MTL - I Have Everything You Like-Chapter 63 , unsolved problem
Wang Jin doesn't want to have any entanglement with Jin Yue anymore, and he can't treat Jin Yue as an old classmate, not because he is still brooding about what happened back then, just see you in a few years Jin Yue was too unfamiliar to him.
He went to the parking lot to pick up the car, but Jin Yue still followed him.
He stopped, turned his head and said, "Where are you going? It may not be on the way."
Jin Yue smiled and said, "You must also go back to the urban area within the Fifth Ring Road, why don't you stop by?"
Wang Jin ignored him and walked fast.
In the parking lot, he found his car and got into the driver's seat.
Jin Yue pulled the passenger door, it was locked and he couldn't open it.
He didn't even change his face, he knocked on the window and said as usual, "Wang Jin, open the door."
Wang Jin: “…”
Isn't he the one who would make things so ugly, or let Jin Yue get in the car.
Jin Yue didn't see joy on his face, and he fastened his seat belt calmly.
Wang Jin slowly drove out of the airport.
Jin Yue said: "The teacher said that the spinal deformity patient you received, how is it now?"
Wang Jin said: "The operation went well, and the postoperative recovery is also good."
Jin Yue said: "That's good, when you have time, can you show me the information?"
Wang Jin said: "It's not convenient."
Jin Yue nodded and said, "Forget it."
The car got on the highway, turned a corner to the west, the sunset was somewhat dazzling, Wang Jin took out his sunglasses and put it on. Jin Yue turned his head and looked, Wang Jin's profile was handsome and indifferent.
He looked back and lowered the visor in front of the glass.
A small animated sticker on the sun visor looks like a grey, celestial wolf.
Jin Yue stared at it for a moment, of course it couldn't be Wang Jin posted here.
He asked, "Is this the Big Wolf?"
Wang Jin's eyes were blocked behind the sunglasses, and replied, "It's Little Gray."
Jin Yue didn't know who Xiao Huihui was, and didn't want to ask, he flipped the sun visor up again, the sun in the west reflected in his eyes like two burning flames.
After Wuyuan Bridge, Wang Jin asked, "Where are you going?"
Jin Yue asked, "Where are you going?"
Wang Jin stopped talking, and was ready to drop him off at any place when he got off the expressway.
Jin Yue looked at him and said, "Send me to my alma mater."
Wang Jin: "…Where?"
Jin Yue repeated: "Go to our alma mater, No. 38 Xueyuan Road, Haidian District."
Wang Jin drove off the highway at the next crossing, and then stopped on the side of the road.
He turned off the flame, took off his sunglasses, threw them on the dashboard, and said, "What are you doing?"
Jin Yue looked at his slender fingers on the steering wheel and said, "Your hands are so beautiful."
Wang Jin: “…”
Jin Yue shook his head and said, "Do you remember? One day in spring, I asked you to meet at school."
Wang Jin remembered that it was the weekend, because Bai Tu was at home, Yan Rong could not stay with him overnight, he spent an afternoon with Yan Rong, and then sent Yan Rong home, it was his first time Listening to Yanrong mentioning "German classmate ben".
Jin Yue said: "I waited all night that day, and I didn't wait for you."
He asked, "Is that the kid who forbade you to go?"
Wang Jin said: "I don't want to go."
Jin Yue obviously didn't believe it, but he didn't dwell on this issue and said, "It doesn't matter, it's all over anyway."
He asked cautiously but firmly: "Wang Jin, have you thought about me all these years?"
He didn't wait for Wang Jin to answer, and said, "I think of you every day."
He said: "My mother urged me to get married and arranged a blind date for me, but I never went to see her. Last winter she was ill and the urge was even more urgent, so I told her that I Said that I have a loved one, she asked me where that person was, I said, I lost it by accident, she said, why don't you find it? I just thought, yes, he didn't come to me , then I'll go to him. It was very cold that day. I rang the doorbell of your house. It was the child who opened the door for me. He said that you are his uncle, and children are cute. Who are you kidding? It can be concluded that he has been in your bed, and in the ten minutes waiting for you to come back, I have thought of hundreds of ways to kill him without being discovered."
Wang Jin finally turned his head to look at him, his eyes full of astonishment.
Jin Yue laughed and said, "But he doesn't know anything, and he still eats fried beef with relish. I thought, a child, what would you like about him is nothing more than youth Pretty, what's the matter, I'm not jealous of him. Then you came back and I knew I guessed right, your eyes kept on me, you didn't love that kid at all. You scold me that day , you asked me what I was doing when I came back, said I was shameless, and told me to get out. Then I got out, but I was very comfortable when I left. I know you haven't forgotten me, and you still hate me when I made girlfriends behind your back. The knife I slashed in your heart hasn't grown at all, as long as it's still there, you'll still be mine."
Wang Jin was silent, there was no love between him and Yanrong at that time, and he himself was indeed still trapped in the emotional wounds of a few years ago, and he did not fully come out.
Jin Yue went on to say: "After I went back, I accompanied my mother through the last part of her journey. At the end of March, she was gone, and after her funeral, I resigned, sold the house and Che, I came to Beijing to find you. It's only been over two months, and you have become 'his boyfriend' from 'his uncle'. You are really fascinated by a little boy, and you rejected me because of him. I regretted it at the time, I really should have killed him the first time we met."
Wang Jin frowned and said, "Stop talking nonsense."
Jin Yue was overjoyed. He felt that there was a touch of intimacy in Wang Jin's words, and said with a smile, "I'm just talking, but I won't really kill people."
Wang Jin's heart slowly let go when he mentioned his throat, he was really shocked by the cruelty in Jin Yue's words.
Jin Yue changed his tone of ridicule: "Actually, I also know what you like about him, besides being young and beautiful, he also has a miserable background, and he doesn't fit in with the group at school, which is similar to how stupid I was back then. You just like to take care of this weak chicken with broken wings."
Wang Jin looked at him sideways with a somewhat inexplicable expression.
Jin Yue snorted and said: "I'm not doing well now, the treatment in the hospital I just entered is average, my colleagues don't look down on me as an outsider, and I can't afford Beijing's The house may have to be rented for a lifetime... It's already so miserable, you ignore me. "
In the end, his tone and expression were a bit aggrieved.
Wang Jin looked at him for a moment and asked, "Jin Yue, have you really loved me?"
Jin Yue's eyes lit up, and Wang Jin was finally willing to talk about "love" with him.
He confessed eagerly: "Of course I love you, I have been unable to forgive myself all these years, why did I have to die at that time, and use hurting you to prove your love for me. We know that It's all my fault if I can go on and on, I'll get to where I am today, it's me who can't figure it out, it's me who cares about everything, in fact, it doesn't matter why you love me, as long as you love me, that's enough."
Wang Jin looked at him more and more delicately, and said, "You were not such a person before."
Jin Yue was a little flustered, he defended: "I was too extreme at that time."
Wang Jin shook his head and said, "It's not like that. If I want to be with you because I sympathize with you, it's right for you to leave me, that's you."
Jin Yue blinked his eyes hard, he was a little confused.
Wang Jindao: "You said to Yanrong, if you want to eat candied chestnuts on a snowy day, I will buy them for you. Line up all night at the train station to buy a ticket for you. I want to eat chestnuts, and I have to go home for Chinese New Year. What’s so pitiful? Why you still don’t understand, I have never sympathized with you from beginning to end, I am just trying my best to be nice to you ."
Jin Yue moved his lips, but was unable to speak.
Wang Jin lowered his eyes and said, "In the beginning, I didn't pay attention to you in the class at all. I was helping the department record the results that day, and you rushed in from outside and saw I'm in a bad mood, but I still politely ask where the guide is. I don't know what happened yet. Those nasty snobs said some sarcastic things about you. You're like an angry little rooster. I fought with them in the same way. The teachers came back and asked what was going on. They formed a group to slander you, but the teacher believed it. I still remember the look in your eyes at that time. You were angry and wronged, but it was very bright. Those eyes are attractive."
"We became friends later and found that you are really interesting. You have no money to eat and buy clothes, and you can't even take a taxi. , but you are still so proud, your grades in professional courses are always the best, and your excellence will not be knocked down by ridicule and ridicule. I never liked anyone, at that time I only knew that I wanted to see you every day, and I didn’t see you being wronged at all. , I just want to be nice to you, that means I like it. But I dare not say it, you are the top student in the college entrance examination in your hometown, your mother only has one son, and she must be looking forward to you marrying a wife and having children. You are different from me. My brother is too good, and my brother is too young. My parents don't care about me at all, and my closest grandparents are no longer there. No one in this world expects me, but I can't be because of myself. If I like you, I will pull you along the hard road."
"I didn't expect that you were the one who confessed to me first. I was so happy that day that I came out of the closet that day. My dad beat me up and said he was going to cut me off. I don't care about the tuition and living expenses, I think it's enough for me to have you. And I'm just like you. I can live a poor life with you, work hard to get scholarships, fight for postgraduate places, and participate together. There’s nothing wrong with working and making money together to support each other.”
After such a long speech, Wang Jin was always very calm, and he finally said: "Jinyue, you have never tried to understand me, otherwise how can you not know, I will fall in love You, never because of sympathy, I fell in love with the dazzling and proud you."
Jin Yue was stunned, he remembered all the good things Wang Jin had done to him in those years, and also remembered what Wang Jin asked him with red eyes when he discovered his betrayal: "Why? You don't want me anymore?"
He felt heart-piercing pain, and he finally realized that it was not that Wang Jin did not regard him as an equal lover, but that he destroyed their love with his own hands.
He looked at Wang Jin's indifferent and tired expression, and he vaguely understood that there was no turning back.
Their problem is not something he can solve by driving away a child.
The harm he caused to Wang Jin is an unsolved problem.
He unfastened his seatbelt and said silently, "Thank you for letting me take this part of the road, I... here it is."
He pushed open the door and got out of the car, stood on the side of the road, smiled hard, and said, "Goodbye, Wang Jin."
Wang Jin was still a little unbearable, and said, "I'll take you to a good place to take a taxi."
Jin Yue said with a mocking expression, "You're still in a relationship with a child, don't you even know the taxi app?"
Wang Jin closed his mouth, said no more, said goodbye to him, and drove away.
The sun has already set, leaving only a small face in the distance.
Jin Yue squatted down on the side of the road and snorted softly: "It's too beautiful to promise because it's too young, but dear, it's not love..."
He smiled and the tears fell again.
On the way home alone, Wang Jin remembered something, reached out and flipped the sun visor in front of the passenger, and the "little gray gray" on it tilted his head and looked cute at him.
He touched "Little Gray Gray" with his fingers, thinking of Yan Rong so much that his heart hurt a little.