I Am An Illegitimate Child With A Legitimate Reason For Revenge-Chapter 133: Just why was this man made to suffer like this?

Alexa concluded that she would keep Rachael with her in the hospital so as soon as she was done with the four hour session then she would take Rachael out to eat nice desserts.

Besides Jane was in the hospital and didn’t really have any surgeries to perform so she would help her look over Rachael.

She opened her office, only to discover Raymond was already seated. Like the other day, he sought to dress plainly by wearing a leather jacket and jean pants.

"Welcome." Alexa said with a smile. This appointment was made last minute so she wasn’t flustered at being late.

She dropped her things on the table and picked up her notepad. Walking over to the couch opposite Raymond, she could feel his eyes following her every move.

"I assume your week has been good?" She straight up asked. "Did you get to sleep well without your pills?"

Raymond nodded his head and she smiled. That was good. She wrote it down.

"I did but... " he suddenly said and shook his head. "It was for two days at most. The other days, I kept waking up in the middle of the night and couldn’t fall back asleep unless I took the pills."

"So, can I say your mind was at peace for just those two days?" He nodded and she nodded as well. "And after that, you kept worrying once more, am I right?" Once again, he nodded.

Alexa took a few seconds to write that down and then looked up.

Raymond’s keen interest in her was noticeable as he wouldn’t look away from her for even a second. Maybe it was because he was seeing his wife in her but it was a bit uncomfortable for her, especially after finding out they were so alike.

"Ahem." She cleared her throat and he finally tore his gaze away from her. "So tell me, what are the things that bring back your heavy thoughts and drive away your peace of mind? Do you still feel guilty? Do you tell yourself over and over that you shouldn’t sleep in peace when you drove your wife to her death? Is that what plays in your head?"

"I have nightmares." Raymond said, his gaze looking down at his hands. "I see her. She tells me to keep loving her and I do. I will always keep loving her but then her eyes bleed. She cries tears of blood while carrying our dead child." He said and Alexa flinched. What did he say?

With a sad melancholy smile as he remembered this, he looked up at her.

"We were going to have a baby. We were excited and I wanted to protect them both but I... " he shut his eyes tight, fighting the tears he didn’t want to let down. "It is a mess I made so I understand if she will continue to haunt me in my dreams."

Alexa was silent. He also lost his unborn child. No wonder the extent of his nightmares and breaking soul. It was too much.

Why? Just why was this man made to suffer like this? What did he do wrong?

Her face contorted in pain as she felt tears gathering in her eyes. For some reason she could once again feel his hurt and understand how hard he was trying. It was a wonder how he still kept his life till this moment.

"You’re strong." She said and Raymond raised his head, seeing a smile as sad as his on her lips. "You did so much. You are definitely doing better than you think." She bowed her head. "With this much pain in your heart, your soul... it would’ve been understandable if you went ahead and killed yourself but here you are. You’re alive, you’re living for her. Living for the dream you couldn’t fulfill to her. You’re... " she choked on her own words, trying hard not to show her emotions but it wasn’t working.

She was getting so emotional for no reason. It was almost as if the recipient of all these broken emotions was her and she couldn’t tell why.

"Please, give me a moment." She said and turned away. 𝙛𝒓𝓮𝙚𝔀𝒆𝒃𝓷𝒐𝓿𝙚𝓵.𝙘𝒐𝒎

Usually, when going through sad sessions similar to this, she sympathized with the patient but that was that. She never really felt the need to cry. Her emotions were never this affected but with this man... her heart wouldn’t stop weeping for him.

A moment later, she finally collected herself and apologized to him.

"I’m sorry." She said, "Your words somehow found a way of pushing me to the edge and I thought, if I lost my daughter all of a sudden, I would definitely not be able to keep sane. That’s one of the reasons why I said you’re strong."

"You have a daughter?" He asked and she nodded.

"Yes. She’s going to be five years old soon but she’s already acting like an adult. Such a lovely cinnamon pie." She subconsciously blurted out and then realized she was talking about herself. "I’m sorry, I shouldn’t be talking about myself."

"It’s okay." He said with a bitter smile. "You know, we never even got time to name the baby or get it anything. We planned to do all that after the wedding but then... " his fists clenched and he raised his head. "I guess I really acted strong on the outside but I’m breaking inside. I don’t know how long I can last."

"You have to keep going." Alexa told him. "Keep going and don’t look back."

After the session, Alexa felt a little embarrassed that she was actually moved to tears in-between. That was so unprofessional of her but it couldn’t be helped.

"Miss Alexa, would you like to become my personal therapist?" Raymond suddenly asked her.

"I’m already treating you, so... "

"Not that." He said. "After today, I don’t know when I can leave my country. I’m going to be so busy that I won’t have time to visit for the session."

’So that’s what his assistant meant.’

"Your words have a good impact on my mental state and I’m sure if I listen to you frequently then I just might regain my peace of mind." He added and she nodded. "So this is my proposal, would you be willing to come over to my country every weekend in order to give me my sessions?"

"What?"