Living Only For Myself: Make Those Who Hate Me Regret It-Chapter 127: Has He Ever Hugged You?

Xu Su had long had a plan. Even if she was going to tell Zhou Mochen, it couldn’t be here at school. The best-case scenario was after she graduated. By then, she wouldn’t have to worry about her classmates’ stares and could face Zhou Mochen’s fury with composure.

"Old Wu said the school needed your help with something." Seeing Xu Su remain silent, Xi Zirong pressed on, "Xu Su, is this related to that guy who’s pestering you?"

The two of them had been dating for over two months, and this was the first time Xi Zirong had ever brought up Zhou Mochen. Even though he had known about the other man’s existence for a while, he had never asked, simply watching his girlfriend use a phone given to her by someone else.

She might even be replying to the other man’s messages every day. 𝓯𝙧𝙚𝒆𝙬𝙚𝒃𝙣𝙤𝒗𝓮𝓵.𝙘𝙤𝙢

Xi Zirong’s grip on his spoon tightened as he looked up at the girl across from him.

Xu Su was also a little surprised by his perceptiveness. She had only been gone for a class or two, yet he had managed to guess so accurately.

She didn’t want to lie to Xi Zirong. After a moment of hesitation, she nodded. "Yes. He’s donating a new building to the school and said he wanted to see the First High School campus. The school administration arranged for a student to show him around, and they happened to pick me."

Xi Zirong frowned. "He likes you, Susu. It can’t be such a coincidence."

Xu Su said, "...I know. I know he chose me on purpose."

Xi Zirong fell silent, the atmosphere around him growing heavy. He didn’t eat another bite of dinner, staring down without a word, his thoughts unreadable.

Seeing him like this, Xu Su felt a sense of helplessness. She was about to say something, but he stopped her. "Finish your dinner first. We can talk after you’re done."

Xu Su fell silent.

It wasn’t until dinner was over and the two had found a quiet place to sit that Xi Zirong finally spoke again.

"Did you tell him you have a boyfriend? Susu, you have a boyfriend. Is he still pestering you?"

The question left Xu Su speechless. No matter how smart Xi Zirong was, there was no way he could understand Zhou Mochen’s temperament or his obsessive nature.

How could she dare tell Zhou Mochen she had a boyfriend, especially here at school? Xu Su wasn’t sure how he would react, but she could guess it would cause a huge commotion.

Xu Su didn’t speak for a long moment, and Xi Zirong’s expression darkened completely.

He reached out and took Xu Su’s hand, his gaze fixed on her slender fingers as he toyed with them. After a long while, he suddenly asked, "Susu, has he ever held your hand like this?"

Xu Su’s fingers trembled, and she reflexively tried to pull her hand back, but Xi Zirong held it tight. He leaned in, his voice very soft. "Be good. Tell me."

Xu Su looked up at him, her gaze meeting the boy’s dark, somber eyes. His black pupils were filled with her reflection. His grip on her hand was so tight it hurt a little.

She squeezed his hand back, trying to reassure him. Unwilling to lie, she simply confessed, "He has."

’Not only had he held her hand...’ Xu Su closed her eyes for a moment, feeling as if Zhou Mochen’s ever-present aura was filling her senses.

Xu Su said, "Xi Zirong, I can’t explain this in just a few words. But please believe me, after I got together with you, I stopped talking to him. I haven’t contacted him in over two months. I was just as surprised as you when he suddenly showed up at school today. I blocked his number; I had no idea he was coming."

The boy’s lips were pressed into a thin line as if he were suppressing his emotions. He gave a slight nod. "Mm. You ignored him, so he chased you all the way to school. Then why didn’t you just tell him you have a boyfriend? Xu Su, are you afraid of him?"

"Yes, I’m afraid of him." Admitting she was afraid of Zhou Mochen wasn’t shameful. Xu Su nodded decisively. "If I had told him this afternoon that I have a boyfriend, knowing him, he probably would have wanted to see the man who ’defeated’ him and come looking for you directly."

Xi Zirong raised an eyebrow and was about to speak, but Xu Su cut him off. "I’m not saying you would be afraid of him. But Xi Zirong, you need to remember who we are. We’re students. If this blows up at school, do you think it would look good? What would the entire school be saying about you and me?"

’And that was just Zhou Mochen’s overt reaction. Covertly, after losing control, who knows what kind of schemes he would resort to.’

’Just like this afternoon, when Zhou Mochen knew to threaten her using her weak spot. For the great heir to the Zhou family of Beijing, dealing with a few poor farmers would be laughably easy. He wouldn’t even have to lift a finger to drive Grandma Xu’s family into a corner.’

’In her past life, she had seen just how calculating Zhou Mochen could be. Even though those schemes hadn’t been directed at her, they still terrified her... ’

’Who was Zhou Mochen? Even in Beijing, few people dared to cross him. The only reason he allowed Xu Su to hurt him was because he was willing.’

’The moment he was no longer willing, what would she be to him?’

’The only bargaining chip Xu Su had was Zhou Mochen’s love for her—his reluctance to hurt her.’

’But Zhou Mochen’s affection wasn’t selfless. His designs on Xu Su were immense, and he would never let her go. If he found out she was with someone else, he probably wouldn’t hold back anymore, would he?’

At this thought, Xu Su wasn’t just worried about herself; she started to worry about Xi Zirong as well.

’Being Zhou Mochen’s love rival...’

After hearing her out, Xi Zirong’s brows furrowed tightly. "So, you just let him keep pestering you? Let him hold your hand?"

At this, the boy’s face filled with frustration. His voice dropped to a deep, low tone as he said, "Maybe I should ask a different question. Susu, has he ever held you?"

Xu Su turned her head away awkwardly. "Why do you keep asking about these things? Xi Zirong, didn’t I just tell you that I’ve had nothing to do with him since we got together?"

But Xi Zirong was sharp. Given her reaction, the answer was perfectly clear.

Xu Su felt a grip on her shoulder, and then she was pulled into his embrace.

He held her tightly, his right hand cradling the back of her head to pull her closer. His lips were right by her ear as he spoke softly, "Fine, I won’t ask about that. In that case, Susu, when do you plan on telling him you have a boyfriend and to stay away from you?"

The boy’s clear voice was right in her ear, and Xu Su couldn’t help but flinch. She placed her hands on him and pushed lightly. "It’s broad daylight, let go of me. Xi Zirong, this place might be secluded, but other students could still walk by."

Xi Zirong didn’t let go. In fact, he leaned in closer and lightly kissed Xu Su’s neck.

He sighed softly. "Susu, just let me hold you for a bit. Let me calm down. I can’t bear to imagine him holding you. Even if it happened before we were together, it still hurts. What am I supposed to do? I’m not as magnanimous as you. I feel like I’m dying inside right now."

Xu Su hadn’t worn a scarf today. Even with her jacket zipped all the way up, a section of her neck was still exposed, making it convenient for the boy’s kiss. The warmth of his breath as he spoke flushed one side of her face red.

Feeling the kiss on her neck, Xu Su practically leaped to her feet. Wiping at the spot, she cried out, both flustered and angry, "Xi Zirong! Stop it! Can’t you be mindful of our surroundings?!"