The Prince Wants to Assassinate Me Every Day-Chapter 1122 - 699: An Ning’s Confession (Second Update)
"What if I say that I truly like you now? That I’ve truly fallen in love with you, and that’s why I returned to your side, and it has nothing to do with Gu Xingchuan—would you believe me?" An Ning asked him deeply.
He said, "I believe you."
Whatever you say, I believe.
"Liar." An Ning saw through him at once.
He just didn’t want to expose her.
Xiao Jinxing listened to An Ning’s firm words and smiled slightly.
The smile clearly admitted it.
He didn’t explain but only said, "For me, it’s enough that you could come back to my side; nothing else matters."
"Do you really not care whether I love you or not?" Clearly, it was Xiao Jinxing showing her immense tolerance.
She now felt so angry that steam seemed to rise from the top of her head.
"Can I care?" Xiao Jinxing could feel An Ning’s anger and, following her words, asked her.
"You can." An Ning said slowly, "You must care."
"And about Fu Xingyi..." Xiao Jinxing hesitated to speak.
He felt he was, going too far.
So he chose to keep quiet.
"I admit, I may never be able to forget him in my life. After all, he was my first love, the first man I liked, and it was the kind of unrequited love that engraved deep into memory." An Ning said, "But you once said something very true, that if you were Fu Xingyi, you would definitely hope for me to live happily, rather than being sorrowful and listless for a lifetime because I couldn’t forget him."
Xiao Jinxing’s surprised eyes clearly showed tension.
"So I’ve hidden Fu Xingyi in my heart, decided, and let him go." An Ning said, with some helplessness, yet chose relief, "For whose fault is it that we are fated but not destined for each other, and whose doing that Heaven let me meet you again. Sometimes, you have to just accept fate!"
Xiao Jinxing didn’t know how to respond at this moment.
Some happiness came too suddenly, he feared, it was just an illusion.
"Let’s put it this way." An Ning also knew Xiao Jinxing wouldn’t easily believe her; she had spoken in such absolute terms before, so she explained, "For a long time, I really had no affection for you. Everything I did for you, saving you, helping you, was truly just to protect myself, to keep the Ye Family safe. When did I eventually fall in love with you? It should be during the rebellion with Bai Mowan; you tacitly allowed me to leave, for the first time I felt an unwillingness from my heart, a momentary reluctance towards you, that made me realize something about my feelings for you had changed."
Xiao Jinxing listened in silence.
He didn’t even dare to make a sound.
Afraid that the slightest anomaly would shatter his dream.
"Then Gu Xingchuan suddenly betrayed, took me hostage, and I risked my life to protect your kingdom and your life, maybe not just because I feared being ashamed in front of the world, but more importantly, I didn’t want you to die." An Ning spoke quietly.
As if reminiscing every bit of the past with Xiao Jinxing.
"Later, you went to the border, and I chose to return to the Imperial Palace. Returning was, on one hand, to save Gu Xingchuan’s life, and on the other, I truly decided to stay, to stay in the Imperial Palace, to be by your side. I even thought if Gu Xingchuan’s betrayal hadn’t happened, even if I had left you, would I regret it one day then sneak back? I wasn’t sure before, but now I can be sure, I would definitely come back." An Ning said, "I couldn’t bear to leave you alone in the Imperial Palace."
Xiao Jinxing’s Adam’s apple moved.
As if also suppressing his inner emotions.
"But ultimately, the matter with Gu Xingchuan happened between us. And in the face of life and death, the matters of the heart seemed less important and not so firm anymore." An Ning sighed slightly, "If a life intruded into our relationship, I couldn’t possibly remain indifferent, heartless, bear no psychological burden, as if nothing had happened and stay with you. So rather than saying I simply wanted to save Gu Xingchuan, it might as well be that I was also saving our relationship. As long as Gu Xingchuan didn’t die, I could stop being tolerant, stop resisting, stop forcing myself, I could love you wholeheartedly."
Xiao Jinxing looked at An Ning.
His eyes seemed to shimmer with a trace of tears.
But then, he held it back.
As a regal king, how could he, shed tears so easily.
"But you chose to make me completely lose hope in you." An Ning at this moment was not angry.
She felt wronged.
She finally decided to let go of the past.
Finally decided to say goodbye to the past, to cherish the person in front of her.
But Xiao Jinxing pushed her away with his own hands.
Left no room for compromise.
Even after encountering Gu Xingchuan at the Chagmengate, he still didn’t tell her that Gu Xingchuan was alive.
Ultimately, he showed no tenderness.
An Ning’s eyes suddenly turned red.
She wondered if they truly missed each other.
Would it mean that they’ve truly missed their entire lifetime?
Tears unexpectedly slipped from her eyes.
Xiao Jinxing’s heart moved slightly.
He reached out to wipe away her tears.
An Ning’s eyes moved slightly.
She was really a bit angry.
But thinking that Xiao Jinxing might be having a harder time, she seemed to be less angry.
She wiped her tears and snot with Xiao Jinxing’s sleeve.
Xiao Jinxing pursed his lips.
Knew that this man had a cleanliness fetish.
She did it on purpose.
She said, "Promise me, never to hide anything from me in the future, even if it’s for my own good, you mustn’t! You have to trust that I would never wrong myself, never force myself to do things I don’t want to do, let alone, there are many ways to repay someone, I’ve never thought submitting oneself was the only way, actually find it contemptible. So I will never wrong myself, submit myself under a man I don’t like."
Xiao Jinxing looked at An Ning, looked at her face full of determination.
Just telling him the sincerity of her feelings for him.
It was absolutely not because he spared Gu Xingchuan, that she returned to him out of gratitude.
She returned willingly because she truly fell in love with him.
Xiao Jinxing’s eyes moved slightly.
The joy and emotion in his eyes abruptly retreated.
He said, "Then the people you like should be quite numerous."
"Huh?" An Ning frowned.
What does Xiao Jinxing mean?!
Could he be so glad that he’s lost his mind?!
Speaking so incoherently now.
"Nothing." Xiao Jinxing suddenly stopped speaking again.
An Ning was angry.
How could someone leave you in suspense halfway through a conversation.
Like...
An Ning suddenly recalled the last so-called "night attendance," it was the same, leaving her hanging.
Even though she hadn’t thought about it again.
But once the memory resurfaced.
It still felt like a cat clawing at her heart, uncomfortable.
"What are you really talking about?" An Ning was angry, "I only ever liked Fu Xingyi and you, what do you mean by saying I like many people?! If Fu Xingyi hadn’t died, I wouldn’t even like you."
"..."
"So why are you falsely accusing me?" An Ning questioned.
"I misspoke." Xiao Jinxing replied.
"When did you ever misspeak!" An Ning stared at Xiao Jinxing, "Just said nothing should be concealed from me, and now you’re not talking again, Xiao Jinxing, are you taking my words as wind past your ear? I’m seriously going to die from anger."
Xiao Jinxing could also see An Ning’s anger.
He pursed his lips.
Under An Ning’s direct gaze, he finally spoke, "Don’t you like indulging in revelry? The male concubines in Xuzhou... and Guan Yu who follows you, as well as, those others I don’t know about..."
An Ning watched Xiao Jinxing speak cautiously.
So when she said she wouldn’t submit to someone she doesn’t like.
And Xiao Jinxing thought she had been with many people’s embraces.
An Ning suddenly laughed, her laughter was bright.
Xiao Jinxing was baffled by her laughter.
It always seemed like An Ning was showing off at the moment.
Maybe, really intended to piss him off!
