My Alleged Husband-Chapter 812 - 769: A Lesson

Three months later...

Zhang Zhentian was discharged from the hospital. During these three months, Xia Tian had been by her husband’s side every day. He now clearly understands that if it weren’t for the car accident, this marriage would have completely turned into nothingness. He truly cannot bear to allow such a thing to happen to him. What he wants now is less and less; her desires have gradually reached their lowest. He no longer knows with what attitude he should face this life. Right now, she feels happy simply by being able to stay every day by the side of someone who loves her, which to her is a great happiness in life.

Long ago, someone told her, rather than finding someone you like, it’s better to find someone who likes you. Because for the person you like, if you are not in their heart, no matter what you do, in their eyes, you will never be important. Then what’s the point for you? You’re just making the depths of your heart suffer more, and feel more embarrassed, that’s all. But if the person you find genuinely chooses to be with you, then no matter what you do, they will forgive you, they will tolerate you. Such love is what life is all about.

In these three months, Zhang Zhentian has been trying his best to recover his health. However, sometimes the damage to the body really cannot be repaired in just a day or two. Even though three months have passed, during which he ate well, slept well, what truly discomforts him is the fact that after taking so many measures, his own parents could still forgive him, yet he, as their son, has never considered what he truly did wrong, what he lost, what he did to his own child.

Deep inside, she is also in great pain. The plain life she yearns for is what she considers the most desirable life for this lifetime, but in the end, she did not achieve it. Time after time, what she acquires are just the most painful memories in the depths of her heart. Sometimes, he really wants to ask the heavens, if only he could be granted a little more time, to allow him to reconsider the outcomes his actions will bring.

Even though his actions have faults, he never intended to harm the people he cares about the most. The life she wants is simply a plain life. But why is it that she can never achieve what she wants? She really doesn’t understand what she did wrong in this lifetime, why everyone chooses to resist her in this way. Is what she wants really that hard to achieve? A plain life, to her, is the happiest thing in life, yet time and again she has lost so much, all her efforts in the end have only led to a life she didn’t want. What’s the point of such a life?

"Xia Jing, I’ve thought a lot over these three months. I’ve been reflecting on myself all the time. I don’t know what all this is for. All I wanted was a plain life, but why in the end what I got isn’t what I wanted? I’ve given so much, yet time and time again, all I got in return was hurt from others.

Once, for you, I could give my everything, even if it meant neglecting my own life. But even now, I still feel the same way. I don’t understand why, after all we’ve been through, after the hurt you’ve caused me, I still madly love you. Perhaps this kind of love is what true love is all about. No matter how many wrongs you’ve committed, no matter how you’ve treated me behind my back, no matter how many times you’ve stabbed me, in my inner world, there’s only you. As long as you’re willing to come back to me, my arms are always open to you, my embrace will always be your warm haven, just waiting to see if you’re willing to give me a chance to genuinely fall in love with me. Then we could live happily together as a family. I’ve thought about this countless times, and I don’t know how to say it to you.

Perhaps you find it funny that I’m saying this to you now. Maybe you think I’m just declaring my love for myself, and you haven’t really heard anything I said. But no matter what, deep down, I truly want to be with you. Being with you, no matter how difficult or dangerous, I feel very happy. The life I’ve walked through with you step by step is a life I cherish. No matter what you’ve done before, in my heart, the person I still love is always you.