365 Days To Love-Chapter 227 - TWO HUNDRED AND TWENTY-SEVEN:I Want To Be A Better Man For You.....And For Our Baby.
Lucy’s eyes snapped open.
Staring right at the enormous chandelier that was hanging up and was staring right back at her.
She didn’t need anyone to tell her where she was,she’s back.To her prison, back to her devil and tormentor.
Just staring right up ,the flashes of yesterday’s event came across her mind and she left out a silent sob for her foolishness.
Her hands moved up to stay on top of her belly,while caressing it as if she could communicate with the little life that was in there.
To be honest,she wasn’t thinking straight when she had told the doctor to terminate the pregnancy,that was just her emotions and her messed up mind about the whole issue taking over her.
This was Nathan’s baby,and it was forced upon her,but with the tables turned around without putting the blame on Nathan.This was also her own baby.
If he hadn’t turned out to be such a monster under that fine face,she wouldn’t have minded carrying his baby as long as that would stop her brother from dying.
It was a dream to every girl out there to be noticed by the two brothers,but Zaiden is already taken by the woman she shared an uncanny resemblance with.
This was all because of the face she carried,she looked like Hazel,and Nathan has a thing for her.
Maybe,just maybe if she didn’t remind him of the lady that can never be his,she wouldn’t be stuck here in this situation right now.
Also,if she also didn’t walk up to him in the club that night while trying her luck with him,she wouldn’t be here carrying his baby that he knows nothing of yet or did he?
She didn’t want to imagine the look on his face if he knew about this. There’s no doubt that he wouldn’t destroy her womb,and the baby in there if he knew about the child in there.
There’s no point in him trying to deny the fact that the baby isn’t his,she’s been staying with him for three month and he’s the only man that has gone in between her legs.
An act that she’s going to regret all her life,he took away everything from her.Her innocence,her brother and also her chance at having a normal life.
She didn’t imagine herself being a mother at just twenty two,that’s too early. She expected more and had a lot to do with her life before settling down with the man she loved.
Nathan wasn’t that man,and he can never be.She wouldn’t love a devil,an abuser who always looks for silly reasons to take his aggression out on her.
Maybe she should have told the detective about his abuse on her?
That was the right thing to do.The right thing but yet ,she didn’t tell him even she got the chance and here she was right now, regretting not doing that.
Is she not a fool?
She got the chance to tell the world how crazy and twisted Nathan was, but she had stupidly played with that opportunity and it was never going to come again.
She’s sure of that.
Was he looking for her?
She couldn’t help but to wonder if the detective,had filed a warrant against Nathan to search his house for her.
He will come for her.
He has to.
But he has to be fast about that, Nathan might end up killing her if he takes too long to come for her.
Was it the right thing to take her chance, by telling him that she was carrying his child?
Was that going to change anything?
He’s heartless,any man that had the heart to kidnap a woman,rape and beat her up for no reason has no heart to care for his baby.
What makes her think that he would want her to carry his baby?
She’s nothing but a lowlife who had fallen into his trap,who would listen to her if she makes it out here alive and tell everyone of how he’s been treating her. 𝒇𝓻𝓮𝓮𝙬𝙚𝒃𝒏𝓸𝙫𝒆𝙡.𝓬𝓸𝒎
Absolutely no one.She has nobody of any higher influence that would find justice for what Nathan did to her.
Was life not unfair?
Jordan.
Her eyes widened when she remembered her brother,she was keen to know what the mother fucker has done to her brother in her absense.
So,she sat up, she felt limb in her arms and legs as if she had slept on the cold floor yesterday.
"I see you are awake"Nathan spoke up from behind,making her jump where she sat further back in the bed when her eyes collided with the figure that has been watching her for a while since she’s awake.
He was her all along.
Watching her, waiting for her to be awake.To confirm from her if the rumours he heard about her at the hospital trying to abort his baby.
He didn’t know how he felt when Eric had dropped the results on his table, confirming that she was carrying a child in her womb.
A child.His child.
He was confused on how to react to the sudden news, because he felt hurt when he heard that she wanted to remove it.
And it was all his fault,No woman in their right senses would want to kill her child,but there was one right here staring at him that those big eyes of hers that were screaming fear for him.
Lucy.
When will she ever learn that her crying was a huge turn on for him,and he couldn’t help but want to tear that cloth off her and have his way with her.
She was trying to get rid of him from her life, nothing that was possible anymore because she’s now carrying his baby,and there’s nothing she’s going to do about that.
He’s not going to allow her to hurt the very first fruit of his,and he wouldn’t mind fixing that into her brain for her to understand that she belongs to him now.
It’s not as if he’s not capable of taking good care of her,her brother and her future generations to come.So why the heck does she still run away from him as if she didn’t enjoyed it too when he’s fucking her.
She clearly loved how deep he was in her,and was moaning his name for everyone to know who she belonged to everynight,so why does she act this way?
Besides,this was what she wanted. To have him for himself,now that he’s willing to grant her wish, why then does she still act silly?
"Sweetheart"He called, matching close to get as she moved further as if that’s going to stop him anyway from getting her.
"I..stay away ..from me..please Natha.n"She pleaded,and was crying already while pushing her legs up to her chest.
He smiled.
"Why should i do that, precious? I have been really lonely without you being here with me "He said moving close,and when she tried to run more he yanked her by her foot towards him, laying her down on the bed with him hovering on top of her.
"I won’t .do it..anymore ..I won’t run away..don’t hit me "She pleaded, watching as he raised her brow as if she sputtered out rubbish.
He raised his right hand up,which made her close her eyes while watching for the impact of his hands on her but surprisingly,it didn’t come. Rather he pushed some few strands of her hair from her face,before pecking her temple.
"Of course not sweetheart,i wasn’t planning on beating you up either,only a monster does that"He said sitting down on the bed,before hauling her up to straddle him,her legs were wrapped around his waist.
Even seated with her like this,he couldn’t help not to get hard and she felt that too.But he held in his want,he doesn’t want to scare her further if he plans on building something special with her.
That’s the very first time he’s putting someone before his own needs,what has she done to him?
She bent her head not daring to look him in the eyes,even though she’s still trying to find the meaning out of his words.She couldn’t take chances to trust him easily.
His hands went up to stay on her waist and she jerked, but he pulled her head up with his other hands to meet his face.
"I’m.. sorry"He said, watching the confused look in her face at his actions.
Was he apologizing to her?
What has suddenly gotten over him?
She couldn’t help to ask,he’s behaving as if he was planning on treating her as a human being rather than his fuck toy.
"I’m sorry for hurting you Lucy,I do hope you find a place in that beautiful heart of yours...to forgive me"He added,while cracking his head to make sure that he said the right words.
"W..why?"Her voice came out croaky,but that didn’t stop him from hearing what she said.
"Because sweetheart"He said, moving her hair to kiss her parted lips that didn’t flinch or get tense that he was touching her,before turning back to look at her.
"I want to be a better man for you..’’He said, looking into her brown chestnut eyes,trying so hard not to believe what he’s saying.
Then he decided to take it to another level,his hand resting on her waist moved on to stop on top of her stomach where his daughter was growing.
He wanted a daughter and not a son,and he’s sure that she’s going to give him what he wants.
So leaning close to her face, while watching her cheeks colour red at his actions,oh ! how naughty she is!
She still wanted him even after calling him a monster,yet her body still craved for his touch.
"And for our baby"He said lastly,before taking her soft lips into his, oh how he missed these lips!
