My Alleged Husband-Chapter 743 - 713 Heartfelt Thanks_1
Zhang Zhentian knew that Xia Jing’s willingness to take such a step back for his sake today was no easy feat. If he repeatedly demanded more, he would only become an insatiable person. How could he allow the woman he loved to get hurt over and over again because of his demands?
For her, the things she yearned for were gradually coming true. Maybe fate was not going to disappoint her after all. She merely wanted her family by her side and perhaps this wish would soon come true. If only she stayed true to her initial intentions, then one day, they would surely be realized.
Xia Jing watched the initial impression Zhang Zhentian had of him. He knew that his husband had fallen deeply in love once more. This time, perhaps his husband would become so deeply entangled that he couldn’t extricate himself, but this was not what she wanted to see at all.
She had never intended for things to turn out the way they had today, but now that it had all become reality, part of a grand scheme, what could she do to change it?
Who wouldn’t utilize others for their selfish desires? Who wouldn’t go to any lengths, regardless of the costs, to get what they once wanted, hurting those who care about them the most?
People climb up step by step, each person stepping on the shoulders of others in a desperate scramble upward. But who knows that it’s because we are desperately climbing that everything turns out this way, leaving no option for change, and making everyone realize just how much they have done wrong in this lifetime?
"Xia Jing, thank you. That you could make such a decision today is utterly beyond my expectations. I never dreamed that one day you could really be moved by me. Day by day, I have been waiting for this moment to come, but I never expected it to actually arrive!
Maybe you don’t understand how much I’ve been longing for you to change, to become something else. All I want is you. Even if the whole world was offered to me, I would turn it down. I just want you by my side, to let you know that all my life, I have sincerely wanted to be with you!
Maybe you think every word I say is just a lie to deceive you, but do you know that every word I say to you is from the bottom of my heart? I have never thought about deceiving you, even if you are willing to deceive me at all costs for some things. Even when I know the whole truth, I am still willing to trust you wholeheartedly, because my love for you is beyond anyone’s understanding.
My sincere heart towards you has been let down time and again. My affection for you, you always feel that I am deceiving you.
You have never considered my feelings, how desperate I was at that moment; you couldn’t understand.
But now I have become numb for you, and for you, I am even willing to hurt my own family again and again.
I don’t know what I am incapable of doing anymore, so I really hope you won’t force me over and over again. I just want to live a stable life, without any more torment or suffering, okay?"
Xia Jing felt that there was no way to immediately respond to her husband, but this matter could not be forced. If there was no mutual affection in their hearts, what was the point of being together? It would only cause each other more trouble.
Rather than being together and making both lives unbearable, it would be better to not be together, to give each other a way out, a chance to live and be happy. At least there is still a life in this world. She truly didn’t know how to explain her thoughts to her husband.
Maybe once she spoke her mind, her husband would become even more unreasonable and take crazier actions. It was not beyond the realm of possibility.
"Zhentian, actually, I don’t know how to tell you some things now because I’m afraid that once I do, you will intensify your actions and become even more unreasonable.
You know how everyone gets to where they are. Who hasn’t reached this point today by their own efforts? Everyone who has found success has put in much more effort than anyone else. We have become what we are now; do you think we can ever go back to the way we were?
Even if in your heart you can pretend nothing happened, that none of these events took place, and that I don’t care about anything at all, do you think my heart doesn’t feel the slightest guilt?
I am not heartless. I feel all that you have done for me; I’ve just chosen to remain silent. I felt that if I kept silent, pretending that I don’t understand any of this, maybe one day you would give up. But I never thought my silence would last decades, and you’ve silently given so much over the years. Your feelings are not worthless in my eyes; they are overly precious, and I don’t know how to bear them, nor do I know how to withstand all this.
Perhaps you think your sacrifices for me are worthwhile, but in my eyes, they are not. All of it is just you foolishly giving your all!
Sometimes I really want to tell you loudly that I too want to live happily with you. But I am not a saint. My heart can shelter only one man for life. Even if my heart occasionally beats for you, it’s not love; it’s just being moved by everything you have sacrificed for me!
You should understand that being moved is not love. If one chooses their lifelong partner based on being moved time and again, it’s not realistic. Society is so cruel; it only makes us see clearly time and again the outcomes we face.
Do you understand what I’m saying now?"
What didn’t Zhang Zhentian understand? But he didn’t want to admit it. He could only continue to give foolishly and without regard, just as he had before. Maybe one day fate would truly look upon him with favor.
"Regardless, I am still sincerely grateful to you for giving me a chance this time, for being willing to try to love me for my sake. That is already incredibly good news for me. I won’t ask for more, as that would only backfire!"
