Forever Destined to the Silver Shadow-Chapter 178: I disappointed my Mother

Lilin’s POV:

My mother got up from the center of the pentagram and took a step closer to me. I wasn’t able to stare directly at her fiery eyes. She has not been this mad at me since the day I told her that I failed in the quest of protecting the doors of the damned.

"When are you going to learn your lesson? How many times should I have to tell you that love is your biggest weakness."

Even though I was in terror, I wasn’t able to restrain myself from chuckling a little at the statements she said.

"Mother, I am not in love with Aaron. And why would I fall in love with someone again? I am not that stupid!"

"If you are not in love with him, then what were you doing with him for this long?"

"I was just...." I stopped myself from saying that out loud. She caught me in her trap again!

My mother let out a grunt and shook her head in disappointment. "Do you realize that there is no fine line between love and lust? Once you have either of those feelings, it’s not so difficult for you to catch the other one too!"

A dread formed in my heart as I heard what she said. So I am going to fall in love with him? That is impossible! I have my feelings under control.

She continued bashing me for a minute. "When are you going to learn that there is nothing more foolish than wearing one’s heart on their sleeves? Just look at Silver Shadow now. He was invincible before he fell in love with the Dawn. Now he has turned into a pathetic lovesick boy, and he is still running behind that girl."

I stopped staring at her ruby eyes as I couldn’t take in her fiery gaze. Instead, I gazed at the candle that was burning itself little by little and dripped its wax over the pentagram symbol. Then it flashed in my mind that Silver Shadow is back too!

"He survived the abyss of torment?" I gasped out.

"Yes, he did. Now he has the powers of Nephilim just like you."

Then I understood the intensity of the challenges that are waiting for me. If Silver Shadow has the powers of the Nephilim, then I won’t be able to defeat him.

"But Mother, our target is not Silver Shadow. It’s the Dawn. I think that I can defeat her."

"Lilin!" she shouted my name again, and I took one more step back from her. "First, you have to go through Silver Shadow. You can never be able to destroy the Dawn if her Shadow is with her. He is like armor to her!"

"But Mother, how can I do that? We both have the same powers. If I strike at him, then our energies will get neutralized."

"That is what you are going to do now, Lilin. I command you to find a way to destroy both Dawn and her Shadow. Do you understand?"

"Yes, Mother!" I bent my head slightly and said. "If you excuse me now, then I will start working from now on in finding a way."

I stood up straight again and waited for her word. But she didn’t dismiss me.

"There is another thing that I need you to do. I want you never to see your Incubus lover again."

My heart stiffened for a second as I realized what she was asking me to do. I won’t be able to see him again! This is not fair.

"Mother, I am not in love with him. So I don’t think it fair to forbid me from seeing him."

I know that I am playing with the fire here by saying this to her. Still, I couldn’t restrain myself! I have gotten attached to him physically. He is my drug, and it won’t be easy for me to cut him off completely, as my mother says.

"How could you demand such a thing from me without feeling ashamed of yourself? You are shameless enough to ask me that you want to keep on playing with your Incubus lover?"

This is the most hurtful thing that she has ever said to me. Am I really shameless now? My eyes defeated me after that, and tears began to flow down my cheeks.

"I am.... I am..... sorry, mother," I sobbed out. "I never really meant to...."

"Just get out of here, Lilin! If you ask something like this to me again, then I won’t hesitate to throw you into the deep pit again."

"Okay, mother!" I continued crying pathetically like that timid maid did a while ago. All the mascara from my eyelashes dripped down and stained my cheeks grey.

My mother was disgusted by the way I was sobbing. I really did want to disappoint her. Still, I wasn’t able to pull myself together!

"Lilin, if you don’t shut up now, I swear on the Dark Lord that I will chastise you."

I swallowed the knot on my throat immediately and wiped off the grey stains from my cheeks. "Mother, no! I can stop crying. Please don’t chastise me. I am begging you."

She flashed a smile and said. "Good for you! Now get out of here before I decide to change my mind again."

"No, mother! That is unnecessary. I am leaving," I bowed to her again and fled away from her chamber.

I didn’t break down until I reached my room. All I wanted to do now was to crumble on my mattress and curse myself for my unluckiness.

Once I got into my room, I slammed my face on my pillow and soaked the silk pillowcase wet with my tears.

I made a huge mistake by breaking down in front of my mother. I knew that I would have to leave Aaron one day. Then why am I sad? Perhaps I didn’t expect this to happen very soon!

Suddenly, I heard the door of my room clicking open. I turned to my side while I was still lying on my bed and saw the timid maid get into my room.

She saw my tear-stained face and got dazed. "I will.... I will..... come to clean here later... please forgive me, Your Grace....."

The maid ran out of my room after saying that. I didn’t even have the strength to chase and confront her. I will take care of her once I am free from this sadness!