Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl)-Chapter 74: Ground me

Jaehyun’s POV

’Junnah’ my alpha has been whining repeatedly for hours on end and I am going crazy.

Crazier than I would normally be.

I pat the lighter in my pocket to feel something grounding while I struggle with sanity.

It’s almost as if Yujun fell off the face of the earth the day he left Hwangyeon with his sister.

His phone went unanswered for some hours and then disconnected.

It’s been two days, and I am not sure how much control I can practice before I storm into the Choi territory and demand for what’s mine.

’I should have marked him’ my alpha supplies and I run my tongue over my teeth.

The sharp edges of my teeth cause my tongue to bleed, and the metallic taste of my blood seems to ground me better than the lighter I carry around.

A knock on the door makes me look up and Taeho walks over to where I sit on the edge of my bed.

"Anything?" he asks and I lift my head to look at him, he looks as worried as I feel about Yujun’s disappearance, and has been spending hours of not sleeping just to help me.

"Nothing" I say before pressing my injured tongue flat against the roof of my mouth.

"We have to be calm and strategic about this, rushing in and attacking will only fuel the already ongoing war" Taeho advises me and I take a deep breath because what he is saying is true.

The tension between the two clans has only thickened in the past two days, especially with release of that video.

"Fuck" I curse and bow my head into my palm.

I shouldn’t have taken that fucking video.

I had my intentions and my plans, I wanted to ruin and humiliate him but I couldn’t carry through with it...the temporary rush of power in the moment died with the moment and I just couldn’t do it.

I should have deleted it immediately.

I should have...

I should find whoever it was that got it and...

"What’s on your mind, brother" Taeho asks and I lift my head, "I need to have something done...anything" I say and he nods, avoiding eye contact with me as he does.

"Get me whatever new information you can find on Sehwa, we haven’t heard from her in a while and its disturbing" I say and Taeho leaves immediately.

I know he still doesn’t accept that Sehwa is a danger, but he stays by my side and that’s all that matters.

Quietly I go over to my wardrobe to change into darker clothes for my mission, I can’t wait anymore, I need to get answers for myself as soon as possible.

Does Yujun hate me now? Do I need to grovel or do I need to fight?

I am buttoning the cuffs of my shirt when my door swings open, and mom walks in with a knowing look on his face.

I feel my tension dissolve just at the sight of him, knowing that I have someone who can help me through whatever this is.

"Wait till night" he says, and I don’t argue or pretend with him, instead I walk to him for a hug.

"I don’t understand why I crave him so much, it hurts" I drop my head on his shoulder, baring myself for him to see me and help me.

"I know pup, I know" he whispers and rubs my back gently, "your father and I went through something similar" he says.

"I can’t sit back and not go to him" I say and he just rubs my back still, not saying a word yet.

"You have your family behind you, do what you need" mom says and I let out a sigh.

"Thank you" I murmur and pull away from him.

He smiles at me and pinch my cheek between his forefinger and his thumb, "my pup is now a grown man" he says.

"Still your pup" I say and I see his eyes fill with tears.

"Whatever you do, Jaehyun, make sure you come back to me, understand?" he says and I whine in my chest and bare my neck for him.

My mom hugs me and rubs his face into my scent gland while releasing his scent as well, I shut my eyes and take in his comforting smell.

"My baby" he calls and I hum in response, "There is unrest in the inner circle, prepare to be faced by people who will want to take you down" he says.

The tone he speaks with sounds almost haunting.

I pull back from him to look in his face and he blinks slowly.

"The moon goddess has given me signs, but Yujun comes first, he needs you" he says and I nod.

My mother has always been gifted with a connection to the moon goddess, and it makes him divine, makes him stand out amongst a thousand people.

"Mom what about Sehwa" I ask and he shakes his head, "You know it doesn’t work like that, I only get what I am shown" he says.

Tilting his head upwards, "that woman has to be put to a stop as soon as possible, I am sick of her" he says and I sigh, also tired of her.

"I will do anything to make sure she never harms anyone ever again" I say and my mom pats my cheek.

"Come back to me soon" he says and leaves the room.

I look out the window and see that the sun is starting to set slowly, looking at my wrist, I calculate how long I have left before night and before I can go to find my Yujun.

Antsy, I pace my room and count down the minutes with the ticking of the clock till the lights go out and I slip on my black leather jacket and leave the room, closing the door softly.

I greet a number of people as I walk by, and they greet me in return.

My body walks while my mind replays mom’s warning, and I plan my rebuttal, the last meeting had been a sign of their underlaying rebellion and fuck am I ready for it.

Absent-mindedly, I bump into a warm body and hold the person to steady them, "sorry" I apologize and the second I look at the face, my mouth goes sour.

"Why Hyunnie? You don’t look too happy to see me" Sehwa says, standing in front of me with eyes wide and bright like an innocent child’s.

Without thinking, I lurch at her and wrap my hands around her throat.

My alpha is completely losing the control we barely had left.