Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl)-Chapter 72: Feel the burn

Yujun’s POV

In pure and speechless horror, I stare person on the screen...at myself.

In heat.

On camera.

I look useless and weak in the video, I look like everything my father hates about omegas...everything he has worked hard to make sure I never end up as.

"Alpha please" my own needy and breathy voice comes through the phone’s speaker, hitting me across the face like a hard slap.

I cringe and my breathing pauses from the sound, but I hold my head up as I keep on watching the video.

"Please" I say again and the camera shakes, zooming in closer to my face.

There is no denying that it’s me, anyone who sees will immediately recognize me, the zoom in on my details was deliberate.

I look pathetic with my entire face red from the heat and my mouth hanging open as I take hard breathes through my open mouth.

"You have no idea how much fun I am going to have with this" Jaehyun’s voice says with a chuckle following, I don’t need to see his face to know the kind of look he must have been wearing.

My brain is supplying it effortlessly, the way he had looked down at me as I begged, the way he had made me feel like dust...

Has this been the goal all along?

Oh Hwang Jaehyun.

"My son...MY SON reduced to a publicly humiliated clown...look at you!" mom says, the phone shaking as the phone in her hands shakes.

No word comes out of my mouth as I hold my hands to my chest in shock...there is no way...

This video was shot by Jaehyun, why would he?

"How could you be so stupid? I have worked all my life to give everything for you!" her voice breaks as she starts to sob.

Not for me...never for me.

"What will I say to your father?" my mom asks and pushes the phone into my chest, "this..." I say, unsure of what to say first.

I can’t believe I was stupid enough to trust Jaehyun this much.

"Yujun! Say something! What do we do about the world finding out about this embarrassment?" mom asks in distress, her eyes wide and red with her emotions.

With nothing to say, I bow my head.

An embarrassment.

I have done it again; I have dragged the Choi family name into the mud by letting my omega take charge for me.

What really was I thinking?

"Mom, do you even care where oppa has been?" Yunah asks my mom and hides me behind her back the way I have always done for her.

Facing my mother like a lioness defending her young.

"Where he has been doesn’t matter, the only thing that matter is where we go from here" mother hisses at Yunah.

"Do you know what is going to happen to us?" mom asks and holds Yunah by the shoulder.

"Everything will be taken away! We are a disgrace" mom says and shakes Yunah.

"You don’t deserve to be our mother" Yunah says bitterly and steps away from my mom backwards into me, "really?" mother asks, raising her voice as she speaks.

"Me too! I don’t deserve children like you" mother says and runs overs to a vase on the table to throw it down.

"Mom! You are being unreasonable" Yunah yells, "what is unreasonable is having to suffer this much for so long and still be considered as nothing! Don’t you understand? I am frustrated" mom yells back.

I get up from the hard floor and make my way to my room with slow steps, choosing to be deaf to my sister and mother exchanging heated words with one another.

My steps feel heavy as I move, like death sentence, how long do I have till father finds out about the videos?

How much longer do I have till he comes knocking at my door and order his men to take me away for a ’training session’.

I sit on my bed and look in the full length mirror at myself. I look the healthiest I have looked in a long time.

My skin looks like that of a man that has been loved.

My eyes seem to sparkle and in Jaehyun’s hoodie, I look precious.

’Let’s go back’ my omega says again.

"Shut up" I say, "shut up!" I scream louder with my hands over my ears, listening to the omega in the first place had only brought me here.

A ridiculed and insulted heir.

How could Jaehyun release the video? He has to be the one.

I remember what Taeho said before we left and how Jaehyun didn’t refute the claim.

At the end of the day the Hwangs and the Chois are still enemies.

I tug on the bottom of hoodie I have on and it seems like Jaehyun’s smell only got stronger.

I don’t want him, I don’t want anything that has to do with him.

I pull off the piece of clothing in rage with a shout that hurts my throat, tears that dares not slide down my face blurs my sight as I storm out of my room past my still arguing mother and sister into the large kitchen.

"Y-young master Yujun" the maid who had been listening on my family’s falling apart bows in greetings to me.

I walk over to the stove with the hoodie in hand.

"W-what...young master, it’s dangerous" the maid cooking exclaims and I give her look that makes her take off the boiling pot of soup in fear.

I hold the hoodie over the fire and watch it catch fire from the sleeve and the flames lick upward.

No...what am I doing?

I fling it away from the stove and to the floor.

"Water!" I shout, and the maid douses the hoodie in water.

I drop to my knees in front of the half-burnt fabric. I hate him so much...I can’t let him go.

"There he is...take the bastard away" the voice of my father’s right-hand man says from the door, and I drop my head.

Jaehyun-ah. I forgive you.