Astral Flower-Chapter 565: No

"You’re indeed the one who got off the easiest, Yu Hua." Tang Si Qin passed a glance at her. "That’s why you will never be able to truly understand."

Feng Yu Hua pursed her lips. "You can tell and I’ll try."

Tang Si Qin chuckled. "Tell? I’m afraid that it’s not going to be possible."

The pain in his heart, the rage he had accumulated over the years, and the hatred he bore towards those people. It was not something that could be shared to others so easily.

Even if he put those feelings into words, it would never be able to truly convey the pain he experienced.

No one but him could understand what he was feeling.

Thus, he despised those people who said that they could ’understand’ what he was feeling and told him to tell them.

Tell them?

Heh, it would have been better for him to knock them off and made sure they didn’t bother him. Their hypocritical words were only going to disgust him even further.

"Are you still going to do it?" Feng Yu Hua asked another question after they were silent for a while.

"Of course." Tang Si Qin put down the scalpel in his hand. "Even if the method might be different from what I thought, but I will never forget the revenge I planned all these years. If what was needed was for me to go walk down this bloody path of revenge, then I’ll do it gladly. For I am not willing to forgive and let them go." 𝑓𝓇𝘦ℯ𝘸𝘦𝑏𝓃𝑜𝘷ℯ𝑙.𝑐𝑜𝓂

Flame of hatred burned in Tang Si Qin’s eyes.

He took a deep breath and calmed down the next moment, a habit that has been developed over the years to prevent the organization from noticing his thoughts and feelings.

It was more like almost all of them had this habit.

The ability to calm themselves down no matter what they actually felt. Some of them would not disturbed at all from the very beginning while those who felt their feelings turbulent inside would calm themselves down in an instant.

They could never let their feelings be the reason for their action.

That was all.

"I see." Feng Yu Hua nodded and looked at her hand.

Qing Shu Lian looked at Feng Yu Hua and then asked, "Do you want to back off from this?"

"No way." Feng Yu Hua chuckled. "Why should I back off now? I’m not afraid of them and I’m ready for this."

She knew very well the consequences of betraying the organization.

Because someone close to her had betrayed the organization many years ago and wanted to bring her along. But she was not brave enough at that time and could only watch as her friend died.

But it also made her realize that doing nothing will never change anything.

She just didn’t have the ability to do something because these people were watching her tightly and will never allow her to be outside their watch.

It was annoying.

But she got used to it as time passed by and knew that if she truly wanted to do something, she had to find the right chance to do it. It was just that she didn’t have much plans inside her mind about what she actually wanted to do.

And just like that, time continued to drag on for years.

Hesitation, confusion, unwillingness...

Everything just continued to accumulate until Feng Yu Hua met Nan Hua. Even if she didn’t know what Nan Hua was actually planning to do, but she knew that this was her chance. Perhaps, her only chance in her life.

And now that Nan Hua had released her, she could actually walk off.

But she didn’t want to.

She had made her promise to Nan Hua and Nan Hua had treated her well, even to the point of telling the secret about her past that she herself had never known.

So Feng Yu Hua made a promise to herself that she would also help Nan Hua in whatever she wanted to do. Even if this meant that she might end up trading with her life, she was willing to do it.

For the sake of the freedom that she had tasted.

And for the sake of herself.

"Do you even want to back off?" Feng Yu Hua asked with a grin to Qing Shu Lian.

Qing Shu Lian shook his head. "No."

He also wanted revenge, revenge against the organization through the method that Nan Hua had told them to do. Even if he knew that it might end up making him the enemies of many people, but it was fine.

In the first place, he had never thought of walking the ordinary path anymore.

Ever since his parents sold him out and exchanged him for money, he no longer have any feelings for them. The only reason he put on the appearance was because he knew very well that he would not be able to survive if he were to go out there alone.

Now, he knew that he could survive.

His capability was already more than enough for that.

All he needed to do was to live.

"Good." Tang Si Qin chuckled. "I’ll go back first. There are some things I have to do on my own. You don’t have to worry about me."

"We’re not worried about you."

"You can go."

The two of them were very calm and Tang Si Qin kept smiling. "How coldhearted, but you should keep that up. Being too attached is not good."

The two of them watched as Tang Si Qin walked away and smiled.

They knew that very well.

The mortality rate in the organization was simply too high. Being attached to one person would only increase the pain in their heart. After having so much pain because of various trainings and so on, adding another pain from the loss of their comrades would only break them down even further.

"Let’s go back too, Shu Lian."

"Yes, Yu Hua."