MTL - Illimitable Until Death-~ 228 destroy that self
"Oh la la la..."
The warm water is sprayed from the shower head, allowing the sound of the water to linger in the ear.
The white mist of water vapor filled the space that is not too narrow, so that the smooth floor tiles and wall stones are like sweat, filled with tiny water droplets.
Here is the bathroom in one of the rooms on the fourth floor of the luxury cruise ship.
The fourth floor is the floor where the girls’ dormitory room is located.
At this time, Karuizawa was in the bathroom of his room, washing his body.
It is clear that there is no time to take a shower. Now it is only about 2:30 in the afternoon. Karuizawa may still be unable to stop here for a bath.
If this is not the case, Karuizawa believes that his mind cannot completely calm down.
"That's really... awful..."
Recalling what happened in the rabbit group's room, Karuizawa couldn't help but sing out such a voice.
The voice is full of pain, memories and fear.
The heart is accelerating and beating.
Smooth skin is not warm at all under the flushing of hot water.
This made Karuizawa's body tremble slightly.
If it is now, I will see such a Karuizawa, I believe that no matter who you know, Karuizawa is afraid of something.
Should this be a big surprise?
Because, in the eyes of others, Karuizawa is a strong and unreasonable queen.
A arrogant person is her normal state.
Impatient and disgusting are the basics of her personality.
Who can think of it, such a Karuizawa, will actually hide in the bathroom of the room, afraid to tremble?
Only Karuizawa will know.
This kind of self is the true self.
Karuizawa is very aware of himself.
Whether it is an advantage or a disadvantage, all are understood.
Therefore, Karuizawa knows that no matter whether it is a boy or a girl, she does not like her.
Therefore, Karuizawa also knows how many people are annoying because of his arrogance and unreasonableness.
Even Hirata Yasushi is not "like" Karuizawa, but only "helping" Karuizawa.
These, Karuizawa all have self-knowledge.
However, what does this have to do with it?
Karuizawa is hoping to be such a person.
As long as you become such a person, no one will dare to "bull" her.
Therefore, even if it is so annoying, Karuizawa does not feel pain.
Compared to everything that has happened in the past, such a thing is simply not worth calling it pain.
In fact, after coming to the height of high school, everything is as wishful as Karuizawa.
Her arrogance has made her position among girls.
Her unreasonableness makes it impossible for her to feel contemptuous.
The painful memories of the past have all been overcome.
Today, Karuizawa has been reborn.
At least, I think so.
"I...it should have been born again..."
Unfortunately, this is just a dream.
The dream will finally wake up.
Everything today makes the dream of Karuizawa awakened.
At the thought of the real pot Zhibao, the leeks, and the Yamashita Shahi, they came closer to themselves, and they also carried the scene of letting Karuizawa familiar with the suffocating familiarity. The painful memories of the past are like springing up. Come out.
"Well…"
Memories awaken fear.
Fear subverts the heart.
Karuizawa found that his head was dizzy, and he couldn’t help but sit on the ground, and even his head seemed to have lost his strength.
However, this drooping gave a fatal blow to Karuizawa.
Because Karuizawa saw it.
On his flank, there is a scar of scars there.
"!"
When the scars were printed in the eyes of Karuizawa, the dizziness in Kazui’s head was a whirlpool, which caused her subversive heart to collapse completely.
"vomit…!"
The vomiting sound leaked from the finger joints of Karuizawa.
It was not because of the uglyness of the scar on oneself, but the disease caused by the cruel wounds in the heart.
Mental illness.
Yes.
Karuizawa has a painful past that can not be overwhelmed even if it causes mental illness.
It was because of that past that Karuizawa changed himself and became the disgusting self.
Karuizawa believes that the past will not come to him again.
However, Karuizawa did not think that the insignificant thing that he had disguised himself to protect himself was a negligible thing to reopen his inner pain.
The figure of the real pot Zhibao, the leek dish, and the Yamashita Shahi, who are approaching themselves, not only awakened Kazui Kasei, who was dreaming of a dream, but also awakened the fear she had lost in her heart.
Karuizawa did not even know what it would be like in the days to come.
Karuizawa Kazuy, who is in the same group as Shinjuku Shiho, Ayumi Shimi, and Yamashita Shahi, simply cannot avoid these three people.
Karuizawa will have to get in touch with the three people.
Well, the problem is coming.
How will the three people treat themselves?
Will it destroy the "now self" and pull out the hateful and sad "past self"?
Will your own body be left with the second such scar?
These ideas have made Karuizawa more fearful.
"No... OK..."
Karuizawa is almost as powerless as it is.
"I don't want to... change back..."
Only this matter, Karuizawa is absolutely not allowed.
"I am not the same as me before..."
Karuizawa gnawed his teeth and tried to suppress his inner fear.
"I have been born again..."
Even if it was just a rebirth from a humble ant, Karuizawa was needed.
Everything is just to protect yourself.
As long as it is to protect himself, Karuizawa is willing to do anything.
The scar on the flank must not be allowed to increase.
When I think of it, Karuizawa can't help but think of that person.
I remembered the man who could never be ignored again after the first day of the special exam on the uninhabited island.
Karuizawa still remembers that the man said this when he let the students in the class go out to find the herbs and prepare the herbs.
“Based on the types of herbs I have now, I can match a lot of miraculous herbs.”
“There are herbs that work as stabilizers to help you sleep to the greatest extent possible.”
“There are herbs that can be applied externally to treat sprains, bruises, bruises and even fractures.”
“There are herbs that can treat colds and fever.”
“In addition to these, there are a variety of herbs for health effects, and even herbs that can remove mites.”
That's right.
"Besides 疤..."
Maybe, the man doesn't know at all?
This sentence, for yourself, how important it is.
From that time on, Karuizawa will know.
I need him.
I need that man and I need that herb.
If this is not the case, I will not be born again after all.
As long as this scar is on your own body for a day, then you are still the one yourself.
It must be done to destroy that person.
To this end, Karuizawa is willing to do anything.
Even if it is a host, it becomes the parasite of that man, and that is the same.
