Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl)-Chapter 88: I choose you, for tonight.

Yujun’s POV

The car remains silent even as Jaehyun returns with the disposable bag of ramyeon.

The silence feels welcoming and wanted than awkward, I keep my face on his while he keeps his face on the road.

We arrive at his home in Hongdae and get out of the car together, he keeps his hand behind his back after locking the car. 𝘧𝓇ℯℯ𝑤ℯ𝘣𝓃ℴ𝓋𝑒𝑙.𝑐𝘰𝑚

The posture would have looked regal, lordly if not for the plastic bag containing Ramyeon.

I walk behind him quietly and as soon as we enter his apartment door, he flips the light switch and bends to take off his shoes.

I pull off my shoes at the door slowly.

Watching Jaehyun’s reception of my presence into his home, he hasn’t said a word to me since.

What if he doesn’t want me here anymore and I’m mistaken?

What if the ramyeon conversation had just been talks from hurt to get me off his back?

What if...

"These" he says as he holds out a bunny designed pair of slippers, "what is this?" I ask, eyeing them suspiciously and he looks at them before giving me an answer.

"They are yours".

"I didn’t buy any bunny slippers" I say under my breath, just needing him to say something to me, the silence doesn’t suit him, this gloom doesn’t suit him.

"I bought them for you" he says and looks at them again, "funny, I don’t live here" I say and he shrugs as he hands them to me before wordlessly going into the apartment.

His wordless retreat stings and I look down at the slippers, they are beautifully designed.

Is this how he feels when I am like this? Cold?

I put on the slippers and pull off my jacket to hang it on the little hanger by the door.

Patchouli hits my nose the second I step further into the apartment and that’s when I realize how much I miss this small space.

It is cheaply designed unlike my expensive home, but it is filled with real life that is more expensive than everything in my home.

The sound of the city filtering in from the windows and the cool breeze wafting in occasionally adds to its beauty. The atmosphere is just warm and cozy.

I hear the noise of pans clanging against each other and I walk into the kitchen to see Jaehyun moving around and sorting through pots and pans with the disposable bag of Ramyeon on the small counter.

Everything about the cozy space feels so small and so precious that Jaehyun looks out of place with his expressionless face and expensive suit.

"This pot?" he asks and holds it up for me to see and I nod, paying more attention to him than the pot in his hand.

He places it on the table and keeps on moving about restlessly, like he needs to just do something or else he would explode.

"Yah" I call and he pauses to look at me with wide and confused eyes.

"Get out, you’re taking up the space" I say and point to the door, "I want to help" he says and I roll my eyes.

"Help by going to wash up, you scent is annoying" I say and he slaps his hand over the scent patch on his neck.

I know he knows I’m lying but he leaves anyways to humor me.

I get to work in the kitchen with my sleeves rolled up, listening to Jaehyun’s movement around the apartment, he is silent but present.

The water boils slowly and I watch it bubble with my hands on the counter while lost in thought.

My thoughts are all over the place but circulate around Jaehyun and my sister, how I can help them both.

I stay thinking and frozen for so long that I didn’t realize when Jaehyun returned until he hugs me from behind and my body automatically relaxes for him, familiar with the touch of the alpha we...want.

He just holds me without saying a word for a few minutes and I stay still for him, I am telling myself that I am doing this for him but my omega and I know that we need him the most.

Our breathing seems to slow down, following each other, taking and giving but being careful not to overstep and bring an end to the moment.

Jaehyun smells like fresh patchouli, of mild soap and raspberry shampoo.

The wetness from his freshly washed hair soaks my shirt as he has his chin rested on my shoulder.

I missed him.

I’m ashamed to say it even to myself but I do miss my rival’s touch.

"I’m sorry I’m no fun" he says softly, his hot breath fanning my ear as he speaks and I melt further into him, my omega howling at the alpha’s apology.

"You’re okay?" I ask and he doesn’t give back any response.

I know he’s not okay, "you don’t have to be okay" I say and his arms around my waist tighten.

"You’re here" he murmurs and my heart skips a beat at the implication.

You’re here so I will be okay.

"I’m here...for now" I respond, reminding him of the sword hanging over our heads waiting to drop and slice us apart.

"I wish you’d stay...that you’ll choose me" he says, his fingers are starting to hurt from where they dig into my skin.

"I choose you tonight Jaehyun" I say to him, my voice small but sure, I choose him tonight. I choose him every day in my heart...even if reality denies us that luxury.

"I will do everything to keep you, Choi Yujun" he says and a shiver runs through my body, "everything" he repeats and takes a deep breath.

Without waiting for any signs or questions, my fingers unbutton the first few buttons of my shirt and find the edge of my scent patch to peel it off.

With it gone, I pull my shirt down a bit more toI bare my neck for him.

He doesn’t say a word when he press his nose into the exposed skin of my neck and nuzzles there as best as my shirt would permit.

It doesn’t take long before jasmine fills the air...jasmine with a hint of something I have never smelled on me before.

I don’t know if I should worry or but all I know is tonight is me and him, how it should be.b