How To Live As A Writer In A Fantasy World-Chapter 225: A Happy Face (2)
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We reached the point of no return. The only thing left is revealing my identity as Xenon to Adelia. Since the manuscript happened to be in my room, proving it wonโt take long. However, I have no intention of disclosing it right now. Even if weโve became lovers, it will take time for her to fully fall for me.
I need to wait until Iโm sure she will choose me without any hesitation after I reveal myself as Xenon. To ensure not to make a mistake in a momentโs choice, not to hold any lingering regrets.
Look at the present moment. Despite having just experienced the deep, intense first kiss moments ago, she was still wearing an uneasy expression. With an anxious look in her eyes, she repeatedly asked confirming questions, as if she couldnโt believe the current situation.
I responded to those questions with a warm smile, and in a low, soothing voice, I opened my mouth.
โIf itโs too unbelievable, should I give you another kiss?โ
โยทยทยท ยทยทยทโ
As soon as I said that, Adeliaโs face turned as red as a volcano about to erupt. Her lips trembled like the waves, expressing her feelings in an instant.
As I mentioned before, Adelia was starving for โaffection.โ Being born as an illegitimate child, her family environment was truly the worst, and during the exhibition, she even faced worse.
So, instead of playing pranks, giving Adelia warmth would be better. But thereโs one thing that I canโt quite understand.
โNoona, why did it have to be me? There are plenty of guys with affection like mine in the world.โ
As I said, there are many men in the world similar to me. Rather than a man like me with many women around, it would have been better for Adelia to meet a man who only had eyes for her.
In response to my question, Adelia blinked her sky-blue eyes and then replied with a complex smile.
โEven if I revealed that Iโm illegitimate, would they really treat me like you?โ
โยทยทยทโ
โIllegitimate children are treated much worse than you think. Among nobles, they are seen as a threat to power or as cause for discord in the family, tainted with impure blood. The commoners treat illegitimate children as nobles. Itโs a status thatโs neither here nor there.โ
The treatment of illegitimate children is indeed as Adelia described: not good at all. It could lead to significant discord within families and is entrenched with strong negative biases.
Above all, thereโs a clear distinction between โlegitimate childrenโ and โillegitimate children.โ Legitimate children, even if they are born from concubines, receive a certain level of noble treatment. However, illegitimate children are born from relationships outside the family. There inevitably exists a difference.
The reason Adelia calls herself an illegitimate child rather than a legitimate child is also because of this. If she isnโt acknowledged as part of the family, she would have to label herself as an illegitimate child rather than a legitimate one.
I reached out and gently stroked Adeliaโs head as she stood there, lost in melancholy. Startled, she slowly lifted her head to look at me with surprised eyes.
โโฆIsaac?โ
โYou donโt have to blame yourself anymore. Iโll make sure you forget everything about being an illegitimate child. Understand?โ
โยทยทยท ยทยทยทโ
At my words, Adelia bit her lip hard, tears welling up in her eyes. Soon enough, she leaned into me. Just looking at her like this, she seemed so tearful and fragile. They say people who laugh a lot often carry many inner wounds, and it seems to be true.
I intend to cherish Adelia until all those wounds are healed, and Iโm willing to provide her with ample affection as a remedy. The scars might remain from deep wounds, but the healing itself will be sufficient.
โโฆIsaac.โ
โYeah, noona?โ
โDo we really have to meet them now? Will they even allow it?โ
Sheโs probably referring to Marie and Cecily. Normally, she would have referred to them as โthose kids,โ but now she spoke of them in a more elevated manner as โthem.โ
Even though the line has been crossed, permission is still necessary. Adelia herself being of illegitimate birth makes it even more daunting.
Even if Nicole were to go and insist, the moment she faces rejection, Adeliaโs heart will quickly burn down like a piece of paper on fire. And once again, new wounds will be etched.
Iโll do whatever it takes to stop it. Iโm already prepared to take several hits.
โDonโt worry. Iโll try my best.โ
โโฆCan I trust you on that?โ
โYes.โ
I said affectionately while gently stroking Adeliaโs head to reassure her worries.
โI might get scolded a lot, but itโll be okay.โ
Knock knock.
As soon as I said that, the sound of someone knocking on my door reached my ears. Adelia and I immediately turned our gaze towards the door upon hearing the sound.
โTheyโve come.โ
Checking the clock, itโs already half-past five. The last class ended around 4:30, so we must have talked for an hour before they came.
I said it would be fine, but I couldnโt help feeling nervous. I stroked Adeliaโs head once again and got up from my seat, walking towards the door.
โYes. Iโll go.โ
Itโs a tense moment. I took a deep breath, lowered the doorknob, and slowly opened the door.
Itโs probably just a misconception that it feels like the gates of hell are opening. While briefly having an unnecessary thought, I checked the person who knocked.
As soon as I opened the door, I saw very familiar faces. Not only Nicole in a uniform, but also Marie and Cecily standing beside her.
I could roughly guess why they had come. My intuition about the Gates of Hell was precisely accurate. Awkwardly, I chuckled, but feeling the chilly yet intense aura, I couldnโt help but shudder.
The source of that energy was none other than Nicole, who had knocked. She gazed at me with cold, sunken golden eyes.
โUhโฆ youโre here? Did youโฆ talk?โ
Something was dangerous. My instincts were screaming. As I awkwardly chuckled, Nicole slightly lifted the corner of her mouth. However, the problem was that while her mouth was smiling, her eyes were not.
It was an unmistakably eerie atmosphere and vibe. I slowly stepped back in unease, butโฆ freew(e)bnovel.com
โHey, youโฆโ
Nicole widened her eyes and then exclaimed.
โYou rascal!!!โ
She kicked me right in the chest, a very precise and clear kick that could have appeared alongside a roaring battle cry in a movie from a past life.
Itโs a flaw that I took that kick. Naturally, due to the strong pain I felt in my abdomen, I couldnโt help but roll backward.
Fortunately, she hadnโt kicked me hard enough to cause serious harm, but it was painful nonetheless. As Iโve not encountered many opponents since reincarnation, the pain feels even sharper.
โW-What?!โ
โN-Nicole!โ
Suddenly, everyone was startled by Nicoleโs abrupt kick and hurriedly approached. Whether I said anything or not, Nicole relentlessly stomped on me while I lay collapsed on the ground.
She seemed to be controlling her strength to some extent, but I could sense intense anger with each kick.
โI thought there was only Adele, but thereโs one more?! And sheโs even a beastwoman, not to mention the chieftainโs daughter?! Youโre quite the princess collector, huh?โ
โNo-noona, just a momentโฆ! Let me explainโฆโ
โWhat explanation! That elf you claimed to be friendly withโฆ seems like youโve gotten quite close! No, maybe youโre already beyond โcloseโ! If you collect one person from each race, youโll go down in history as the greatest playboy, just like that! Xenon is said to be a pure lover who only cares about one person, but heโs being a damned playboy!โ
18 years passed after my reincarnation.
โOuch! Ahh!โ
โNoona, hold on! Isaac might die like this!โ
โLet go of this, Marie! We have to do something about that guyโs lower body first! Otherwise, itโll only get worse, and as a sister, I canโt let that happen!โ
โNo, donโt! Leave the face and below as they are and just do it in other placesโฆโ
For the first time in my life, I was beaten like a dog by my elder sister.
*****
When people feel pain, their minds suddenly sharpen. Itโs not just a superstition that getting hit brings you to your senses for no reason. Because you donโt want to get hit, you do whatever it takes to snap out of it and escape.
Iโm the same way. When I was kicked by Nicole, my mind cleared up instantly. Although itโs shocking to have been hit by my close sister for the first time in my life, I could understand, given my situation.
But pain is pain. She aimed for places where it wouldnโt cause much harm even if I got hurt, but itโs inevitable that it stings. I just have to endure it.
โOuchโฆโ
โAll right, itโs settled after all that fuss.โ
When I was rubbing the part that was stinging, Nicole warned me in a sharp voice. She even crossed her arms, indicating that she was still not over it.
Though her terrifying warning made me shudder, since I was at fault, I couldnโt say anything. I just stayed put, trying to read the atmosphere.
โThank you.I donโt care about anything else, donโt touch Isaacโs face, below, or his hands. Other than that, he can be like a corpse.โ
Cecily, sitting on the right, gently stroked my head while teasingly saying. Marie, sitting on the left, nodded in complete agreement.
I wanted to retort, but I bit my tongue, fearing it might just invite more insults. Iโm a sinner and a troublemaker, after all.
Yet, even with Cecilyโs joke, the tension didnโt ease. If anything, it only increased.
Iโm already feeling nervous but I wonder how Adelia feels. Sheโs sitting opposite me, knees pulled up, visibly tense.
It may kinda be a marriage interview, amusingly enough, but for her, itโs probably the most nerve-wracking moment in the world.
โAll right thenโฆ Adelia, was it?โ
โYes, yes!โ
Adelia replied stiffly to Marieโs question, visibly tense to anyone observing.
โPlease speak comfortably. Weโve all heard from Nicole. You can relax.โ
โI, I feel uncomfortable doing thatโฆ Iโm sorry.โ
โIf youโre uncomfortable, thereโs nothing to be done.โ
Marie shrugged as if she didnโt particularly care. Then, she pinched my cheek and pulled it out teasingly.
โOw, that hurts. Marie.โ
โGood that it hurts. Anyway, Adelia, Isaacโsโฆโ
Marie paused mid-sentence and glanced at me briefly. It was a question asking if I had disclosed my identity.
Recognizing that, I gently shook my head. It wasnโt yet time to tell Adelia.
She nodded once, smoothly continuing her sentence.
โItโs because of your kindness, right? Even as an orphan, you see yourself without any judgment.โ
โY-yeah.โ
Slap!
As soon as Adelia finished her sentence, Marie lightly slapped my cheek. It stung a bit but oddly refreshed my mind.
In the meantime, Marie glanced at the nervous Adelia and, folding her arms, spoke her mind.
โActually, I donโt really like it.โ
โExcuse me?โ
โMarie?โ
I was immediately faced with an obstacle. I wanted to plead and somehow convince her due to certain circumstances, but I couldnโt in the current atmosphere.
This had to be resolved between Marie and Adelia. However, right from the start, there was a discord.
As everyone waited for Marie to speak, she glanced at me once, then released her arms and subtly took my hand.
Facing Adeliaโs surprised expression, Marie began to explain the reason.
โIf Adelia-unnie had come because of Isaacโs status, he might have rejected it from Isaacโs side. But Adelia-unnie fell for Isaac himself. She held love for Isaac in her heart. She said she only had a pure love for him. Nicole-unnie noticed that and pushed Isaac.โ
โโฆYes.โ
โThatโs why Nicole-unnie apologized fervently earlier, even hitting her head on the ground. She pushed Isaac without knowing Leona was there too.โ
As she spoke, Nicole glared fiercely at me. I couldnโt gather the courage to meet her eyes and focused my gaze on Adelia as much as possible.
Adeliaโs expression stiffened more and more as Marie continued speaking. However, seeing her sky-blue eyes occasionally wavering, I could tell she was conflicted.
The two fists placed on top of her thighs repeated opening and closing, and her trembling breath resonated in my ears.
โIโm similar to you, Unnie. My status isnโt an issue, and I love Isaac as a person, just like you.โ
โThen, what about the princessโฆโ
Adelia paused, shifting her gaze to Cecily, who was in close contact with me. Crimson and blue sky-like irises exchanged glances.
Sensing those looks, Cecily linked arms with me, displaying affection. Outwardly, it seemed like I had two beautiful maidens on either side. But the reality was close to hell. But this was undoubtedly my fault.
โIโm the same. Despite the reduction in discrimination against demons thanks to Xenonโs Biography, it hasnโt been completely eliminated. And when Iโm with Isaac, I feel like a human, not a demon. Warm affection, a kind attitude, and even stam- energy comparable to a demonโฆ thereโs nothing lacking.โ
Trying to say โstaminaโ but switching to โenergyโ in a hurry, Cecily diverted the conversation. Itโs very much like her. I chuckled bitterly.
She also had a liking for me from the beginning. However, it was only a liking, and it fell short of being considered rational in terms of emotions.
First of all, the difference in lifespan was clear. It was because she realized that I was Xenon and didnโt even consider things like lifespan, and if it wasnโt for that, itโs unknown whether she would have connected with me.
Therefore, it can be said that Marie was the one who truly loved me from the beginning. The current Adelia is the same.
โSee? Thatโs why itโs unsettling. Both of us fell in love with the person Isaac, but you came barging in here. Of course, Isaac probably wonโt have such profound concerns, but our position could become precarious.โ
โT-That will never happen!โ
Perhaps she was afraid that Marie might refuse. Adelia cried urgently but abruptly stopped herself with both hands covering her mouth.
No matter how urgent it was, shouting face-to-face was clearly against etiquette. Thatโs how urgent it was.
However, Marie smiled casually and opened her mouth.
โDonโt worry. I might be a little grumpy, but weโre not rejecting you, Unnie. Cecily has similar thoughts.โ
โYes? Thenโฆโ
โInstead, thereโs a condition.โ
At the mention of a condition, Adelia restrained her expression instead of being moved. She must know well that the condition is the most important.
Then, Marie, holding hands with me, showed a kind smile and spoke.
โUnnie should also understand that โofficiallyโ marrying is only between me and Isaac for now. Cecily is still โunofficial.โโ
โMarie?โ
โWhy? Itโs true, isnโt it?โ
โDo you have to emphasize it like that?โ
It seemed Cecily was upset when the word โunofficialโ was mentioned. However, Marie pushed forward diligently, not wishing to be deprived of the title of the first because Cecily didnโt have any desire for it in the first place.
โAnyway, I donโt know which of us will inherit the title, but itโll probably be Isaac who receives it from his father. Or the royal family might confer a separate title. If that happens, you might become Isaacโs concubine.โ
โYes, thatโs true.โ
โBut if you become a concubine, thereโs a high chance of constant surveillance from the Ters Kingdom. Even if you renounce them, there might be things that could be traced back to you.โ
โAhโฆโ
Adelia sighed at the somewhat realistic conversation. It clearly meant that she was officially designated as a โconcubine.โ
The situation would become complicated if the Ters Kingdom recognizes Adelia not as a bastard but as a โchildโ in the future. Even if the Minerva Empire and Adelia refuse vehemently, โlineageโ holds immense power in society nowadays.
In other words, itโs difficult to accept Adelia even as a concubine. That damn lineage continued to torment her like a shackle.
Around the time when even Adelia and perhaps I felt a sense of pity, Mari unexpectedly made a proposal.
โSo, I have a suggestion, Unnie. How about becoming a personal maid instead of a guard knight?โ
โA personalโฆ maid?โ
โYes, a maid. Not just an ordinary servant but a personal maid who attends to Isaac and me.โ
A maid and a servant mean the same thing. However, a personal maid performs a role similar to a โsecretary.โ
Managing the employerโs schedule is basic, but they also act as an assistant, following around and fulfilling the duties of an attendant.
When you first glance at it, it may seem similar to being a maid, but a personal maid is undoubtedly a noble. One common misconception is that a personal maid is not a servant but has rather a companion-like relationship with a high-ranking noble. Adelia is certainly qualified to become a concubine, but it might be easier for her to become a personal maid rather than risking trouble with the Ters Kingdom.
Just as everyone was astonished by the proposal that could be considered cunning, Marie continued confidently.
โIn the mansion, youโll play the role of a maid, and when you go outside, youโll return to being a knight escort. That way, you can be close to Isaac and even receive love as you wish. How about it? Does it sound good?โ
โWell, becoming a maid is not exactlyโฆ I donโt dislike it, but Iโm not sure if I can do wellโฆโ
โIt doesnโt matter if you do well or not. Knowing Isaacโs personality, heโll do his own tasks. Itโs the same for me. What do you think?โ
โโฆ โฆ โ
Adelia hesitated at Marieโs proposal, then shifted her gaze to me. It was an indication of whether it was acceptable to be appointed as a personal maid. In response, I nodded my head.
Honestly, Iโm curious. The always carefree Adelia, welcoming me in a neat maid outfit. In various ways, my thoughts were drawn to that side.
When I nodded my head, Adelia opened her mouth with a surprised expression.
โโฆAlright. Iโll accept it.โ
โGreat. Iโll give you the necessary books, so study hard in your spare time. Oh, andโฆโ
Marie paused for a moment, then reached out her empty hand and grabbed Adeliaโs hand. Adelia, momentarily startled by Marie holding her hand, looked at her with a puzzled expression.
Then, with warm eyes fixed on Adelia, Marie spoke with a voice filled with sincerity.
โWelcome to the family, Adelia-unnie.โ
โโฆโ
โNow, donโt suffer anymore and live happily. Youโre worth that, unnie.โ
Perhaps that one sentence struck a chord in Adeliaโs heart. She initially had a vacant expression, then her lips trembled slightly before she slowly nodded her head.
Finally, placing her other hand over Marieโs hand that held hers, Adelia spoke with a choked voice,
โThank youโฆ reallyโฆ thank youโฆโ
โYes, unnie.โ
โI will definitelyโฆ sniffโฆ I will definitely protect you.โ
She really was someone who sheds tears easily. Itโs probably because she has been through a lot of pain.
As a warm atmosphere began to settle, Marie slowly stood up. Adelia looked at her with a tear-stained expression, puzzled. I felt the same way.
In the midst of this, Marie ignored those looks and called out to Cecily.
โCecily?โ
โIโm coming.โ
Did they synchronize their movements in advance? At the call from Marie, Cecily rose from her seat without any hesitation.
By the way, Marie held my hand, and since Cecily had linked arms with me, my two arms involuntarily lifted upwards.
As the bewildering situation continued, Marie looked down at me and spoke coldly.
โWhat are you doing? Arenโt you getting up?โ
โUh, what?โ
โIf you have any sense, wouldnโt you get up?โ
What on earth is happening? I really have no idea.
However, I could understand the situation from Cecilyโs subsequent words.
โIsaac.โ
โYe-yeah?โ
The chill in Cecilyโs voice was far colder than the freezing wind.
โDid you really think we would just move on like this?โ
It was much colder than the northern winter.