My Alleged Husband-Chapter 728 - 698: Heartache_1

"Since you already said it yourself, that man told you personally he no longer has any feelings for you, then why do you still want to be with him so desperately?"

"Is it because I haven’t been good to you, or am I somehow inferior to her? Is it because I’m not good-looking enough, or did I somehow offend you? Why do you have to do these cruel and heartless things to me?"

"In your heart, have you never considered me your husband? Do the safety and well-being of our family really mean so little to you? Where do you place our family? Since you chose to start a family with me, then you must be responsible for it. By acting this way, what do you consider every person in this family to be? Just a chess piece to be played with as you please?"

Zhang Zhentian was truly getting angrier the more he thought about it; he had never imagined his own wife could become how she was now.

He couldn’t understand how the woman who used to be so lively and cheerful before his eyes had changed into what she was now. Why was it that whatever he said, in his eyes, it was all as if nothing he did was ever right?

Maybe he would never know. When one person no longer loves another, no matter how much effort that person puts in, it’s all useless. It seems like he’s always in your heart, but in the end, it amounts to nothing.

"Don’t say that. The time I’ve spent with you, I was really, very happy. You gave me everything I wanted, and I would spare no expense for you. But have you ever really thought about what kind of life I want, what outcome our being together could have? Time and again, your unilateral decisions have thwarted my life!"

"Have you ever thought about what kind of life I wanted? Every day, I live in agony. Who has ever given me the happiness I seek? Over and over, I struggle through sickness and torment. I, too, want to achieve the life I desire, but what have you all ultimately given me?"

"I once asked if he could continue to cry for me, to laugh with me, but in the end, I couldn’t trade anything for it. When I hugged him from behind, do you know how much my heart was cursing inside? It really hurt so much. I really wanted to hold on to him forever, never letting go. I longed for time to stop at that moment forever, but would the heavens ever pay such attention to me? Of course not!"

"When I held her, time and again, I prayed in my heart for heaven to slow down time, or to let it stay at that moment forever, never to pass. But it wouldn’t. When I looked up, I found time had passed, and he still turned away, leaving me alone, silently waiting at that moment. How lonely, how desperate I felt, who could possibly understand?"

"You might think that it’s wrong to be so selfish, but all I want is really that simple. Just being by his side is enough for me, and I don’t need anything else."

"Over the years, I’ve always considered others, but in the end, I’ve received no satisfying results. In my heart, this is a failure. No matter how much I consider others, what do I amount to in their eyes?"

"Despite the torment of illness, I choose to be with him. All I want is to see him smile at me. Even if my heart is bleeding, as long as I see a smile on his face, I can still be happy."

"Maybe you think I’m foolish and naive, but aren’t you aware that this is what real love is? Now, I don’t need him to show any affection for me, I don’t need his heart to be with me. As long as I feel love for him, as long as I give my heart to her, that’s enough. No matter if I end up terribly wounded, or if I achieve lifelong happiness, I only want to have no regrets. That’s enough. I’ve lost him time and again, and this time, I really don’t want to lose him again. If I lose her one more time, I don’t know how much longer I can live..."

Zhang Zhentian had never expected that his wife could love that man so deeply, that she would even give up her own life for him. In her eyes, what was he, her husband? Was he just an emotional crutch used time and again? Could it really just be a matter of transferring affection?

"I never imagined you could love her so deeply. You’d give up everything for him, even your own life. Why can’t you do that just once for me? I remember when we were together, you seemed to dearly love me; I truly felt like I had entered paradise. But in the end, I realized that was merely the beginning of a painful hell!"

"Even if you do not wish to be with me for the rest of your life, even if your heart truly has no place for me, couldn’t you consider my feelings? I just want to live a little healthier, a little happier, even just a little bit. But have I ever been truly happy over these years? No. I’ve roamed the world for you, left my whole family behind, bearing the pain of yearning for you." 𝘧𝓇𝑒𝑒𝑤ℯ𝑏𝓃𝘰𝑣ℯ𝘭.𝘤ℴ𝘮

"I fully know my own father is waiting for his son to return home to see him. I know my father is eagerly anticipating our return to the family."

"But even knowing all this, for your happiness, I chose to act as if I knew nothing. Do you know how desperate I am? Do you know how hard my father’s life is? You’ve never considered what kind of life we really want. The decisions you make are ultimately just for your own desires!"

"Is it not you who is the truly selfish one? Don’t you have any idea of the consequences of what you’ve done?"

"Stop deluding yourself that others will forgive you, because what you’ve done is unforgivable by anyone in this lifetime. You will forever live in your own world of pain, never come out, because you can’t return from there anymore. You’ll just suffer endlessly, enduring pain after pain, heartache after heartache, and in the end, you are simply reaping what you’ve sown!"