My Instant Marriage-Chapter 28 He reveals the reason of his trauma

When Young-soo woke-up in the morning, he looked at the other side of the bed- it was empty as always, he was disappointed to wake-up every-day alone in the bed even after the marriage. He sat down at the edge of the bed the aroma of sweet vanilla smell warmed his mind and gave him a good appetite. He quickly gets down from the bed, took his towel from the wardrobe, and went to the bathroom. After doing the morning duties in the bathroom, he dressed up in his usual official formal attire, and went to the living room to have the breakfast. He looked at the dining table- it was neatly arranged with piled up pancakes in a plate, few strawberries in a wicker basket, two glasses of orange juice and a nutella bottle.

His lips curled up for a smile by looking at the breakfast he sat down at one of the dining chairs and waited for Eunbi to join him. In a while she joined him to have the breakfast and asked him, "did you slept well?"

"Hmm"

She served him the pancakes with a few strawberries in a plate, "are you feeling better now?"

"Yeah, I'm perfectly alright now. Thanks for taking care of me by staying next to me as for my request and also understanding my situations." He took a bite of pancake with nutella, and commented, "Today the breakfast tastes so yummy, and you have improved a lot."

Eunbi thanked him for his compliments with a smile.

In the college Eunbi was in her own world thinking of yesterday's incident without paying attention in the classes. Hee-jung couldn't let her friend the way she was. Therefore, during the break time she asked Eunbi, "What happened to you? I can clearly study that you were in your own imaginary world, is something bothering you?"

Eunbi held her hands, "yes, he is bothering me a lot that is why I couldn't concentrate on the classes. Please help me out, Hee-jung."

"Tell me, who is that guy? Is he one of our classmate or from the other department?"

"No, he is not a guy from our college I'm talking about Young-soo."

Hee-jung wrapped her arm around her shoulder, "did he try to take advantage from you, again?"

"No he didn't, he is taking good care of me," Eunbi replied and asked her to give some idea by explaining the incidents which happened in her house for the past two days.

After hearing Eunbi's explanations Hee-jung took a few minutes to think and came-out with an idea, "There is only one way to know about his trauma." Eunbi looked at her friend eagerly and asked her, "What is it?"

"You need to ask him directly about it at the right timings."

"I told you that yesterday I've tried my best to make him open-up about that matter to me, but he didn't," Eunbi pouted her lips annoyingly.

"I said the timing is important go and ask him tonight, my intuition says he will share it with you this time because you've taken care of him as by his request."

With a pensive expression Eunbi nodded her head with hesitation, "I'll ask him tonight."

That following night when Young-soo was reading the book in his room Eunbi knocked his room door, and waited. As she heard him say 'come-on in' she gets in and asked him, "Can I have a talk with you for a while?"

He closed the book place it on the bedside table and said, "Of course."

Eunbi sat down at the edge of the bed by resting her hands on her laps. She cleared her throat, "through yesterday's incident I can clearly guess that you are suffering from some kind of trauma. I know that I'm crossing my limits but as I saw how intense your trauma was, I can't just let you be to suffer, so if you mind please tell me what caused you to suffer with trauma? I'm asking you to help you as a friend."

Young-soo stayed in silence for more than a minute by looking at his hands.

Eunbi gets down from the bed made a deep sigh, "if you are not willing to say it to me that's okay, I am not forcing you, and I'm sorry for interfering in your personal issues." She turned over and walked towards the door with disappointment.

"It's not that I am not willing to say it to you and you don't need to apologize for involving in my personal matters, you have full rights to ask about it because," he pause for few seconds and said, "you are more than a friend of me and I believe that you will take care of my sickness."

Eunbi turned over and stared at him wordlessly and her heart skipped a beat as he mentioned her as more than a friend of him.

"Give me a minute," he said and took out his trauma pills bottle from his office bag and intake a tablet. He sat down at the edge of the bed and relaxes himself by taking a few deep breaths.

Flashback:

When I was seven years old my mother went through with a miscarriage on her five months of her pregnancy, after that she got sick often couldn't able to take care of me. Therefore, they appointed a nanny in her mid-thirty to take care of me. She not only used to take care of me but also she does the household chores too, especially she used to clean my room, wash my clothes, baths me and dress me up. She took me to the school in the morning and brings me back home from the school in the evening. Moreover she took care of me like one of his son but I didn't like her. Like that five years elapsed and many things had changed but my hate on her never changed I hatred her so much than before.

When I was twelve years of age, one day in the car on the way to my school I felt something is going in-between her and the car driver. She used to talk to him with a smile on her face and hits his arms often playfully. I don't like their relationship and don't know how to tell this to my parents, moreover I don't know what is the name for their relationship. One day I saw them hugging each-other on the garden of our house I was so shocked and never thought that she would do like that. I don't understand how could she did this when she was married and got a child. I wanted to ask her about this to her directly but I couldn't I was in so much of angry on her.

It was my summer holiday's I was playing in the garden of our house along with a few of my friends. I saw her husband was looking for her I approached him and said that his wife is having an affair with one of our car driver. After hearing that he was stumbled. After few days she looked so heartbroken and didn't ask anything about it to me or heated me, she took care of me as usually with a lots of affection. One fine morning in the garage she and the car driver were in heat argument I hide myself behind one of the cars to listen their argument. There my nanny was explaining to that car driver, "you are like my brother I always look at you in that sense but you have taken advantage from me, do you know how much I love my husband and my son? Because of you our happiness has been ruined, and now it's like I'm living in the hell."

"No, please don't leave me I will take care of you and your son, let us run away to some other place and live happily," the car driver replied.

She gave him a tight slap across his face, "come back to your sense I told you that I'm married and I love my family a lot, if you try to bother me again I will complain about it to the police, you better be careful and behave yourself."

I hadn't slept that night I was so guilty to ruined the happiness of the family because of my wrong assumption. I decided to apologize to her and her husband, I don't know whether it will work out or not but I promise to myself I will never give up until I bring back their happiness. The next day I woke up early in the morning, the maids of the house gathered in the living room and I could read the anxiousness on their faces. I could hear the murmur voices of the maids, "usually she used to sleep in her house but yesterday why did she chose to spend the night here? Did she decide to spend the night to end her life," one of the maids asked her coworker. "I think it's because to end her life, aigoo she is a good hearted person I don't know what made her to end her life, let us pray to God for her soul to rest in peace," the other coworker replied with sad look on her face.

After hearing them I guessed that someone has suicide in the maid's room. By looking at me my mother pulled me towards her side and hugged me all of a sudden I don't know what made her to hug me. A man pulling out a stretcher from the maid's room with a women lying down on it lifelessly, as the stretcher passed by me I saw that it was my nanny. The foamy spittle on her mouth, I was too shocked to see her in that state and fainted at that moment.

When I woke up I was in my room and my mom was holding my hands tightly. I asked my mother, "What happened to the nanny?" she replied, "I'm sorry my son she is no more." I hugged my mother and cried out loud. Because of too much of crying I suffered from high fever so my mother stayed next to me and took care of my health. I was too scared to stay alone in my room hence I used to sleep with my parents, but I never told them that I'm the reason for the nanny's death. I never allowed any of the house maids to enter in my room. Whenever I saw the housemaids it just remains me about the nanny, therefore I requested my parents to join me in the hostel of my school and whenever I think about her I felt like lightheadedness and my vision gets blurred. Once I graduated from the college and take hold of our business I secretly went for a treatment to cure this trauma but I was unable to go for a regular treatment because of my busy schedules. Whenever I felt like lightheadedness I intake these pills.

End of the flashback.