My Alleged Husband-Chapter 859 - 805: A Cold Laugh
Zhang Yichen, no matter what, hearing her father say such words to her mother, deep down she still felt discomfort. After all, that’s their mother, they are her parents. Now that they know the way back home, why should she be as stubborn as before, insisting on driving them out, never to return? Does she really need to be so heartless? If she is not an ordinary person, why should she bicker like they do?
No matter when or where, in the end, she could never become indifferent towards her own parents, regardless of the extent of their past hurt.
What she wanted was just to have her mom and dad by her side. Now that her parents have returned, why should she continue to be aggressive like before? In the end, avoiding them only pushes herself step by step into a deeper abyss of pain.
Don’t think that by letting others comply with your rules you can live happily. In fact, it is the opposite, you suffer the most because you don’t know whether others are sincere or pretending when they treat you. Sometimes you are not afraid of people saving you, you’re afraid of them harming you behind your back.
"Zhentian, just as you are grateful to Heaven, I too am thankful to the heavens. It gave me such an excellent son, allowing me to return home under such circumstances, I really don’t know how to express my gratitude for the mercy bestowed upon me!
However, for the mistakes I have made, I have to bear them myself, no matter what. No one owes me anything; I must apologize for every word of promise I’ve made.
I hurt innocent people, especially my innocent child. He is so kind, so innocent, but what did I, as a mother, do to him?
There really isn’t any mother as heartless as me, hurting her own son without realizing it, causing harm over and over, how much pain did that bring them?
Maybe this is why I can never obtain forgiveness from my family for the rest of my life. With the wrongdoings and harm I’ve brought upon so many, why should they forgive me, and what right do I have to ask for their forgiveness?"
Zhang Zhentian felt genuinely distressed hearing his wife speak this way, although he understood that many of the incidents were self-inflicted. But then again, who is willing to admit all their mistakes?
"Stop saying that, none of us are Saints.
As long as we’re not Saints, who doesn’t make mistakes? Even though we have made many mistakes, we have realized our faults and are sincerely correcting them. So why should we continue to bear the hurt caused by the mistakes we once made?
I know your heart is aching, but how can my heart not ache? He is my child too, my family, hurt by us to such an extent. When I think back, it’s clear and fresh in my memory. Even if it were someone else, I couldn’t forgive myself. For them, I don’t ask for more forgiveness or understanding, I only hope they let me stay here.
Perhaps staying here won’t change anything. If their hearts are really as hard as stone, how can we soften them? And how could they possibly forgive us? But the mistakes I’ve made, I must ultimately bear. It’s an undeniable truth, one that no one can change."
Xia Jing really had no other thoughts, she dared not entertain other ideas. She just wanted to be peacefully with her family, but it seems Heaven doesn’t give them this chance.
"Alright, I don’t want to say anything now. Even if I give my all, the destined outcome cannot be changed. But to avoid future regrets, I will still devote myself unreservedly, even if the result isn’t what I desire."
Zhang Yichen, listening to his parents’ conversation, felt a turmoil in his heart. His mother, such a proud person, was now willing to make such sacrifices to return home and stay by his side. Was he, as their son, being too excessive? Why was he still unwilling to plead sincerely for his parents’ return at this time? Just one sentence could spare them so much hardship, prevent the foolish expenditure of effort, and retrieve everything in this home. Why was he still indifferent, not lifting a finger to help?
Actually, he himself didn’t know; his heart also had its own rough paths, and he felt conflicted. His parents had, after all, hurt him and abandoned him. But since he decided to let them return, shouldn’t he truly forgive them, allow them to stay and spare them any more pain and suffering?
It’s just a simple sentence, but why can’t he utter it? Would everything be resolved if he said it?
"Dad, stop talking. I heard everything you both said from outside the door. I always thought that you returned just like Grandpa – just to get back into this home, so you said things that made us have no choice but to forgive you. But you actually had no idea what you did wrong. But now, hearing what you’ve said, I truly understand – you do realize how terribly wrong you’ve been.
Don’t worry. Since I chose to let you come back that time, I will never let such a thing happen again. Just stay here peacefully, and never think of leaving again. If you leave, then never come back for a lifetime. Leaving and then coming back hurts us over and over again. You’re my parents, and since you already know your mistakes, you’ve already received our forgiveness. What we wanted was just for you to truly realize where you went wrong! Perhaps you might feel hurt by this, but it’s unavoidable."
