Tangled Hearts - The Alpha's Baby Mama-Chapter 215: Confessionals...

Xavier POV

Kurtis gave me a hard stare as I paced his office for maybe the 100th time since I arrived. I knew he hated it but I just couldn’t stop myself from doing it. I feel like my brain would explode if I didn’t do anything about it.

"My grandfather said he has some sort of illness and his chances of surviving are slim not to mention Selene is pregnant with his baby. Can you imagine that? Like how could she do that to me,".

"How could she do what to you?" Kurtis scoffed shaking his head. He was bent over some contraption giving it his attention occasionally or when he wasn’t he would look over to where I was and glare. Like how he was doing right now. "They’re married, Xavier and married people can have babies – as much as they want. Surprised that this happened now,".

"But that shouldn’t be so. You told me specifically that for me to be able to reverse our fates, I need to get Selene back. But why isn’t she coming back to me? With Noah’s illness now, it’ll be difficult to separate her from him. I know how seriously she takes these things. Is there something I can do? Maybe something like a backtrack or ...".

"Nothing!" he interrupted me, crossing over to the other side of the room. "When I asked you to win back Selene, I didn’t ask you to be an asshole about it but then, why did I ever believe you? that’s the kind of person you are. You never give anything that doesn’t concern you 100% of your best. There’s always this reservation as if the person is unworthy of it and that’s fucked up. Real bad!" frёewebnoѵel.ƈo๓

"That’s not true!" I shook my head vehemently "Selene seems to think so of me too but that’s a fucking lie. I am not like that. I give my best at whatever I do and I would have wooed Selene but for Noah. He kept getting in the way, making me do things that I would normally not do and not the worst of it. He’s obsessed with her and he doesn’t know this,".

"Or maybe he’s someone who is just mad crazy about her. Don’t you think so? That’s a man who truly loves a woman. The only thing I hear from you at all times is complain. You’re always giving excuses for things that anyone can do and with ease. Do you think you’re better than Noah... just because Selene is your fated mate? Well, that’s why the moon goddess gives second chances every freaking time. It’s because of people like you,".

"Easy for you to judge," I fired back already getting riled by his word. "You’ve never been in a relationship, you don’t know what it means... You’re used to getting things done your way, you’re used to having everyone below you. You’ve never had to work or toll for anything that’s why you take the girls for granted,".

My mouth hung open as I stared at Kurtis wondering why he was speaking to me in this manner.

"You know that’s a lie!" I said firmly "I love the girls so much. I would do anything for them even if it means laying my life down,".

"And yet you couldn’t do a better job in keeping them safe?" he scoffed "Listen, the only reason why Noah will keep scoring points with Selene is because he guides the girls like some precious stone. See how he didn’t hesitate to go all out for them with his sister and even if he had gone there for his selfish reasons... that’s not how the action will be interpreted. You, on the other hand, have lost the girls twice. You’re so fixated on gaining back your position as Coalition leader that you abandon them. You’re a bad dad. Xavier Steele, admit it!"

"I am not!" I said vehemently.

"You’re also a bad husband. Curse or not... Noah recognizes what it means to love a woman, and what it means to be a man. I’ve been around those two and it’s justifiable why she’s still with him. You’ve ruined everything but I can hardly blame you, I entrusted you with a simple task and as usual, you failed!

With one last glare at me, he sauntered out of the office, leaving me as perplexed as when the conversation started. As soon as he left, Lucius entered the office, one look at his face, I knew he overhead everything Kurtis said. For some reason, he always preferred to stay away from Kurtis whenever we were meeting.

Silence reigned in the room as I poured over his words, trying to determine if he was just pissed that his plans won’t work or if he was telling the truth and the worst of all was, I didn’t think I was prepared to hear the truth. Knowing who Lucius was and his rather strange way of confessing the truth, he will not hold back.

"Have you confirmed if Noah is around now?" I asked him instead.

"Yes!" he nodded "One of the maids in the pack house said he cooked breakfast with Selene this morning and they all ate in the girl’s room. Later, he’ll be heading to the conference room at the east of the Packhouse. The Grand Lycan has selected a few candidates who he thinks would be able to replace the previous Pack Elders and officials but I don’t think you should go through him.,".

"Why not?" I asked staring at him squarely.

"Give me until this afternoon, I will speak to Selene. She’s the perfect person to remind him of his promise, okay? Already you broke a law, going before him again will worsen the whole thing. And, you don’t have control of your emotions these days, Xavier. I was going to talk to you about it but I might as well mention it.,".

What was it about today and confessionals?

"Let’s hear it!" I said quietly.

"You conducted yourself poorly when you went to see the King. I shouldn’t be here attending to all your needs. We cannot leave the pack house constantly because you rely on me to do certain things for you. Right now, I’m trying to keep up with Theo to know what’s going on. If Jared finds out that we’re both missing, it’ll be a problem. I was thinking you were incarcerated like your mom or something... to think it’s...".

"You’re my Beta, Lucius!" I stopped him midsentence "We shouldn’t be apart from each other. Although you do not want to admit it it’s the truth. I give the rules here and not you," I said steely.

"Then great, can you sack me while you’re at it!" he scoffed, "You know, I could use a permanent break this time around. I can’t remember the last time I had to put my leg up and just relax because I’m always jumping back and forth with you, one goose chase after another. You don’t take anything seriously... you leave the pack management to me and the only reason why you’re fighting for the Coalition leader is because you cannot stand being under someone. Being at the top helps you shriek rules!"

"Again, that’s a lie!" I shook my head trying to fight my conscience that was saying otherwise. "I always want you around me because you seem to have a solution to everything. You deal with people better than I do, Lucius. There’s no harm in wanting that,".

"You still don’t get it!" he sighed "This is not about me dealing with people... this is about you never fully participating in anything. You start something, get interested in it, invest resources and leave it halfway into the next project and whenever you’re doing these things, you don’t bother to find out if it’s okay with the people around you. You think only about yourself,".

"That’s a big, fat lie..."

"When was the last time you asked me how I am faring? Do you ever wonder why I might want a family, children, and a lot of things? Isn’t it concerning to you that up until now, I am as single as I am with no inclination to settle down?"

I remained quite unable to say anything.

"Well, I don’t blame you!" he laughed wiping his brows "When Selene left you, I was so worried that I’d wake up the next day and find you dead or something. I’ve dedicated my life to taking care of you and now I just want to put me first. When we return to Greyhound, I’m going to take a long break. You can figure these things out, yourself. I’ll train the staff around you to be at your call and beckon. From henceforth I want to put myself first,".

"If there’s anything you need me to improve, you could make a suggestion and I promise to work on myself to change. Fine, I am not perfect, okay... I’ve lived my life doing all the things I thought were normal and I’m sorry. But it takes anyone starting one day to learn to become perfect,".