Help! Five Beast Alphas Want To Breed Me!!(BL)-Chapter 179: What Did I Do Wrong?

Lioran;

"I know cherry blossoms make foxes calm... I don’t understand the logic behind it though." His gentle voice replays in my mind as I stare at the piece of clothing in my hand, and I’m transported back to that night.

In that little wooden house in the woods. Our... special place.

"Really? I’m just learning this." I reply honestly, and he pauses.

"Hold on. So am I wrong?? I snooped around and I was told..." He begins to rant, and I quickly get off the chair and pull him to myself.

"You worry too much, Elien. I never said you were wrong. I’m just learning this. That’s what I said." I correct, and his fierce red eyes look up at me.

"Well then, let’s test it. I spent the whole day carefully glueing each petal to this fabric. Do you know how hard that was? You’d better like it!" He replies as he holds up the piece of cloth, beautifully decorated with cherry blossoms and I smile.

I take the fabric from him and hold it over my nose with both my hands.

I take a deep breath, and he bites his lower lip in worry as he watches me.

"So?" He questions eagerly, but I’m too occupied by the goosebumps running along my skin to answer.

"Lioran!" He whines and I am pulled out of my thoughts.

I smile and caress his cheek as I pull the cloth away.

"You were right. It does smell divine." I reply, and he smiles. A massive smile. One of those he rarely gives.

I try to reach out to push his dual colored hair out of his face, but his expression falls,and I realise that I messed up.

He’s seen the injury.

"What happened to you!?" He demands as he takes my hand in his and turns over my palm so he can see the injury.

I quickly pull my hand away and hide it behind me and he raises a brow at me.

He crosses his arms over his chest and pats his feet against the ground as he stares at me through narrow, annoyed eyes.

"How did that happen!?" He demands, and I pout.

"It’s nothing serious, I promise. It was an accident that happened during training. It’s not that deep. I’ll heal by sundown tomorrow." I reply and he groans.

"You’re an irresponsible little fuck, you know that?" He complains and I blink at him.

He walks over to me, grabs my wrist and pulls me to the bed.

"You act so mysterious on the outside, but you’re just a big baby, aren’t you. I’m constantly patching you up." He keeps ranting as he moves about the space gathering things he’d use to treat the wound and I smile as I watch him move.

I’m an Alpha, He’s an Omega, and still for some reason... I always feel the safest around him. And it’s not the fact that he is impeccable at defending himself...

It’s just... how protected he makes me feel. Whenever I’m with him, there’s this urge to submit. I don’t feel like an Alpha around him.

Quite frankly, I don’t feel the urge to put up that front before him. I feel smaller, safer and for the first time, I feel like I can afford to be protected. Not the other way round.

He kneels in front of me with a bowl and scowls up at me.

"Your hand!" He demands, and I smile as I give my wounded hand to him.

"Stop grinning! It’s not funny. I don’t like seeing you hurt. You know that! The moment you’re away from me, you seem to forget how to do everything." He rambles on and I watch in silence as he rinses and cleans the wound.

Elien shows love in strange ways. He’s always so snarky but that how he shows concern. He hasn’t had a lot of experience with people, or expressing emotions.

But I like it this way. At least when he’s like this, I know he cares.

"Does it hurt?" He questions and I smile at him and he eyes me.

"Don’t look at me like that, you fart! It makes me want to do things to you..." He mumbles under his breath and I chuckle as I stare at him.

Footsteps outside my door jolt me out of thoughts and when I turn to look at me door, I realize it’s just the guards going about their nightly patrols. 𝑓𝘳𝑒𝑒𝓌𝘦𝘣𝘯ℴ𝑣𝘦𝑙.𝘤𝑜𝑚

My gaze returns to the blanket in my hand and I grip it tight as memories of him flood me.

"Why?" I whisper and as usual, there’s no answer anywhere.

"Why did you leave me, Elien? Who do you act like you don’t remember me, and now you’re marrying Koda? Don’t you... Don’t you care what happens to me? How I feel about all this, don’t you care one bit...?"

A tear escapes my eyes, and my gaze drifts to the fireplace in my room.

I watch the bright orange flame flickering there and I look back at the blanket in my hand.

I’m foolish for holding to what doesn’t matter anymore.

I can’t settle the scores... I just want to be set free.

He doesn’t care about me anymore... So why should I care about him?

I walk over to the fireplace, and toss the blanket I held on to for months into it.

I spent several nights crying into the blanket. It was all I had left of the man I loved.

My fists clench as I watch the fire lick and begin to burn holes into the last piece of him I have left.

This shouldn’t hurt me. I’m letting go. I mean... after all, he doesn’t matter to me anymore, I hate him.

He left me. I shouldn’t...

Unable to stop myself, I throw my hand into the fire and pull out the blanket. Groaning in pain, I throw it to the ground and despite my sizzling skin, I keep hitting the fire still on it with my palm till the fire is completely out.

Tears flood my eyes as I hold the cloth up to my chest, and I bury my face in it.

Why did you leave me Elien? Why don’t you love me anymore?

What did I do wrong???