Living Only For Myself: Make Those Who Hate Me Regret It-Chapter 210: "You’re not willing to talk, so let me hear what he’s going to say.
’Maybe I should just tell him. Tell Zhou Mochen that I used to be with Xi Zirong.’
’That during those days when I couldn’t stand him, I went behind his back and dated another guy.’
Xu Su had never thought she could hide this from him forever. After all, with how much attention Zhou Mochen paid her, he was bound to notice something was off this past year. Previously, Xu Su would only see him once every few months, and they would start arguing within two sentences. She also forbade him from showing up at school.
But now they were a couple, so they had to see each other often. Besides, given how insecure he was, he might start showing up at school in the future. He would eventually overhear the students’ casual chatter.
Xu Su placed her hand on his waist and looked up at the man before her. They were so close she could smell the scent of pine on him, mixed with a faint aroma of baijiu that aggressively dominated her senses.
It was an indescribable scent, one that Xu Su didn’t actually dislike, yet she frowned and asked, "Why did you drink that?"
Zhou Mochen thought she was disgusted with him and took half a step back. "You’re still a student here," he said, sounding wronged. "I had to show some respect. If you don’t like it, I won’t drink next time."
"..." Xu Su was a little touched, but her words were still harsh. "Who likes a man reeking of alcohol, especially baijiu?"
Faced with a grown man’s hurt expression, Xu Su couldn’t bear to look at him. She turned her head away and walked around to the other side of the large tree.
She was debating whether she should confess everything about her and Xi Zirong. ’After all, I’m with him now. He probably wouldn’t hold my past against me... right?’
As she was trying to figure out what to say, she looked up and saw the other main character of her story standing under a tree not far away.
Zhou Mochen followed her from behind the tree. Seeing Xu Su standing there frozen, staring at something, he couldn’t help but follow her gaze.
He looked over and chuckled. "Which little lovebirds from your school are on a date? Susu, you won’t even let me hold your hand, and your school’s students are already kissing."
Not far away, a pair of students in First High School uniforms stood under a tree. The boy’s back was to them, his shoulders straight. The girl held his arm, standing on her tiptoes. From Xu Su’s angle, it looked like she was initiating a kiss.
It was a truly beautiful scene: a young couple in the prime of their youth under a tree, the girl mustering the courage to kiss the boy she liked. Who wouldn’t call it picturesque?
They weren’t too far away, so Xu Su could see clearly. The half of the girl’s face that was visible... was Gu Yunjia’s.
’Then who is the boy with his back to me?’
That back was so familiar—so familiar she recognized it almost instantly.
Xu Su’s breath caught in her throat. She felt like she couldn’t breathe. She reached out and pulled Zhou Mochen. "Let’s go. I don’t want to be here anymore."
That tree... Xi Zirong had kissed her under that tree countless times. Now, in the very same spot, he was kissing another girl. ’Is this what they call things changing and people drifting apart?’
It wasn’t that Xu Su didn’t know Gu Yunjia was pursuing Xi Zirong. She’d even seen the girl’s enthusiasm with her own eyes and heard many classmates say that it’s easy for a girl to win over a boy. They said it was only a matter of time before God Xi was won over by Gu Yunjia.
Even Huang Feng had once said that a guy who’s been hurt in love is more susceptible to someone else taking advantage of his vulnerability.
But she always acted so nonchalant. She was the one who initiated the breakup, so it was his freedom to be with whomever he wanted afterward. Xu Su always felt that even if he really did get with someone else, she would be able to give him her blessing with a calm heart.
But when it actually happened, she finally understood what a breakup truly meant. The boy whose heart and eyes had once been filled with only her could, in fact, kiss another girl.
Xu Su spun around. She wouldn’t look for another second.
Her wrist was gripped tightly, and she was pulled into an embrace. Zhou Mochen was such a perceptive person; he had noticed something was wrong with Xu Su in an instant.
He reached out, lifted the girl’s chin, his face devoid of expression. "Xu Su, what are you crying about?"
’Am I crying?’
Xu Su numbly reached up to touch her face. "I’m not crying."
There were no tears on her face.
"Your expression tells me you’re crying." Zhou Mochen brushed his fingers over her eyelids, his voice flat. "This area is all red. Xu Su, why are you crying just from seeing other people kiss?"
He didn’t lower his voice, attracting the attention of the couple nearby.
The boy with his back to them finally turned around. He paused upon seeing the situation, and then, as if he recognized them, quickly started walking over.
Panic filled Xu Su’s eyes. Watching Xi Zirong get closer and closer, she frantically struggled out of Zhou Mochen’s embrace and grabbed his arm. "Let’s just go, Zhou Mochen."
The girl’s urgent tone carried a hint of pleading.
She was nervous, and she was afraid.
Zhou Mochen’s heart sank, as if a great stone had been dropped on his chest. He had never seen Xu Su this flustered.
The sight of that boy walking toward them made her afraid.
’What is she afraid of?’
’Why did she look like she was about to cry just from seeing that boy kiss someone else?’
A chill radiated from Zhou Mochen. He reversed his grip, clamping down on the hand Xu Su was using to pull him, and stood rooted to the spot. He said slowly, "You being this flustered will give me the wrong idea, Xu Su. Tell me, why are you so scared right now?"
Xu Su said nothing, still trying to pull him away, but her strength against a determined Zhou Mochen was like an ant trying to shake a tree.
She pulled and pulled, but when she saw it was truly useless, she gave up and let her head hang in defeat.
’Forget it... It’s not like I planned to hide it forever anyway...’
’It’s already come to this. If he finds out, he finds out. This is already the worst-case scenario.’
Xu Su gave a bitter smile. ’Sure enough, plans can never keep up with changes.’
Seeing her silence, Zhou Mochen didn’t get angry. A corner of his mouth lifted as he looked at the boy who was now almost upon them. "If you won’t talk, then let’s hear what he has to say."
Xu Su also turned her head to look at Xi Zirong.
He was dressed in the black-and-white school uniform, tall and long-legged. His handsome features looked even fairer under the sun, giving him a youthful air. The boy practically glowed.
Even setting aside his status as the top student in his grade, just based on looks alone, Xi Zirong was truly an outstanding guy.
Xu Su shifted her gaze to Gu Yunjia, who was following behind him. The girl’s face was still flushed, and her eyes, fixed on Xi Zirong’s back, were filled with adoration.
Xu Su’s feelings were a tangled mess. She knew she had no right to be upset, but a person’s heart isn’t something one can control.
She had to admit it: seeing Xi Zirong being intimate with someone else hurt. A lot.
Xi Zirong stopped about two meters away. He looked at Zhou Mochen and Xu Su’s clasped hands, his own eyes showing no emotion.
In truth, he himself didn’t know why he had walked over.
It was Xu Su who broke the silence, forcing a stiff smile and offering a greeting. "Hi..."
How ridiculous. How comical.
