Undead Beast Master: Living Solely for My Desires-Chapter 189: A Moment of Clarity

"Is there something wrong with you? It isn't really that hard to sit down and focus on your studies," Luna exclaimed as she rested her back against the chair.

Her hand was moving in calm, slow motions as she patted Nightshade on the head. It was clear that the panther was her favorite beast to play with.

"The problem is that this doesn't make me stronger!" Zaroth complained.

Rather than doing something productive with his time, he was forced to sit on his ass staring at the book, trying to remember the information.

"Is that so?" Luna asked with a hint of amusement in her voice.

Without saying anything else, she got up and went to the kitchen.

Two minutes later, Zaroth was distracted as the pleasant aroma of coffee reached his nostrils.

With an elegant gesture, Luna placed the cup in front of him.

Zaroth hesitated for a second, it was already in the middle of the night, meaning that if he drank from the cup, he wouldn't be able to sleep until the next night.

"Fuck it," with a silent curse, he grabbed the handle of the cup and brought it to his mouth.

His eyes widened in shock. It wasn't because the effect of the coffee, it was because it tasted heavenly.

He couldn't stop himself from shifting his gaze to Luna, who had returned to her chair and was looking at him with a smug expression.

Just by the look on her face, it was clear she knew she had brewed an exceptionally delicious cup of coffee.

'When did she become so good at making coffee?' he asked himself.

'Not only that, but the food she cooks seems to be getting better and better. She is clearly getting more accustomed to acting like a human.'

At that moment, as he enjoyed the pleasant taste of the coffee, his mind got a second of rest, and it immediately focused on the mysterious woman in front of him.

What did he know about Luna, actually? He asked himself, only to realize that it wasn't much.

She was a dragon that he had resurrected and tamed.

Visit ƒree𝑤ebnσvel.com for the 𝑏est n𝘰vel reading experience.

She had previously been slain by someone that the Crimson Sun Empire considered a hero, and she wanted to kill the gods.

That was all he knew. What had she done when she was alive? What was the reason for her grudge against the gods?

After all, from his understanding, a human had killed her, not a god. Then following that logic, shouldn't that mean that she would want the hero to be killed and not the gods?

He wanted to ask her. He wanted to learn more about her. But something deep in his soul stopped him.

She hadn't asked much about his past, so he hadn't asked her. It was a mutual relationship.

Would he want to risk harming that relationship by asking about her past?

Even if he was her master, he couldn't help but feel indebted to her. After all, she was the only reason that he was alive. If it wasn't for her, on that day, he would have been sacrificed in the name of the gods.

She was also clearly manipulating him, with her body, so he would become obsessed with acquiring more power. He wasn't an idiot, so he had realized that fact long ago.

But… in truth, was it that bad? Sure, he was being manipulated by her, as well as Elysia, and as well as many more people, but thanks to their actions, he was so focused on acquiring strength.

At these moments, when he doubted himself, when he doubted whether there was a point in doing what he was doing, there always seemed to be somebody that would push him forward with some kind of promise of a reward.

While one could say that their intentions were questionable, as well as their methods, only the end result mattered.

He was benefiting from it, so he wouldn't put a stop to it.

"I think I understand you a bit better now."

Hearing Luna's exclamation, he raised an eyebrow.

"What do you mean?" he asked with a hint of skepticism in his voice.

"You want strength, which is good. One could say that you have even become obsessed with gaining it, which is excellent, but thanks to that, you have become impatient."

She stopped for a second, most likely for dramatic effect. "In other words, if you aren't doing something to acquire power, you feel like you are wasting your time and try to push away everything unnecessary."

"It's not that bad," Zaroth retorted.

Luna raised an eyebrow as her gaze shifted to his left leg, bouncing up and down in restless, frantic motions.

"If that is the case, why are you so nervous right now?" she asked as she gazed into his eyes.

"Because of the coffee! The answer should be obvious!" he answered back with a hint of aggression.

With a scoff, she got up from the chair and walked over to him.

"Coffee doesn't work that fast. It takes time for you to feel the effects of it, not to mention your leg has been acting like this for a long time before you drank the coffee. You're just too nervous to realize it."

Hearing her words, Zaroth doubted himself. 'Am I really that nervous?'

Shaking the thought off, he glanced at her towering figure. "Still, it's only natural. I'm wasting my time. There's so much I need to do, but instead of doing it, I'm stuck studying. Of course, I'll be nervous!"

With a sigh, Luna got behind him and put her hand on his head, making his white hair messy.

"If you don't take a moment to stop, you'll end up making mistakes. To prove I'm right, how many things do you think you should be doing?"

Accepting the challenge and wanting to prove that he was indeed fine, he began.

"First, I want to speak with Zack and find out what the deal with Grace is. Second, to get stronger, I need to meditate and connect more sparks to my mana core. Also, I need to keep my beasts summoned for an extended period of time to train it. I have to train my proficiency with weapons, maybe learn some martial arts. Additionally, to strengthen my demonic skills, I need to kill strong humans to improve my mastery of these skills."

"What about getting stronger weapons? What about evolving your beasts to the next tier? Did you even think about getting stronger armor as well? Shouldn't you also gather more information on Destiny, who somehow seems able to perfectly disguise as a beast?"

Moving her body closer, she embraced him from behind as her breasts pressed against the back of his head. "Also, you wanted to learn more about the runes and the elves. Not to mention, you need more information on the emperor, David and the salesman. And this is just a fraction of the things that you should be doing."

Hearing her words, Zaroth's eyes widened for a moment. He had indeed forgotten some of these tasks, and being reminded of them all in such rapid succession gave him a headache.

"See? You are thinking about too many things and forgetting some along the way. Your body is getting stronger, as well as your soul, but your mind is under heavy load. So if you want to not burn out, I suggest you take a breather from time to time."

Taking a step back and releasing him, she spoke calmly, "Your body can be healed, your soul is protected by me to an extent, but your mind is yours alone. If it breaks, there's no mending it."

Truthfully, he wanted to retort, but Luna was right. He was thinking about so many things at once that he couldn't focus on the present, meaning he could make careless mistakes along the way.

There was no need for more talking as Luna saw Zaroth had understood her point. As such, she went back to playing with Nightshade.

Putting the book on the table, Zaroth gazed at the ceiling.

He tried to force his mind to focus on something else, but found it nearly impossible. It felt like with every passing second, he was overwhelmed by all the different things he still had to do.

"Things may be worse than I thought," he muttered under his breath.

His thoughts were interrupted as he felt something nudge his side.

There, Silverfang was looking at him with expectation in his eyes.

It seemed that he had gotten jealous about Luna only playing with Nightshade and wanted some company as well.

With a sigh, Zaroth put his hand over the beast's head.

"Relax, huh? Well… it's not a bad idea to try it."