My Alleged Husband-Chapter 1523 - 1317: Rainfall in the Sky
The air is so dirty and turbid, everyone feels that all of these are the things they dislike the most about each other, and the last hope is the distant place we can never return to.
Holding a bowl of hot soup, we warm the unease within our hearts forcefully. Seriously, we don’t listen, don’t think, afraid to turn back to the regrets that have left all dreams behind, and when we do look back, we let go of our dignity.
Xiao Wei and the others still don’t know about their sister’s appearance. He thinks he should be living happily now, but how could he have imagined that within this period, so many unexpected events happened to his sister, again and again, which led to her being so erratic now. She can’t differentiate between right and wrong, even feeding herself has become a major challenge. If he knew, he should feel very pained deep down, after all, she’s the sister he has depended on for so many years.
He always wanted to return home to accompany his sister, to see how she’s doing now, but is constantly bound by his wife, unable to disappoint her, knowing the expectations his wife has for him.
He used to not care and lived as he pleased, but now he can’t do that anymore, because he has his own family and responsibilities he must bear. For his family, he should change himself; otherwise, like before, being reckless and doing whatever he wants, the final outcome would only push his loved ones further away. All he desires is to have his loved ones stay by his side forever, which is perhaps the most precious thing every person with a family hopes to obtain.
"Now you come to tell me it’s my fault that led to mom being like this? Even if I do have something going on, can’t I leave for a short while? I admit this incident was my oversight, my negligence. I didn’t expect my mom would end up like this all of a sudden. Isn’t this also a kind of hurt for me? I never thought about this before. I have to guard her all the time in this way? If she were sober, she would feel this is a great pain for her, having never endured such suffering, now she can only bear all of this silently alone, ultimately brought to her by all of us together.
Do you have your own matters to attend to? I know you care about your career, about this family, but don’t I care as well? She’s my biological mother, no matter where or when, I always hope she’s healthier than anyone else, and more than anyone, I hope she can be safe and sound. But some things are truly out of my control. Every action I take only results in unbearable pain time and time again, and no one cares about my inner thoughts. Why am I doing all of this over and over again? Still, you haven’t told your uncle about this matter. Are you afraid he’ll come back to hold you accountable?
If your sister knew, that because of mom, you decided to drive grandma out of the house, do you think your uncle would agree? Would he still continue to trust you deep down?
Actually, you know better than anyone how much you need your uncle’s trust because he holds great power. Even though he left the underworld long ago, he remains in contact with those people, and his network is still very strong. Time and again you fear to offend him, you dare not drive your mom out of the house yourself, just considering you, but now you want to pin all the blame on me. I’m not foolish enough to bear all the guilt for you.
As for my grandma, I think you should communicate with them properly. Regardless of their motives, why they wanted to return home; since they’ve chosen to return, they should stay peacefully and not stir up trouble. That would only hurt everyone and benefit no one. It’s only when everyone gets hurt and regrets all their previous mistakes that they realize that nobody will be forgiving because they made those mistakes before. Everyone has their own affairs, and they should pay heavily for what they’ve done.
Even though I’m not sure if my mother’s current situation is related to them, directly or indirectly, if not for their return, how could they possibly neglect my mother? How my mom has treated you all these years, don’t you know that deep in your heart? You’ve failed my mom’s trust in you, put her in the most awkward position, making it impossible for her to get along with you, which is why she has become increasingly withdrawn."
"Even if you say these so-called problems are all due to me alone, shouldn’t you reflect on whether there are really no problems deep within your heart? She’s your mother; she’s just my wife. Do I not have my own work duties? I should care for her, understand her, accompany her and not neglect her, but you? You’re her son, the child she bore after ten months of pregnancy. As the younger generation do you expect to be with your mom every day, then how could you expect me to do so?
Don’t you need to eat too? Doesn’t your grandpa deserve to come home and enjoy life for once? Doesn’t great-grandpa hope we all have our own work that flourishes? Everyone’s expectations are different. Just like my expectation for you is, as long as you are happy, even if you achieve nothing, I’m still happy, still willing. I’m willing to give you all the wealth, so you can live a life without worry, would you want that?
No need to say, surely you don’t want it, because such a life is like being a puppet, just getting ridiculed. You’re a person with no prospects. You wouldn’t want such a life, let alone me. All the pressure I face is no less than yours, yet why do you want me to endure pain again that I’ve already experienced? To be ridiculed day after day like that, thinking I’m a useless person, abandoned by my parents?
Let’s consider each other’s situations, okay? If you really feel so depressed, then we can take turns on shifts; while one person watches your mom, they shouldn’t leave no matter what, even if the sky falls, they must stay by her side. If you can do that, I would accept your opinion without complaint and stay here to guard her, but I can’t be the one guarding her all the time while you’re off busy, then my company with thousands of employees wouldn’t need to eat? Should my company stop running? Do I just expect money to fall into my lap like pies from the sky?"
I drift northward, don’t ask where my hometown is. The tall, ancient city walls can’t block my sorrow for it. I drift to the distant north, unsure if my family is safe. But my eyes are filled with melancholy, my introduction is a heavy burden!
