The Whole Internet is Shipping Me with My Ex-Boyfriend-Chapter 202: Surprise from Chi Yu to Gu Yuan

"You’re overthinking, I’m fine."

Those simple words, when spoken by Chi Yu, were cold and distant. He took a step back, increasing the distance between them. The closeness, the hug from moments ago, seemed to vanish in an instant, as if they had never happened for him.

To be honest, seeing him like this left Gu Yuan feeling a bit cold-hearted: "So, in your eyes, I’ve always been an outsider, not someone you can trust?"

"No..." he shook his head, instinctively trying to explain.

But after the explanation, there was only silence.

Fireworks streaked through the night sky, still blooming, and the sound was particularly pleasant.

Gu Yuan stepped closer to him and confessed, "Yi Shu has already told me about your trip to Yanjing for treatment. You didn’t want to admit it when you came back, but your physical condition is obviously poor. Chi Yu, do you take me for blind?"

"Even if you try hard to hide your terrible condition, you still have to travel with a doctor by your side. Chi Yu, despite your every effort to conceal it, your actions practically shout that you’re sick."

"Do you want me to award you a trophy for being a fool to encourage you?"

Chi Yu: "..."

Gu Yuan’s words were sharp and aggressive.

Chi Yu, however, was no longer flustered or uneasy. He calmly said, "That’s just your imagination. I’m fine, and I’m healthy, not the way you say."

"Chi Yu..." Gu Yuan felt ever more cold-hearted: "There are only two kinds of illness in this world: those that can be cured and those that cannot. I’m not cursing you, but if we’re talking about the incurable, are you worried that I’ll lose my mind if you die?"

Chi Yu spoke self-deprecatingly: "Our feelings haven’t reached a point where you’d lose your mind over me; I’m aware of that."

"Since you are aware, why don’t you want to tell me about your illness?" Gu Yuan pressed closer to him.

Chi Yu couldn’t dare look at her, his gaze drifting towards the fireworks blooming under the night sky. Seeing him deliberately distracted and ignoring her words, Gu Yuan couldn’t help but become more furious: "Is this question that difficult to answer?"

"Not difficult to answer, just unwilling to answer." His attitude grew increasingly cold.

He didn’t want to make her angry, the fireworks were an unexpected surprise, but he hadn’t expected Gu Yuan to observe him so closely. The closeness throughout the day was merely for this moment, to question why he hid it from her.

He had nowhere to hide, fleeing in a panic.

"Stop, Chi Yu!"

A chilling command came from behind, from Gu Yuan.

Chi Yu truly stopped. After hesitating for a few seconds, he turned back to stand in front of Gu Yuan, tugging at his lips with a devil-may-care expression: "Do you know why I didn’t tell you?"

Gu Yuan quietly waited for his answer.

"Because your need for control is too strong. I can’t stand your dominance and the pressure of your identity. By your side, I am always in a vulnerable position. Those who know about our relationship, who doesn’t say I’m nothing more than a kept man by you, Gu Yuan? No matter how hard I try to shine on the screen, I can’t shake off this label of being your kept man; this is my sorrow." 𝒻𝓇𝑒𝘦𝘸𝑒𝒷𝓃ℴ𝑣𝘦𝑙.𝒸ℴ𝘮

To Gu Yuan, his words were like a blow to the head.

"Sorrow?"

Gu Yuan awaited his answer but never expected to hear such hurtful words. It hurt Gu Yuan so much that she couldn’t tell if he deliberately said these things to twist the concept or if this was genuinely what he had always thought.

"Chi Yu, you’re responsible for what you say." Gu Yuan had to remind him once more: "You were the one who approached me first, did I provoke you? It was you who first broke into my world and deeply hurt me when I loved you the most. It is true that our relationship started with you taking the initiative, but have I not made any efforts?"

"What do your efforts count for? In the end, the response I wanted was nothing more than you reluctantly sparing time to humor me. Don’t portray yourself as so noble. Gu Yuan, our relationship is unequal, and I will always be subordinate to you. Over time, I feel unbalanced."

After a pause, he said, "But I do love you."

"..."

In this moment, in this setting.

The words Chi Yu spoke were the most hurtful and ruthless since they’ve known each other.

Even the last phrase "I love you" felt so cheap.

"After all you’ve said, is this why you hid and didn’t want to tell me?" Because of his words, Gu Yuan calmed down, her face showing no disturbance.

Chi Yu: "I suppose so."

"What illness?"

"Minor illness, but it requires some treatment, might die, might not."

The wind tousled Gu Yuan’s hair across her forehead; she brushed it aside, speaking slowly: "Are you sticking close to me during this time just because of that cheap sentence, saying you still love me?"

"Yes." That was his answer.

"Chi Yu, you’re truly selfish. On one hand, you hide your sickness from me; on the other, you blame me for not investing in the relationship. Yet, you cling to me fearing that I’ll forget you once you recover. You want everything, yet you are the most selfish yourself."

Gu Yuan didn’t want to recall the past, feeling wronged only made her feel sadder.

All her dedication and effort, in the end, became a display of dominance and pride in his eyes.

At this moment, Gu Yuan couldn’t even muster a bitter smile.

"Gu Yuan." Chi Yu called her by her full name instead of the affectionate term Yuanyuan.

Gu Yuan didn’t respond, remaining silent.

Chi Yu said: "Your father committed suicide because of your mother, you respect your father but deep down disdain him, because he died for an unworthy woman and still failed to gain any sympathy or pity."

Gu Yuan raised her eyelids partially, "What are you trying to say?"

Chi Yu: "You said you would not repeat your mother’s path. Are you unaware of how heartless you’ve been before?"

"Chi Yu, are you saying I’ve wronged you?!" Gu Yuan couldn’t hold back her shout.

His words left her confused.

Was he accusing her?

Or had she done something to wrong him?

But her reaction seemed like a snicker to Chi Yu: "Gu Yuan, you’re actually just like your mother."

"I’m not like her!!" Undoubtedly, Chi Yu’s words struck a nerve with Gu Yuan, filling her with aversion.

She sternly warned Chi Yu: "Do not compare me to her."

"Ha..." Chi Yu let out a slight laugh.

That laugh was undoubtedly laced with sarcasm, like an invisible thorn stabbing into Gu Yuan’s heart, refusing to be removed.

Steering away from the topic that made her lose control, she took a deep breath and asked him: "What was the surprise you wanted to give me earlier?"

Chi Yu said: "Close your eyes."

Gu Yuan truly complied.

She closed her eyes, waiting for the surprise he had mentioned earlier.

Chi Yu looked reluctantly at the person before him; he was befuddled, he was nothing, he had wronged her.