Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl)-Chapter 146: Talk...

Yujun’s POV

Chan is lying on his bed with his chest rising and falling slowly.

Even in the plain hospital clothes, he looks like a person who was born to stand out, handsome and disarming.

What do I make of this man?

I’m still stuck between figuring out if he’s an angel or a devil, still confused on whom to trust, and who to run from.

"Excuse me" a nurse says as she knocks on the door.

"Will you be sleeping here?" she asks and I look at Chan before giving my response, "yes" I say.

"Okay, we will get a bed in here for you" the nurse says and leaves the room.

She returns in less than twenty minutes with a bed for me to sleep next to the alpha, "this should serve you" she says as she and another nurse rolls it in.

"Thank you" I murmur before I climb into the bed.

’Tonight, we rest, tomorrow we fight’ my omega says and I hum before I curl myself into a ball and sigh as sleep takes over me.

The hospital is buzzing and full of life when I wake up, but inside this room, everything feels oddly still.

I groan and turn to my side to avoid the sun that’s filtering in, only to be face to face with Chan.

The alpha is awake and sitting up with his arms folded, his eyes are on me like he has been watching me all along, they look soft and beautiful with the sunlight.

"You’re up" he says softly, his voice coming out rough and scratchy with sleep and I give a gruff grunt before sitting up.

He leans back into the bed with a heavy sigh; he shifts his eyes from me to fix them on the wall as he stares at nothing.

"It’s time to talk" I say and he turns his head slowly to look at me.

"Yujun, I need you to believe me that I will tell you everything" he says and curl my fingers into a fist, already getting annoyed by him.

"Talk" I say through my teeth.

"I will, but first, I need you to calm down, you pup is really stressed" he says softly, that’s when I smell the milk in the air.

The usually mild and subtle scent is now unpleasant enough to make me wince at the sourness of it.

I huff lightly as I realize, truly everything I do now will have a consequence one way or the other, whether good or bad...it’s not just about me alone now, my pup too is involved.

"Please, your pup’s safety is very important" he says.

I pull the clothes on my body up, gathering them together just enough to press my nose into them, into Jaehyun’s clothes, trying to see if I can get a whiff of him.

"I’m calm now" I say, while regulating my breathing and my heartbeat.

"You should eat-"

"Kang Chan" I growl, stopping him from saying anything else.

"I just..." he says and bows his head as the tips of his ears redden slowly, showing his embarrassment.

"Stop wasting my time" I hiss and he nods.

"I was born an alpha" he says, "I already know that" I snarl at him, already fed up with whatever game this is.

"You don’t understand...no one understands" he says and my expression softens but my omega stays alert, still stubbornly growling at him.

"My parents watched me grow, but they didn’t know what to do with me..." he says and I go still.

If he’s telling the truth, it means he went through what I did, maybe even earlier than I did.

"I can change eye colors on command, I can control my scent easily..." he says and I nod my head slowly.

"I can do everything no one should...and I could do that even as a toddler" he says and changes his position, sitting up with his legs pressed to his chest.

"Do you understand?" he asks me and I see the way his eyes look glassy, like he’s near tears.

"Yes, I understand"

"They really didn’t know what to do with me, I had to be hidden away, a freak of nature" he whispers the last part and blinks twice.

"It was hard, to make friends...to be happy...to fall in love, it still is" he says and briefly meets my eyes.

It feels like he’s talking to me about me, about the unfairness I had lived through.

"And when kids started to present, I had to tell them I was a beta, but I never truly had anyone to tell that lie to" he says with a chuckle.

"Then I saw you in school Yujun, so full of life and smiles till you presented" he says and I remember the person I used to be.

I was lively and playful; my hands always held friends and my heart always cared for classmates.

"I smelt you and knew what you were immediately" he says.

"You wore the most expensive scent patch; you carried an extra bottle of perfume in your bag to hide your real pheromones" he says and gives me a small smile.

That morning after my presentation, I got up from the floor as an omega, full of shame and worry as I prepared for school...I had tried to drown myself in perfume, father would kill me and anyone who finds out.

"You kept your eyes on the floor, hid away..."

"Stop it" I snarl at him.

"Stop talking about my past like you lived it" I say to him and he winces.

"But I did, Yujun, I did live your past..." he says and we hold each other’s eyes.

The air in the room seems to crackle as I challenge the alpha, hurt that that part of me that I have worked hard to shove down was too plain to him.

Why doesn’t he get to know this much about me? To see this much about me?

"Stop it" I repeat, not even bothering to hide how much it hurts me.

"Stop it? You need to hear it all...I will show you who I am" he says and his eyes flash gold, regal, terrifying and at the same time...

Simple?