My Alleged Husband-Chapter 1574 - 1368: Feudalism
No one has ever thought about what ending they truly want. They always think that giving each other what they believe is best is perfect. But they never ask the other person if they want this kind of life. That kind of self is too frightening!
It seems I really should find a time to talk things over with Zhang Yichen. Otherwise, it would truly damage the relationship between the two of us, which would be really bad.
In the end, people can only choose to live...
After all, I never genuinely wanted the woman I love to live unhappily!
That was never my original intention...
Chen Gang thought about it. Things are getting worse and worse now. If I don’t come forward and explain the truth, I would be tormented by my conscience for the rest of my life because I’ve hurt the woman I love most. No matter what she did wrong, or whether she ever had feelings for me, since my heart loves her, I should give my all for her at any cost. If I truly hurt the life she could have had, then wouldn’t I become the main culprit? As the saying goes, "It’s better to break ten temples than to ruin one marriage." How can you be so cruel to harm the woman you love the most?
Ran Zhihan doesn’t know Chen Gang’s true thoughts now. He only knows his heart is in great pain because his actions really hurt a family that could have been happy. Because of his momentary confusion, he believed in the words of someone he shouldn’t have, leading to the downfall of his marriage. He could never return to what he once was, has become numb and unbearable. He never thought he’d encounter such things in his lifetime. He really doesn’t want much, just for his family to be safe and sound. But these days, things have become more and more troublesome, and perhaps he truly doesn’t have the ability to protect his family in the end.
"Zhihan, I think there are some things we should speak openly about, to explain things clearly. Why ruin our friendship over unpleasant matters? You should know I genuinely like you and have never deceived you. My heart has always found it hard to fall for a girl, but you broke that barrier. My heart beats wildly every time I see you. I sometimes don’t even know why I choose to be heartbroken over you. To be honest, many girls have pursued me before, but I rejected them all cruelly because I felt I should be with the girl I love, and I shouldn’t betray my own feelings.
Perhaps because of these thoughts, I’ve brought so much disgrace and trouble to your family, making it impossible for you to hold your head high in front of your husband. But I hope you understand I did this out of love for you; my love for you will never change. If one day your husband makes you suffer grievances, or if you can no longer be with him and want to leave him, please come to find me. My arms are always open for you; I’m always waiting for you to live with me. I don’t mind that you were married to your husband and had children, nor do I mind if you can ultimately be with me or not. What matters is whether you make the right decision.
I’m not inherently despicable; my heart will make every effort for the woman I love. Unfortunately, in your eyes, you can’t see my dedication, as your whole heart belongs to your husband, your child’s family, and your relatives, with no place for me. Your heart holds everyone in the world, but not me, as my presence makes you feel ashamed, casting a thick shadow of disgrace over you.
But I truly hope you can give me another chance, let us be true friends. Trust me, I will give my all to treat you well. I will protect you at any cost, ensuring you are not harmed. You can consider me as your brother, but I can never regard you as my sister, because I will always love you. No matter when or where, thinking of you makes my heart happy despite the pain because you are my candy fluff, making me realize there are many things in this world I should not possess nor force. You’ve made me understand everything. Thank you!"
Ran Zhihan was suddenly faced with Chen Gang’s unexpected words, slightly puzzled about what Chen Gang meant. Was he truly planning to stop pursuing her, no longer to disturb her happy life? But what should she do? She knew everything he did was because of her, yet she ended up hurting two people simultaneously. It was never her intention to do so. However, love isn’t something one’s heart can control. Perhaps doing so might lead to others’ displeasure, but she must protect the man she loves the most in her heart.
"Chen Gang, what do you mean?"
"Exactly as you think. I’ve decided to let go now, no longer to disturb your happy life. I will also find your husband and explain clearly that all of this was just a setup I meticulously arranged. You have never thought of betraying your husband to be with me. Maybe, as a man, my presence hurt his dignity and made him feel threatened, so he tried to deal with me at all costs. But I’m not afraid. Instead, I’m a little happy because at least I can stand openly in front of her and compete fairly for her. Even if you ultimately choose to stay with him determinedly, I won’t regret it because I’ve tried, and the outcome isn’t something my efforts could change. I understand what this means, yet my heart won’t hurt like it did before!
But I’m still in love with you now, uncertain how long it will take to forget you. But I can only tell you, perhaps I will never be able to forget you in this lifetime. You will always be in my heart, regardless of whether I marry and have children in the future. Maybe it’s unfair to others, but I can’t just forget you after waiting so many years for this unforgettable love, which shall forever remain in my heart!
Life is like this. It can make one foolishly happy over a matter, affecting others with loneliness due to an event. Who knows what risks they will face in the future?
