MTL - Court Marriage-Chapter 78 When freedom meets love
"Zhuzhuo, you should know that I don't care about those frivolous names and frivolities. Although I am useless, I also want to do my best to keep you safe and sound. Scientific research is my only strength. , then no one can despise us, even if I really don’t feel comfortable living in the officialdom, and I can find a leisurely position in Beijing, it’s better than being confined at home like a crippled person all day.”
Faced with Gong Zhuoliang's impatience, Qiao Yingze's reaction was extraordinarily calm, but it could be seen from his pale face that he was actually not feeling well... Although he knew that Gong Zhuoliang didn't mean to look down on himself, as a husband, But even his lover doesn't have any expectations for him, doesn't it just show his incompetence?
"Yingze, that's not what I meant. I'm worried about your body. Isn't it good for us now? Why bother to worry about those..."
Turning around to face Qiao Yingze, Gong Zhuoliang saw his face changed, and the anger in his heart was half quenched. He hurriedly sat back next to Qiao Yingze and put his hand on his lap.
Gong Zhuoliang admits that he does not have the political consciousness to be a public servant, and he is not sensitive to the great cause of being loyal to the monarch, loving the people, governing the country and the world, especially in such a feudal dynasty. high risk.
If they are mediocre officials, they are not short of money and relationships. There is really no need to put freedom in, and it would be nice to live happily. And if you are diligent and diligent for the people, Qiao Yingze's body will definitely not last long. If Gong Zhuoliang watched Qiao Yingze squander his health, how could he agree?
"…"
Qiao Yingze knew that he would never be able to say Gong Zhuoliang in terms of eloquence. He could have ten sentences to wait for when he said it himself, so Qiao Yingze simply kept silent and only looked at him with a pair of slightly hurt and sad eyes...
"Yingze, don't keep silent. If you have any thoughts, let's open it up and make it clear. Don't keep it in your heart."
The pain in his heart began to tug at the appearance of Qiao Yingze, and Gong Zhuoliang couldn't help but lower his posture.
He has never been afraid of arguing with others, and he can argue three-point attributes if it really doesn't make sense, but when he encounters a sullen gourd like Qiao Yingze, Gong Zhuoliang has nowhere to go... I know why they haven't been together for nearly three years. How did you quarrel? Because that's really annoying, Gong Zhuoliang's voice was louder, Qiao Yingze stopped talking, and then he didn't even try to coax you, so he just cared about here, being considerate and considerate there, and it wiped out Gong Zhuoliang's temper. If he really made Qiao Yingze unhappy, he would just throw himself down and play tricks for a while, and Qiao Yingze wouldn't really care about him.
But today's matter is different from the previous small stumblings. The two people's opinions are completely contradictory. Gong Zhuoliang cannot easily compromise.
"It's not in a hurry at this time, we have to get up early tomorrow, let's settle it first."
Qiao Yingze felt that he had already made his mind clear, Gong Zhuoliang was in a hurry at this moment, and if he went on, it would only be a quarrel, and it would take a long time for his daughter-in-law to think about it. Anyway, he was already prepared for a protracted battle.
"Yingze, listen to me..."
Gong Zhuoliang wanted to persuade him again, but Qiao Yingze had already grabbed his hand and got up and walked to the bed. Gong Zhuoliang reluctantly went to bed with him. He didn't let go, which clearly showed his procrastinating attitude of 'I'm not angry with you, let's discuss this matter for a long time'.
"Ying Ze! Um..."
The feeling of hitting the cotton with a fist was too suffocating, Gong Zhuoliang rolled over and pressed on Qiao Yingze's body and asked him to face the problem, but Qiao Yingze put his free hand around his neck, and then greeted him with a deep kiss, hugging Gong Zhuoliang. Zhuo Liang's words were all blocked in his mouth, and Gong Zhuoliang had just put his hand into Qiao Yingze's undershirt and touched his chest, but Qiao Yingze let go of him at this moment and held his burning hand.
"Okay, it's rare that Xian'er didn't come to trouble you, so go to bed earlier."
Holding his forehead against his forehead and breathing calmly, Qiao Yingze touched Gong Zhuoliang's back soothingly, then let go of him, turned inward and closed his eyes, leaving Gong Zhuoliang to the side.
"…"
Gong Zhuoliang pressed his chest against Qiao Yingze's back, rubbing...no response, Dingding...no response, just got up and went down...still no response!
Gong Zhuoliang took a deep breath, then took out the candles in the room and began to let out air. After they were all blown out, he smeared into the bed and lay on Qiao Yingze's back, wrapping his arms and legs, and then...sleep!
The next morning, they still woke up with Gong Jinxian's cry. Because they were rushing to pay their respects to Gong Zhuoyan, Gong Zhuoliang didn't mention the matter of the imperial examination, and Qiao Yingze also acted as if there was no such thing. In the same way, it was another hundred days for Gong Jinxian, and another farewell for Qiao Yingxuan and Lu Zijian who had returned to Beijing, so for a few days, they did not talk about the subject of the imperial examination, nor did they do what they loved...
When things were all over, and Qiao Yingze was going to go back to his small house, Gong Zhuoliang, who couldn't bear it, blocked Qiao Yingze in the bedroom, intending to make things clear.
"Lord Xianggong, do you have anything to tell me? I haven't agreed yet."
Regarding Qiao Yingze's always tepid attitude, Gong Zhuoliang put his hands behind his back in his arms, and asked face to face with gritted teeth.
"Zhuzhuo, I promise that I won't hurt my body because of the scientific test. Even if it's for you, I will take good care of myself, you believe me."
Compared to Gong Zhuoliang's bombastic reaction, Qiao Yingze's attitude was very calm. He only brought up the matter of the imperial examinations when he really had confidence in himself, and he was definitely not trying to be brave. He would deliberately avoid discussing this with Gong Zhuoliang a few days ago. The problem was because Gong Zhuoliang was not mentally prepared at that time, and when he heard his own thoughts, he only wanted to dispel his thoughts, and he would definitely not think about this matter rationally. Now that he has been talking for a few days after he has been slowed down like this, he is prepared in his heart, and he will be able to talk much more rationally.
"This is not just a question of a scientific examination. Ying Ze, your character is really unsuitable for officialdom. You do it reluctantly, and you will be the only one to suffer."
It was not easy to get such a relatively free life now. Gong Zhuoliang really didn't want to change from a freedman to a slave to an emperor's family, but he couldn't speak out directly to Qiao Yingze if he was so 'rebellious', otherwise he would suffer from the patriotism of loyalty and patriotism for a lifetime. Little Xianggong, who is educated, is afraid that he will not accept it!
"Even if I really don't adapt to official life, but at least I have worked hard and fought hard, then I have no regrets. If I give up without even trying, I will regret it for the rest of my life."
Looking at Gong Zhuoliang without dodging, Qiao Yingze hopes that he can see his seriousness and determination. In the past three years, Qiao Yingze has seen with his own eyes how much Gong Zhuoliang has suffered and how much grievances he has endured to achieve today's achievements. Since Gong Zhuoliang can do it, why can't he who is five years older than him?
"...Then have you ever thought about it, once you become an official, how will others view our relationship? A dignified court official is a male wife, and it is enough for the imperial censor to confuse you. Now, what career is there?"
In the end, he couldn't match Qiao Yingze's magnanimity. Gong Zhuoliang turned his head to avoid his gaze, then let go of him and took two steps back, sighing a little tiredly.
If Qiao Yingze is just an idle person with a reputation, then no one will care about his private life, but if he is really named on the gold list, then the relationship between the two of them will be revealed to the world, and many people will be called to criticize Zhisheng, such a 'stunning' is not something that ordinary people can afford... It's hard to say a word, and now they have tried their best to be together in an open and honest way. If Qiao Yingze really has a high school day, then he will face such a situation. Social pressure, can they live as happily as they are now?
Gong Zhuoliang is not an aesthetic romantic. On the contrary, he is very realistic. He may not care about other people's opinions, but can Qiao Yingze, who has read books on sages and sages for more than ten years, hold it up?
"Let's live our own lives, why should we care about other people's opinions? Our marriage was before my scientific examination. The law does not stipulate that people cannot marry male wives. If I divorce my wife and marry another after I pass the examination, then It should be played by the imperial censor. If my career is really affected by this, then the big deal is to resign and go into hiding. After all, I have used what I have learned, and I have not wasted my ten years of hard study in the cold window. ."
Although Qiao Yingze is far inferior to Gong Zhuoliang, an argumentative talent, but if he wants to convince people with reason, Qiao Yingze is much more professional than Gong Zhuoliang, and what he says now is from his heart. confidence.
"Why bother with this, can't we live freely?"
All the reasons he could think of were resolved by Qiao Yingze. Gong Zhuoliang complained a little irritably. He could understand Qiao Yingze's desire to make achievements as a man, but he really didn't want to lose his hard-earned freedom.
"Is my efforts just tossing in your opinion?"
Qiao Yingze thought he was very used to being treated as a waste and superfluous existence since he was born, but when his efforts were regarded as trouble by his lover, he would still feel... very sad.
"Ying Ze, that's not what I meant."
Seeing the disappointed look on Qiao Yingze's face, Gong Zhuoliang's heart tightened and he hurriedly stretched out his hand to support his shoulder, but was avoided by Qiao Yingze who stepped back a few steps, and he raised his hands to his chest apart, representing the gesture is a refusal.
"Zhuzhuo, I always support whatever you want to do... I'll go back first, you don't have to send me."
With a reluctant smile, Qiao Yingze stepped back and walked to the door, but he was still reluctant to say a heavy word, which stopped Gong Zhuoliang from trying to catch up with him. Qiao Yingze gave him a deep look, then turned and left.
"Ying Ze!"
It was just a sentence that didn't even count as an accusation, but Gong Zhuoliang felt as if his heart was being squeezed tightly, aching and painful, and he looked at the back of Qiao Yingze leaving, and for the first time felt ashamed.
Gong Zhuoliang knew that Qiao Yingze had no reservations about his goodness, but he always thought that he had paid enough for him, but now that he thinks about it, how selfish and self-righteous is his contribution compared with Qiao Yingze?
He thought it was for his own good to keep food and drink for his own good. He thought that he would satisfy his spiritual needs by asking him to help him change the manuscript, draw and draw illustrations. In addition to the gift, those thick legal books, commentaries with unique insights into current affairs and decrees, and biographies of people's livelihood customs and geographical environment in various places...
In the last life, Gong Zhuoliang believed in the belief that "life is sincere and precious, and love is more valuable. If it is for freedom, both can be thrown away." 'Because he was born in a time of peace, he didn't need to worry about his own safety, and he never met a sapling that could make him give up the entire forest, so since he became financially independent, he no longer had to deal with those irresponsible parents. After the relationship, his life is really very free and unrestrained...
But after he came to this world, he gave up his freedom in order to survive in the first place. Fortunately, he met Qiao Yingze, so he didn't need to worry about his own life anymore, he finally regained his freedom, but Now, the conflict has turned into freedom and his love.
"What kind of multiple choice question is this?"
Throwing his body heavily on the couch, Gong Zhuoliang's heart was rushing with kelp tears, he decided to have a good drunken rest tonight, in order to pay homage to his passing...
