Beneath the Surface: Secrets of an Obsessed Heart-Chapter 106 - 105

Once Raiden dressed them both in comfortable clothes and dried their hair, he helped Hiro apply a soothing ointment to his slightly swollen pink hole. They got into bed and Raiden pulled Hiro close once more, his arm wrapped around Hiro’s waist. Hiro rested his head on Raiden’s chest, listening to the steady beat of his heart.

Raiden still couldn’t believe it. They were together. Him and Hiro. They were finally together and he didn’t have to use any tricks or manipulation this time. Hiro chose to be with him on his own. He felt he was right to pluck Sora out of the picture. That guy was like a devil on Hiro’s shoulder, whispering all the wrong things to him since they were little. He thought Hiro was cold and mean until he realised Hiro wasn’t doing things on his own. Sora was the one influencing him.

Hiro had always been like that. Timid, shy, and always turning to his big brother for advice or permission to do things. Now that Sora was away, the person Hiro would have to rely on was him and he’d make sure to put Hiro on the right track.

"Can I ask you something?" Hiro inquired, breaking Raiden’s thoughts. He raised his head to meet Raiden’s piercing gaze which made him blush so he quickly averted his gaze, his eyelashes quivering slightly.

Raiden felt his heart flutter and his eyes softened. "Of course sweetheart. I’ve told you that you can ask me anything." He put a hand to Hiro’s chin and lifted his head so their eyes could meet. "Just ask me directly. You don’t need to ask permission all the time."

Hiro’s blush deepened and he nodded. "W-Well, umm...I-I just wanted to know. Why did you do all those things to me back in school?" He questioned. "Y-You know, stalk me, take pictures of me and all that. You scared me a lot. You were my senior you know. You didn’t have to resort to such methods to show me that you liked me. Y-You could have just pursued me the normal way. Like writing me a confession letter or something."

Raiden chuckled. "A confession letter?"

Hiro nodded seriously. "Yes. I would have read it and considered your feelings for me. I-I wanted to date back then but I just never liked anyone that much and big brother didn’t let me. I don’t know, I just feel like I would have liked you then if you weren’t so scary."

Raiden smiled. What was the use of a letter when there was someone controlling Hiro? If Sora said go left, Hiro would go without hesitation. If Sora told him that milk was bad for him, he would stop drinking it right away.

"I’m sorry that I scared you baby." He apologized, stroking Hiro’s smooth cheek. "But that was the only way I could make you notice me. Your brother never let me get close to you and he made you avoid me like a plague remember? Wasn’t he the one that told you relationships between men is disgusting and illegal? I remember you telling me the same thing when I managed to get you alone one time and confess to you. You didn’t even want to be in the same room with me. You looked at me like you would catch a disease from me if you so much as breathe the same air as me. I was truly hurt that day, Hiro. I didn’t feel like a human being at that moment. In your eyes, I seemed like a rodent. Some kind of animal that would give you a contagious disease."

Hiro’s eyes watered as he shook his head. He really couldn’t remember something like that happening but he knew it was possible with the way he loathed Raiden back then. "I’m sorry." He sniffled. "I-I don’t know why I did that. I thought big brother was right. I-I thought two men couldn’t be together."

"Shhh it’s okay." Raiden whispered, wiping his tears with his fingers. "Please don’t cry baby. It’s all in the past. It’s not your fault. It was Sora’s. He’s the one who fed you all the wrong information. I just couldn’t stay away from you despite your rejections and I didn’t know how else to get your attention so I followed you everywhere. You wouldn’t talk to me so I took pictures of you."

"Even naked ones." Hiro grumbled, lightly punching Raiden on the arm. "Why did you do that? That was what scared me the most. Well, that and when you tried to kiss me."

"I’m sorry." Raiden chuckled. "It started purely because I wanted to keep seeing you even when we weren’t in school but then, the older I got, the darker my thoughts became and I wanted more than just to look at you. I started to want to hold you, to kiss you, to touch you in places you’ve never been touched. I started to imagine what you would look like naked, underneath me in my bed. How you would taste when I sucked you off. The kinds of sounds you would make when I’m inside you." He brushed some strands of Hiro’s hair away from his face, staring right into his beautiful eyes. "The kinds of faces you’ll make when I fuck you."

Hiro shivered, his heart racing as Raiden spoke, each word laced with the weight of past emotions. Raiden’s eyes grew darker with every sentence, the intensity of his gaze reflecting the pain and longing he once endured, as if he was reliving those memories all over again.

"I imagined it all Hiro." He murmured, shifting closer. "You gave me sleepless nights. At first, just thinking about you was enough to drive me over the edge. I could cum countless times when I pictured myself inside you but as time went by, the imaginations didn’t satisfy me anymore so I took pictures of you and I also took some of your things. Things that smelled like you. I was wrong to do so. I’m aware of that but I considered you mine so I did it anyway. I would stare at your picture or hug your jacket and jerk off, imagining you calling out my name as I take you over and over again. Just as you do now."

Hiro was already as red as a tomato as he listened to Raiden speak, but when Raiden added the last sentence, it looked like he might start bleeding from sheer embarrassment. He knew better than anyone how he shouts Raiden’s name when they were having sex.

So Raiden was already sexually active back then while he didn’t even know what sexual pleasure was. He then wondered, if he had accepted Raiden’s feelings, would they have been having sex? Did everyone have sex back in high-school?

Raiden suddenly groaned. "All this talk about fucking you is making me hard again."

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