MTL - He’s Not A Non-Entertainment Circle-Chapter 2 Pretending and instinct

The kiss was aggressive and he forced himself to entangle with it. This kiss seems to convey the urgency of the other party's eagerness to each other's restlessness.

How long has it been that I haven’t taken a kiss, and how long I have been away from Luan has not been so close to another person. Gu Qingyan’s brain was a bit confused, but he was quickly pulled back by reason. He should not let the other side of this behavior, he began to resist he wants to push open.

Lu Ran how to force him to force Gu Qingyan, when Lu Ran enough to let him go through Gu Qingyan's lips, watching the other person's slightly red lips, I feel satisfied. He buried his face in the neck of Gu Qingyan and described his thoughts on each other.

"Xia Qing, I miss you very much... I miss you..." Luran smelled the familiar taste of his arms in an unprecedented satisfaction.

"Five years, don't go... okay?" The tone was slightly pleading.

"Baby, I miss you, I love you... I love you..."

Gu Qingyan listened to Lu Ran’s words for a moment of panic, and the words in his mind were Luran: “Baby, I miss you, I love you.”

Love? Luran said to love yourself? If it is five years ago, you will be happy and crazy, and the one you love will love yourself. But now it’s not five years ago, everything has changed, love is too deep, and I don’t want to touch it.

He tried to make his tone plain and indifferent: "Luran, let me go."

"No, I don't let go! Do you know that I miss you more." Lu Ran's tone of resistance is tighter.

"Luran, let me go!"

Lu Ran resisted not answering, telling the other party with behavior is impossible.

Gu Qingyan talked: "Luran, you said that you love me. But I don't love you..."

Luran fiercely looked up at the other side and hoped to see a trace of pretense from the other's eyes. I found that the other person's eyes were calm and impermanent. He looks very lost like a big dog that has just been abandoned.

Lu is struggling, he said in a low-pitched tone: "Xia Qing, tell me you are lying to me. You still love me."

Gu Qingyan looked at Lu Ran's expression and his eyes felt his distress. Gu Qingyan used his nails to buckle his palm, reminding himself of the need for waking with the pain of the body.

Gu Qingyan feels that his lifelong acting is used to lie to lie to lie on his own. He tries to relax his mind. He tries to tell himself that he wants to perform a person who has no desire, no love, no love. Don't let your acting fall apart because of the sadness of the other side.

Gu Qingyan tried to control his tone: "Lu Ran, five years... I... I don't love you, I don't love you."

"Baby, you told me that they are all fake, tell me that you still love me, tell me that you miss me too. Sorry, I used to be wrong, baby..." Luran is very upset, Luran is most afraid of being two When the individual met again, Xia Qing told himself that he did not love himself.

For five years, Luran thought that this person had been looking for this person for five years. He regretted that he had been arbitrarily arrogant for the love he once squandered.

After five years, Luran has become more mature. I learned how to love someone better for one person and how to express my love, but the person he loves is gone.

Luran went to find his lover in various ways. One year ago, Luran finally found a channel to know the other party through the clues. He knew that the other party had a son. When I knew this news, it was a blue sky. The most fearful thing about Luran was knowing that the other party had a new lover.

During that time, just like Xia Qing’s departure, he was so depressed that he told him that Gu Qingyan did not love himself. He had a new lover and he no longer belonged to himself. Luran told himself that he should give up his love for Gu Qingyan and bless him, but he couldn’t do it at all.

Just like the words on the notebook thrown away when Gu Qingyan left: I love you, I want to give you happiness. I wish you happiness in tm, not what I gave, how do you want me to bless. I love you, love you becomes my habit and become my instinct. I love you, how good if you love me too... I love you...

After Gu Qingyan left, he discovered that the love for Gu Qingyan has long been engraved in his own bones. Time can not only make love dissipate but also make this love fermentation more difficult to remove.

What about a lover, how about not loving. I can't let go of it, so I will plunder it.

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I have three chapters today, will I change slowly in the following episodes? (????`)