[BL] Bound to My Enemy: The Billionaire Who Took My Girl-Chapter 204: A ghost in the corner

NOAH

I found the gap because I’ve spent my entire life looking for them.

Every formal venue has one, a pocket of invisibility created by a structural oversight or a landscaping choice.

This one was around the side of the Metropolitan Club, a wedge of darkness between a heavy stone column and a manicured hedge.

It was invisible from the main entrance where the valets were whistling for cars, and invisible from the street where the world was moving on as if the last two hours hadn’t happened.

I sat on the cold pavement, knees drawn up to my chest, arms wrapped around them in a tight, desperate knot. I pressed my face into my thighs, making myself as small as the architecture would allow.

What the hell just happened? I asked my knees. What did I just go through?

The questions were quiet. It wasn’t a scream; it was a weary, genuine inquiry directed at a universe that had a long-standing policy of never answering me.

What had I done to deserve that? To stand in a room where I was treated like a contagion? To watch my brother be canonized while my father looked through me as if I were made of glass?

The tears were there, pressing against the back of my eyes with a weight that made my head ache.

They’d been there all night, held back by sheer, agonizing willpower. But now that I was alone, now that the performance was over, they refused to fall.

My body was too wrung out even for the mercy of a breakdown. There was just a hollow space where my heart used to be... a clean, scooped-out emptiness.

Everything I’d been building over the last few days, the tentative warmth, the feeling that I was finally becoming a person who belonged somewhere... had been dug out in a single evening.

My father’s one-second glance had seen to that. Nick’s clinical dismissal had finished the job. I was back to the old, familiar thing. The shame that fit me perfectly because I’d been wearing it since the nursery.

The spiral started, the internal monologue cranking up to a deafening volume.

You let them do it again, the voice hissed. You sat there and you shrank and you let them remind you that you’re the wrong son. And you did nothing. Because you never do anything.

And then the louder thought, the one that actually terrified me: What happens when Cassian isn’t there?

Because he kept being there. He’d been there in the lobby. He’d been there at the table. He’d been the one sending texts to keep my head above water.

But Cassian Wolfe was a man of logic and efficiency. Eventually, the efficiency of "saving Noah" would run dry.

Eventually, he’d realize I wasn’t worth the effort of the rescue.

What would I do then? How would I stand in a room like that alone?

The world around me went soft at the edges. The sound of engines and distant laughter filtered through the air like I was hearing it from the bottom of a pool. I closed my eyes and waited for the night to finish me off. 𝒇𝒓𝙚𝒆𝔀𝓮𝓫𝒏𝓸𝙫𝓮𝓵.𝓬𝙤𝙢

I didn’t hear him. There was no sound of footsteps on the pavement, no rustle of a suit jacket.

There was just a hand.

It moved through my hair, slow and deliberate, from the crown of my head down to the nape of my neck. It settled there, warm and heavy, the thumb tracing the line where my hair met my skin.

I looked up.

Cassian was standing over me. He looked like a shadow carved out of the night, still in his black dinner suit, the white of his shirt glowing faintly in the dim light.

He looked down at me on the pavement, his expression blank at first glance—the CEO mask he wore to protect himself from the world.

But I’d been reading him too long. I saw the second layer. Underneath the stillness, there was pity. It was quiet and unperformed, which made it feel like a physical blow.

The self-disgust flared up again. He was rescuing me. Again. I was the stray in the alley, the mess in the office, the victim at the table. I hated that he saw me like this. I hated that I needed him to see me like this.

"Are you alright?" he asked.

It was simple. Direct. It was the Cassian version of concern, which sounded exactly like his version of asking for a quarterly report, except for the tiny, microscopic tremor of something else underneath the flat delivery.

"What took you so long?" I cut him off before he could finish the thought. I kept my voice light, faintly accusatory. I leaned into the performance of mild annoyance because it was safe. It was territory we knew. "I’ve been sitting on cold stone for ten minutes. I think I have frostbite."

I expected him to match the lightness. I expected a cutting remark about my dramatic tendencies.

Instead, he paused. Something shifted in his eyes... a softening that felt dangerous.

"I’m sorry," he said.

It wasn’t a brush-off. It was sincere. Direct. He meant it.

The words stopped me completely. Sincerity from Cassian Wolfe was too much; it stripped the act clean off me, leaving me standing in the raw reality of the night.

My heart did that stupid, unwanted flutter. The part of me that kept looking for evidence, the part that kept thinking ’maybe’ began to ache.

"I was joking," I said, scrambling to rebuild my walls. I stood up, brushing the grit from my trousers with shaking hands. "Come on, we should go before someone sees us out here and thinks you’re mugging me."

"You’re right," Cassian said, though he didn’t move immediately.

I looked toward the street, my mind suddenly darting toward the idea of alcohol.

Not the taste, the smell of it still made my stomach turn after Spain but the effect. I wanted to be warm. I wanted to be slow. I wanted to not feel the sharp, jagged edges of the Bennett family for at least six hours.

"We should probably get a few drinks," I suggested, trying for playful. "A victory lap for surviving the most awkward dinner in human history."

Cassian gave me a look. It was the knowing one. The one that said he had already read the sentence underneath my sentence, translated my desire for "fun" into a desire to disappear, and found the logic lacking.

"I mean, or not," I backpedaled, my face heating up. "I just thought—"

"I know something better," he said. He didn’t elaborate. He was already moving.