Post-Apocalypse: Mated To Alphas Of Orion-Chapter 68: Kacir’s Heartbreak

(Amaia)

Kacir returns late from the meeting with his father. Utterly broken, he just flops on his bed with his hair spilt all over his face.

"Kacir?" I softly call him out and he just holds a vial in his hand, blankly staring at it.

"Talk to me," I softly say again, sitting in front of him and hoping this is not something life-threatening in his hand.

I watch him for a few moments. An unsettling feeling makes my heart restless.

Lost and broken, I am not sure if he is even with me, mentally.

"Can I take this?" I extend my hand towards him without touching.

"It’s not poison," he painfully says and I let out a relieved sigh. But he extends his hand and drops the small vial on my palm, containing an orange liquid.

"It’s just a sleep potion. TJ makes it for me when I can’t sleep," he explains and I thankfully nod, closing my palm around the small glass vial. But it hurts to think he has difficulty sleeping.

He rubs his hands on his face but doesn’t pull back his hair.

"You know, I have known Rahria all my life and loved her from the moment my heart understood the meaning of this word. I prayed day and night for her to be my mate." He lets out a sarcastic laugh, and I listen with a wounded heart, knowing this story is going to break me, for I can see how sad my friend is.

"The moon goddess answered my prayers but Rahnia didn’t want me. She wanted an Alpha, and I wasn’t even a werewolf..." he heavily pauses, and my chest aches.

"She was infatuated with Mintaka. She belittled me, every chance she got. Calling me weak, pathetic, a zombie and whatnot..." his voice breaks and tears well up in my eyes.

I can’t hold them back and they tumble out. He still hides his face from me by using his hair. I have never seen his right eye, and now his left is hidden too.

"You are not weak or pathetic," I firmly say but Kacir is lost at that moment. I am not sure he can even hear me.

"I revealed my feelings, thinking, hoping she would accept me. At times, I followed her like a lost puppy, scraping for affections, and she enjoyed the chase. It made her feel superior, added to her ego. The very reason she never rejected me." Slowly, he shakes his head, and I can imagine the pain he is going through.

I have only known my mates for days, and it hurts so deeply; he has known her his whole life.

"And then we were attacked. The monsters claimed my sister’s life..." he lets out a shaky breath and my heart trembles. Instantly I get up and sit beside him, placing my arm around his lanky shoulders. He is so tall but also thin.

"I am so sorry, Kacir. I didn’t know."

Kacir shivers in my hold but continues to speak, "Months passed, and I couldn’t recover because I am the one who found her body. Rahria was sympathetic, but I guess the loss was not personal, so she decided to punish me more. She started sleeping with my best friend, Mintaka."

I close my eyes at this. I already knew this part, Alnitak had revealed it to me but I never knew what Kacir was going through when both of them started this.

"She caused me so much pain, Amaia. The agonising amount of heartache rendered me so weak at times. And yet I couldn’t hate her. I couldn’t tell anyone that she was my mate."

I squeeze his shoulder. The raw pain in his voice has more tears falling from my eyes.

"And then we were attacked again and monsters breached our defences. Her house is on the outskirts of Orion so I got there as quickly as possible. She was battling the monster alone. Her father was on the other side of the border, battling other breaches. I did what I could to keep her from harm’s way."

Kacir is a humble soul, I know by his words that he saved her pathetic life that day.

"But something changed after that. In both of us. When I came to myself after staying in a coma for months, I promised myself I wouldn’t chase her again. I was done."

"You went into a coma?" I painfully ask and he simply nods.

"Yeah. But then she started having pity on me. Acting all nice just because..." he breaks down and I just hug him, letting him cry. I don’t even know how long he has been keeping all this stored inside of him.

"It’s alright to let it out," I gently say, trying to keep my own voice from breaking. I need to be strong for him.

Once he stabilises he speaks again with a sniffle. "I never wanted her pity. I just wanted her love. All this chasing she does now is her guilt, not love. I know she never will so why is she getting my father involved?"

Simply, she wants the upper hand on him at all times. She thinks she can control him and use him for her gains. She doesn’t want to be the bad guy now that her secret is out.

"What’s your father’s take on this?" I ask, squeezing his shoulder.

Kacir sniffles again."He wants me to accept her. All that mates talk about. But, today I made it clear to her and my father. If they push me on this matter, I will leave the academy and reject her in the process. I am done being dragged and taking orders from others."

Through my tears, I smile at his resilience and the way he has stood up to them.

"It’s your life, Kacir, and no one has to dictate it. You need time to heal from the wounds she has caused. She can’t push herself onto you," I agree with his stance and he straightens, pushing some of his hair back from his face.

"Thank you! Amaia for listening. I just want to sleep and forget the pain for tonight." He extends his hand, asking for the vial.

"You are brave, Kacir. Don’t let her words get to you. Also, can I taste it?" I reluctantly ask, still holding the vial and he finally smiles through tears.

"Alright, but I didn’t lie. It’s not poison."

Opening the vial I let a drop fall on my palm and lick it. It’s tasteless and I feel nothing.

"Here!" I extend it towards him and get up. Kacir pours the contents of the vial down his throat and lies down on his bed, facing away from me. Gently, I cover him with the blanket and quietly say, "Goodnight, Kacir."

Soon, he drifts off and I hear his light snores.

I blow out the thick candle and light up the night candle. With a heavy heart, I climb into my bed too. It has been a day, the kind one wishes to erase from memory.

Soon, I drift off into sleep, too, but I am awakened when I feel a presence looming over me. Before I can scream, someone presses their large hand on my mouth and stifles my cry.

"Shhhh!" He warns, and my eyes enlarge.