Forever Destined to the Silver Shadow-Chapter 195: Let me jump in the water

Aaron’s POV:

"Aaron... Stop making this hard for me. I already told you that I don’t love you."

"But you do love me. Or else why did you spend these many years together with me?"

"It was lust," she shouted. " All I felt for you was just lust. I never gave up my heart to you, nor am I planning to do it in the future."

I was marveled at how she was able to break my heart just with her words. "Then what about me, Lilin? For the past few years, I did nothing except care for you. Now, if you tell me to leave, then what am I supposed to do?"

She turned red again. I didn’t know how to console her. This is my fault! I should not have said something that would provoke her anger.

"It is your fault, Aaron," she said after a while. "It is completely your fault that you expected to love me back. I didn’t have any such expectations from you—so I am able to let you go easily. You need to understand that this is what love does to a person. The more you expect, the more you get hurt!"

I was speechless after that. So I made a mistake by expecting her to love me back?

"Now, if you really love me, then leave me alone! Unlike you, I have a greater purpose of fulfilling!"

"Okay, Lilin! I will not bother you anymore. I care about you so much—and I will never do anything that is not in your will."

My mind was entirely blank when I put on my robes. Was loving her a mistake? But it can’t be! It is the best thing that has ever happened to me. It is so unfortunate that I am not capable of owning her heart!

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I came back to the stream bank of the Ashland hills. The afternoon sun was mildly warming up the lands. I don’t understand what I am going to do with my life now.

I thought that Lilin would be with me forever. We were supposed to rule this kingdom together and live the rest of our lives happily! But she doesn’t want the same thing as me.

I think that there is no meaning in my life anymore. Life is not the same without her. Even in this place, I have had so many memories with her.

She and I made love on this very ground just two days ago. But now, she is not even with me! I didn’t know whom to blame. I obviously can’t blame Lilin. I still love her. I blame myself. I blame myself for not being good enough for her.

I looked down at the clear water of the stream. My father and I used to come here when I was a kid to catch the sea creatures from the waters.

He would warn me to be very careful when we were near the waters—as it is unknown to anyone how deep this stream is. Everyone who has ever jumped in here has never come back alive for some reason.

My theory is that this stream leads to the abyss of torment. That is the reason why everyone who gets in here dies. Perhaps it is time for me to know what is below here.

No one is going to miss me anyway if I jump! But I am supposed to become the King of this land. My father is going to give me the crown soon.

No! I can’t become a worthless king. I don’t want to wear a crown in my head and keep on making love with random girls. Instead, I want to do something useful too!

So I should jump in this stream and come back alive. If I do something heroic like that, then Lilin might accept me! And I am ready to do anything to make her love me again.

I dipped one of my toes slightly in the water. The water was surprisingly cold even though the temperature was warm. Something is not right here! Maybe this stream really leads to the abyss of torment.

They say that the temperature of the abyss is always freezing. I took a step back from the water in horror. How can I jump in the water after knowing that the Nephilim clan are down there?

We Incubus never actually cared about external affairs—as we were reluctant to know the happening of the outer lands. Still, I have enough knowledge about the Nephilim clan. They are like the God of death.

The Nephilim clan gives a series of daring tasks to accomplish for everyone who shows up in their place. And mostly, everyone fails at the first task. No one survives past that.

But my lover said that she survived the abyss. Lilin is really a nice girl. She is powerful, lovely, and smart.

I glanced down at the deep waters again. This is the only way I have got to win her back. And I am willing to take it. This time I dipped my feet entirely in the water. Then I heard a shrill cry.

"Aaron," I heard a girl scream. "Step away from the water now."

I looked over my shoulder to see a blonde girl running towards me. She was my succubus ex-lover. When did she get here?

When she reached near me, she pulled my arm and dragged me away from the waters.

"Why are you trying to kill yourself, Aaron? What happened to you?"

"Miranda, I am not trying to kill myself. I was going to jump in there to see what is below the waters. And if I do something heroic like that, then Lilin will take me back."

She lifted her eyebrows and said, "What did you say? Lilin broke up with you?"

"Yes! She thinks that I am not worthy enough to her. So I am going to increase my worth and become powerful like her. Then she would take me back! Now I would appreciate it if you just let me jump in the water—"