quickly as he looks away. He soon takes a deep breath, then exhales slowly, while I watch the tension leave his shoulders.

To my surprise, he wraps his arms around me and buries his face into my chest.

"I don’t care who comes," he whispers, with his voice muffled against my skin.

"As long as I get to marry you, Koda... I don’t care about anything else." He adds, and my heart stutters.

I hold him tighter, feeling the sincerity of his every word, and the luxury in my heart.

"Then it’s settled," I say with a grin, brushing my thumb against his cheek.

"We’ll give them the most beautiful wedding they’ve ever seen," I add, and he smiles shyly as he looks up at me with eyes glistening like they’re coated with star dust. Light! I could drown in that look.

I lean closer to him with my voice lowering to a playful whisper, and he raises a brow.

"Since we’re already making plans about getting married..." I begin, but pause with a smirk as I slide my hands around his waist.

"How about we start trying for that baby?" I add, and his jaw drops.

"W-what..." Elián starts, but before he can finish, I scoop him up effortlessly, with laughter bubbling in my chest at how adorably startled he looks.

I lay him gently on the bed, and his cheeks flush instantly,while his lips parting in surprise as I hover over him with a teasing grin.

"You’re unbelievable," he mumbles, hiding his face with his hands, and I cannot help my laughter.

"Mm," I murmur, kissing his temple softly.

"You love it," I add, and he peeks at me from between his fingers, smiling despite his words.

He laughs softly I know in my heart that this is where I always want to be. How I always want him to be...

Happy.