Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl)-Chapter 219: Reasons...?

Yujun’s POV

The alpha closes the door behind him softly and I step back, teeth bared, one hand held over my stomach to protect my daughter, while the other hand is held up in a fist, tightly folded and ready to fight in case he attacks.

"I knew I shouldn’t have let her come in here" Chan says to himself as he walks to stand right in front of me just like he always does, the man releases his pheromones to help me stay as calm as possible, but I remain on edge.

’Calm down’ the same words he always says to me, the same words he said to Yujin before he ended her life.

"Yujun...you don’t believe any of this do you?" he asks and takes the phone out of my hand.

My heart rate speeds up in fear of him seeing my upload, but he doesn’t look at the phone before he places it face down on the bed.

The back of the phone is cracked but still beautiful, and that’s when I realize it’s the exact phone he had forced me to buy...he really tried to make me into another Yujin.

"Something is wrong with you" I whisper and he draws in a sharp breath, "It hurts when you say something like that" he says softly, eyes holding the warmth that would fool everyone and anyone but not me.

"Something is genuinely wrong with you Kang Chan" I repeat and the alpha winces, thick brows creasing slightly like he can’t make any sense of my accusation, "you are crazy, mentally unstable" I growl.

"All I do is love" he says quietly, and I shake my head slowly at the delusional world he’s wrapped in.

"Love? This is love?" I ask in disbelief and the warmth in his eyes change into deep sadness.

"You don’t understand, nobody understands me and it hurts" he whispers.

"Who understands a murderer?" I yell at him, and he clenches his jaw, "I had to do it! You would understand if the people who loved you treated you differently because you’re different" he yells back.

The vein bulging at his temple and the spittle flying out of his mouth are warnings of how close he is to losing his mind, my pheromones sour and when he picks up the scent change, he groans deeply.

"See? You’re doing exactly what she did...why are you so scared?" he asks.

"I’m not a monster, I’m just different!" he yells again and runs his hands down his face, and I stumble backward to get away from him, deeply disturbed by the way he’s acting.

He looks like a madman possessing the body of a man who has been taught only how to be robotic, his movements are jerky and messy, he looks like he’s falling apart too quickly to even realize it.

"Because...because I’m not like them...because" he says, ruining his carefully styled hair.

"Chan...no one is treating you different because you’re differently" I say and the alpha looks at me; his eyes are red like he’s about to cry.

"They did, they really did, you don’t understand...my parents hated me" he says, deeply convinced in what he believes, and I shake my head, remembering what I read in his diary, remembering his parents acts and his interpretation of them.

"They didn’t, your parents didn’t want you in clan meetings because you were a child, they were protecting you" I say carefully and he growls, "I could wipe out everyone in a second, they should have let me!"

I shake my head at him, they probably already knew how messed up their son’s mind was and were also protecting the world from him.

"So you killed them?" I ask and he shuts his eyes.

"They had to go, they wanted to break me but I did it first" he says and open his eyes again, I see a flash of deadness and then they turn sad again.

"And Yujin too?" I ask.

"She knew I wanted a child and she let him die!" Chan says, his eyes shining gold as he says the chilling words.

"I loved her so much, but she was like my parents"

"Yujin loved you! she was going to come back to you but you..."

"You’re supposed to understand me, Yujun, me and you are special, we are anomalies!" he says and tears runs down his face, "they hate me, because I’m different..."

He sobs like a child for a few minutes, and I stare at him in horror, the way he sobs, the way his eyes are red rimmed, the way he presses his hand to his chest and hunches over...it looks real.

"Chan" I call his name.

He looks up at me.

"If you loved her so bad, then why did you kill her?" I ask and he sniffles, "just like my parents, now she’s with me forever" he says.

"She’s with me forever and she will be what I want, she can’t hate me"

"What are you talking about?" I ask quietly.

"The voices...she’s always here" he says and points to his head, "but when you’re here she’s silent...she knows you will understand me" he says and a growl slips through my lips.

"I’m not Yujin, Chan, I’m Choi Yujun" I say and he nods twice, "I know, I know...I...I just I want you, I’ve wanted you for so long too, but Yujin seemed nice, I took her but...but she broke, I know you won’t break" he says and I step back.

"You need help" I whisper and he whimpers, "I’m not...please don’t say that, please calm down for our pup" he pleads, pressing his palms together almost like he’s begging.

"Chan, you need help, I am not Yujin and my pup isn’t yours" I snarl with my hands on my stomach and he roars, "I want it! I want it!" he says.

"Don’t be like her, I want to be a dad, I want to raise a pup in the way my parents didn’t do for me, don’t be like her, I beg you" he cries out.

No point drives his acts, no reason motivates his madness, no one hurt him for him to hurt everyone else...he’s just...psychotic.

The phone he dropped on the bed dings twice, then again and again, he frowns as he moves past me to pick it up.

"Oh Yujun..." he says as he looks at the screen and the pitiful look on his face wipes out immediately.

"Oh, you’re just begging to be her, aren’t you, Yujun-ah?" he asks.