Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl)-Chapter 76: Dear dead eyes

My heart is pounding hard in my chest, not from fear but from the rush of finally seeing the one I am willing to bleed out for.

My Yujun.

I don’t care if he is the one holding the gun.

"Turn around and get out the way you came" he says robotically and I move closer to him.

He doesn’t take a step back, instead he holds the small handgun steady, his eyes empty of light and his face blank.

"Junnah" I murmur softly and step closer to him.

He moves forward and presses the cold rim of the small gun to my forehead.

The action doesn’t scare me. I just need to see him.

"Precious" I say and he doesn’t flinch or change his expression and my alpha, the wild wolf that had been raging all day long lays on his stomach, whining for the omega.

"Get out" he says again.

The room that had once been warm with our loves now feels cold.

"I just need to know you’re okay, let me see you, Junnah" I say, my voice low and breathy in the quiet and dark room.

I hear the gun click, he has turned off the safety giving me a clear warning, but he doesn’t say a word.

Recklessly ignoring the gun at my head, I bring my hand up to touch his face and he steps back with the gun brought down.

The small movement makes my eyes drop to his bed and I see a burnt piece of clothing...mine?

It looks like my hoodie, the one mom had placed next to him during his heat, but it is half burnt.

I walk over to the bed to pick it up, it hasn’t been in my hand for up to five seconds when Yujun storms to where I stand and snatches the hoodie from me with a growl.

"If you don’t leave, I will not hesitate to put a bullet through your brain?" he says quietly, one hand holding the hoodie to his chest and the other holding the gun up.

"Then do it" I say and walk into the gun, I take his hand and bring the gun to my heart with my eyes holding his firmly.

"Let go" he says and I shake my head, keeping the gun to my chest.

"Yujun-ah" I say his name, getting ready to explain to him what might have gone wrong with the video leakage.

"Hwang Jaehyun-ssi" he calls my name right back, still looking at me with those hunting eyes.

The cloud holding back the light of the moon moves away and I see clearly the details of his face.

He holds himself up with the confidence of a powerful alpha who has won countless battles effortlessly but his face holds the scars of a wounded omega who has lost one battle and gave up.

"Yujunnie..." I whisper as I take in the damage done to him.

It is just like the day at the park, fresh injuries mark his face, his lips are still raw and bloody, his chin has a cut that is wide and not taken care of.

I hold his face in my hand, and he doesn’t fight back even when he flinches at my movement.

"Fuck" I say under my breath and my hand move down to his neck, there are ugly scars there too.

"Fuck" I curse again, my hands are starting to vibrate as my heart burns with pain and my alpha whimpers.

Yujun doesn’t look like he is experiencing any of the pains, he looks like he has shut down, walking and breathing but dead.

What did they do to him?

Frantically, I pull down his sleep shirt, and he doesn’t say a word even when the flimsy material rips apart with the force of my hands.

His body is worse.

Deep welts, bruises of purple and red, discolored patches of skin and not a single Band-Aid.

"I’m sorry...fuck, precious" I say and hold his waist, being careful not to touch any of his wounds, "Come with me, I will take you to mom" I say and he raises the hand with the gun to land a blow on my face.

I stumble backwards and cup my nose as blood spills out, I look at him with wide eyes, surprised at the action and he still does not have a speck of emotions on his face or in his eyes.

"I keep telling you to leave" he growls at me, and I shake my head in refusal, "I will not leave you here like this" I say with my hand over my nose and his eyebrows draw together as his broad shoulders drop.

"It’s not yet mission accomplished?" he asks me and I frown at him, stepping closer to him but again he takes a protective step backwards.

"Your time of owning me is over Hwang Jaehyun, the secret is out" he says and I shake my head, "I didn’t-"

"And" he says, "you didn’t even have to try, you got a way into Choi clan, your partner has a bond with my sister, and you got to use the Choi heir" he lists and it dawns on me that this is what Yujun thinks of me.

All the wrong things.

"Fuck, baby let me explain...".

He lifts his gun again and this time, he holds it with both hands, his finger resting lightly on the trigger.

The deadness in his eyes somehow becomes...more dead and I bow my head in submission.

"It costs me nothing to kill you right here and now" he says, his voice still mechanic and robotic.

This is not my Yujun.

"So now leave, I love your mother too much to cause her pain" he says and I look into his eyes to see if I can find my Yujun and I don’t see him.

All I see is an alpha.

Strong, confident, composed...fake.

I draw away and go over to the window. I had sworn to Yujun to let him use me like a drug and I plan to make sure he heals.

I will respect his choice and command but...

I look over my shoulder one last time at him and he is still standing there, back straight when he should be hurting and being tended to.

Face stoic when he should be sobbing and seeking comfort.

His room smells nothing like a home, it’s bare and sterile like a prison.

That is what this place is...an air-conditioned, high-class interior designed and beautiful prison.

"Yah, Choi Yujun, wait for me...I will be back" I say and he frowns.

"Don’t you dare, I will kill you the second I see you" he says and I nod before I jump out of the window.

No matter what, I will be back.