MTL - Chasing Summer-Chapter 19
Lin Zhexia's eyes were covered by a scarf.
All of a sudden, I couldn't see anything, only a blurry and soft white.
The tip of her nose became even more sour: "Can you really not see?"
She couldn't see Chi Yao's face, but could only hear his voice very close to her: "You are wrapped up like this, maybe I have clairvoyant eyes."
"But I am like this now," she said, and the tears that had been hovering in her eyes finally fell, "I look so stupid."
She was already wearing a coat that was too big, and now her head was completely covered by a scarf.
Anyone who reads it will think this is a neurosis.
Chi Yao's lazy voice sounded again: "No one knows it's you, and it's only me who will be ashamed."
"..."
Seems to make sense.
After the tears fell, the next words were easy to say.
She sobbed, "My mom... is pregnant."
"She hasn't told me yet, I overheard it by accident."
"I'm also happy for her. In fact, I've thought about it many times before this," she said, crying and hiccupping midway, "She, she and Uncle Wei will have a child of their own. There will be a brother or a sister ... but they haven't had a child in all these years."
"I used to think, is it my problem, is it because they consider me, so they don't have children, and have I... become their burden."
"So I'm actually, really happy."
Lin Zhexia choked with sobs when speaking, and sometimes stopped for a few seconds in the middle of speaking.
After sniffing, she continued, "I'm glad I'm happy, but I'm still a little stingy."
"They're really going to have a baby, and I feel like I might become an outsider."
"I'm afraid that I will be left behind, and I feel that the family, between them, may be the closest people."
Hiding under the scarf, she couldn't see Chi Yao, and she didn't know what expression he would have now, or what eyes he would look at her with.
Is it true that she will also feel stingy.
However, the next second—
She felt a light force pressing down on the top of her head.
It was Chi Yao's palm.
He pressed his palm on the top of her head, like stroking a stray cat or dog.
"You are not stingy."
She heard Chi Yao's voice saying: "It's timid."
His voice became very soft, even mocking: "He also said that he is not a coward."
Some things are better seen by the bystanders.
And he is still a bystander who knows Lin Zhexia too well.
He has long known her timidity, fear, and all the unease under her appearance.
"It's because you didn't dare to accept them, but now you turn around and feel that they might abandon you. If you don't open your arms to hug them, how do you know that you are not the closest person to them?"
After these words fell, Lin Zhexia suddenly froze.
Chi Yao added: "When I went to your house before, I saw that Uncle Wei brought you several gifts. Have you ever told him that you don't really like pink?"
Lin Zhexia opened her mouth: "I..."
she didn't.
She has always been "well-behaved".
Never joke with Wei Ping, never ask him.
For a long time, she played a "qualified" "daughter" and kept her distance.
In the early stage, it may be really rusty, but in the later stage, there is only restlessness at work.
Because she was left behind.
The thunder and pleading that I can't forget.
And in the memory, the vague figure of the man leaving resolutely.
What Chi Yao said was actually true, she was just timid.
She has always been insecure, so she has been avoiding, self-righteously keeping a safe distance from others.
"I don't know," she cried, "I don't know why I didn't tell."
Chi Yao's hand was still on her head.
Although he didn't say a word, the light pressure on the top of her head seemed to give her a little courage, so she continued: "Maybe, I'm afraid that people will hate you if you make a request, and you will be rejected."
Crying and crying, she doesn't want any self-esteem anymore.
In the end she cried and confessed: "I'm just afraid, I, I'm just timid."
After finishing all the words, Lin Zhexia's sobbing gradually stopped, and occasionally he would **** his nose twice.
After a while.
She heard Chi Yao ask her: "Are you done crying?"
The head wrapped in the scarf nodded.
"After crying, I pulled down the scarf."
The head wrapped in the scarf froze for a moment, then nodded again.
The scarf was pulled off, and after Lin Zhexia cried, her eyes were obviously red, and even her nose was red.
It's embarrassing though.
But the person in front of him was Chi Yao.
Being ashamed in front of Chi Yao has never been an unacceptable thing.
And after speaking out what was in my heart, I felt an indescribable sense of relief, as if this matter was not as difficult to face as before.
With red eyes, she didn't forget to warn: "You can't tell what I cried today."
Chi Yao: "You bribe me, I'll think about it."
Lin Zhexia's eyes widened, but he didn't expect him to take advantage of the fire at this time: "You have a dirty heart, and I won't join forces with you."
But after a while.
She stretched out **** from the sleeve again, and gently tugged at the hem of Chi Yao's sweater: "That."
"I did the math just now, and the pocket money I saved is about 500 yuan, is it enough?"
"..."
"Are you," he lowered his head, looked at the **** she stretched out and said, "are you planning to join me?"
Lin Zhexia remained silent.
Chi Yao twitched the corner of his mouth: "I'm lying to you. I'm not that boring, I don't even bother to say it if you beg me."
Hearing this, Lin Zhexia said, "Na Lagou."
She thought that Chi Yao would ignore her.
Because Chi Yao seldom flirts with her, he thinks her behavior is very childish.
But this time Chi Yao looked at her hand, then reluctantly curled his fingers, hooked hers, and touched her little finger for a very brief second.
After pulling the hook, she looked at Chi Yao's collarbone exposed in the cold air, and the sweater that seemed to be leaking, and realized belatedly: "Are you cold, let me return the coat to you."
Chi Yao looked fearless like an old man: "It's not cold, there's no need."
Lin Zhexia: "How can the weather not be cold?"
Chi Yao: "Don't you think..."
Lin Zhexia: "?"
Chi Yao: "I look better dressed like this."
"..."
"I just love concave shapes."
Good-looking is good-looking.
But, very sick.
The sky was completely dark, and there were not many pedestrians by the lake.
Lin Zhexia suggested: "It's late, let's go back."
The two walked back side by side.
Walking to the street sign in Nanxiang Street, Chi Yao stopped and called her name.
"Lin Zhexia."
Hearing this, Lin Zhexia turned her head sideways.
She saw Chi Yao take out a piece of paper from the pocket of the thin-looking pair of jeans.
He held the piece of paper between two fingers: "Is the torn piece of paper you gave me last time still count?"
On the paper are the words she wrote: wishing card.
"If it counts," he bent his fingers slightly, "coward, I'm going to make a wish."
"My wish is—you go home now and tell Uncle Wei that you don't actually like pink."
He added, "Go and try with your hands open."
Lin Zhexia took the paper in a daze.
This wish was something she had never thought of.
Before she jokingly wrote a wishing card to Chi Yao that day, she thought that this wishing card would eventually be used by Chi Yao to manipulate or tease her.
When Lin Zhexia opened the door and entered the room, Lin He was watching TV in the living room.
The woman's hair was plaited behind her head, she turned her head and shouted, "Xia Xia, are you back?"
Then she frowned again: "Why do you go out dressed like this? Where's your coat? It's so cold outside today."
Lin Zhexia: "I was in a hurry to go out, so I forgot."
Lin He was very angry: "Why don't you forget yourself outside and know how to go home."
Lin Zhexia made up an excuse and explained: "As soon as my classmates and I went out, we found a coffee shop to sit down, so it wasn't cold at all, really."
Lin He didn't believe it at first, but she went to hold Lin Zhexia's hand and found that her hand was indeed warm.
"Be careful next time," Lin He could only suppress the scolding, "Be careful, don't think twice before doing something."
Lin Zhexia said "Oh".
Lin He glanced at her again and asked, "Why are your eyes so red?"
Lin Zhexia said: "It must have been blown by the wind, it's too windy outside."
At this moment, Wei Ping came out from the kitchen.
He held a cup of freshly soaked hot water in his hand, and put the hot water in front of Lin Zhexia: "Well... drink some hot water to warm up your body."
After these words, the living room fell silent.
Only the sound of the TV remained.
The news was broadcast on TV, saying that the temperature dropped sharply tonight and it might snow.
Lin Zhexia looked at the steaming glass on the coffee table, tucked her hands into her wide sleeves, and tightly squeezed the note Chi Yao handed back to her just now, trying to muster up the courage to talk to Wei Ping.
But the surrounding air was too quiet, and she was a little afraid to speak.
She clutches the paper.
Recalling Chi Yao's words when he was parting.
-"coward."
— “Go try it with your hands open.”
Sitting opposite Lin Zhexia, Wei Ping was about to ask her "why don't you drink water", when she suddenly heard her calling him.
"Uncle Wei."
Wei Ping responded, "Hey? What's the matter?"
Lin Zhexia's fingers were tense, and she said unnaturally: "I, actually, I wanted to tell you a long time ago, in fact, I don't like pink. If you want to bring me a gift, can you not buy that pink color?" doll."
Wei Ping was stunned for a moment, and even Lin He beside him was also stunned.
Then he smiled happily with some relief: "Okay, uncle knows, then what do you like, uncle will record it."
Lin Zhexia loosened her tense hands a little: "If you want me to tell you now, I can't remember it for a while."
"Anyway, I'm a very tough girl."
"Okay," Wei Ping nodded, "Stubborn."
"..."
Wei Ping asked again: "Do you like that toy gun? Uncle liked this kind of hard toy when he was a child."
Lin Zhexia: "That's a bit too rigid, it's not suitable."
They reorganized into this family for so many years.
This was the first time she chatted with Wei Ping with a defenseless attitude.
The content of the chat is ordinary, and there is nothing special about it.
But Lin Zhexia knew very well that something had quietly changed under the ordinary appearance.
It was like a little girl who really wanted to open the door and communicate with the people outside, finally opened that door for the first time.
Before opening the door, the little girl thought that there would be many dangers outside.
But after opening the door, she found that she has been embraced by the outside world.
Even if the key to open this door is just a sentence "I don't actually like pink".
The atmosphere was so good that night, Lin He coughed lightly and said, "Xia Xia, I also have something to say... I'm pregnant."
Lin He explained: "I just learned about it not long ago, and I wanted to say it before, but this child came too unexpectedly. Your Uncle Wei and I have never planned to have a child, and we have been taking contraceptive measures."
For so many years, they have never mentioned their children to her.
"The main reason I didn't tell you is that we haven't decided whether we want this child or not."
Wei Ping continued: "This matter must be carefully considered, and you must also consider your thoughts. It is not so casual to have multiple children in a family. And the doctor also suggested that we think carefully. Your mother is old. Now, having a child at this age is a very hurtful thing, and it is easy to be risky."
It was very windy at night.
This winter is very cold.
But Lin Zhexia felt that the cold around her was dispelled.
At last she heard herself say, "If I could, it would be my sister, so I could braid her hair."
Lin He is pregnant and needs to go to bed early.
Several people chatted for a while, and went back to their rooms to rest.
Lin Zhexia lay on the bed after washing, and rolled around on the bed twice with the quilt in her arms.
Then she picked up her phone and sent a message to Chi Yao to report the situation.
- I, Young Master Lin, have always been a man of my word.
- I have fulfilled your wish.
-[appears with rose in mouth]
-[Cool Sunglasses]
After sending these few messages, she thought of one thing and got up from the bed again.
Before going home, she took off her coat and returned it to Chi Yao, but the scarf was still around her neck.
It's just that Lin He was too busy to notice that she was not wearing a coat and didn't notice the scarf.
This scarf is lying quietly on the desk at the moment.
She held the scarf, and many images flashed before her eyes.
There is a picture of her begging Chi Yao's house to weave a scarf for him.
There is also a picture of her crying while hiding in a scarf by the lake just now.
The scarf is very soft.
It was crocheted stitch by stitch by the boy who seemed to ignore everyone.
She suddenly didn't want to give the scarf away.
"Anyway, I was going to exchange it for a present," she whispered to herself, "and I didn't weave it myself, so it's not good to give it away. I've worn it, and I've got tears on it, so... I kept it secretly, It's not too much."
She folded the scarf and put it solemnly in the closet.
Then she carefully flattened the crumpled wishing paper and put it in a book of her favorite fairy tales.
It was only when she lay back under the quilt that she saw the news of Chi Yao's return.
There are two messages.
- Lin Shao is still honest and trustworthy
Another one.
- go to bed early, coward.