365 Days To Love-Chapter 189 - ONE HUNDRED AND EIGHTY-NINE:He Wouldn’t Be The Worst Dad And Husband Of The Year.
He’s a failure.
He failed as a man,a father and as a husband.
Looking right at the mirror was a man who was nothing, but a carnal human being who’s lost everything that meant alot to him.
All because of the useless ego,and his inability to trust the love he had ,but that’s until he questioned it and now he had nothing.
Neither the love or the people who he thought were not going to leave,he has lost everything!
Antonio couldn’t sleep a wink tonight,not that he expected himself to be comfortable with his sleep, not after what just happened.
The insomnia was on another level,that he knew not even taking the sleeping pills,that wouldn’t be able to soothe the pain in his heart right now if he slept.
He needs the pain to still feel that he’s alive,but rather he feels nothing, because he’s been preparing for this day for a long time.
The day when everything he’s worked hard for,to try and find the remaining missing household of his to come together so that he would pour out his heart directly and ask for their forgiveness.
But none of that was accomplished, because of his inability to keep his emotions at check after finding out who, and where his wife was staying.
He’s come to realize that he’s made the biggest mistake that is causing all these,and heaven is only his witness that Ethan was not going to forgive him ever.
How could he?
He’s grown used to the fact that his mother was to be blamed for everything,which had been his fault because he was driven by anger,not at Isabella but at himself .
Ezekeil was right ,he should have been honest right from the very beginning to his son,maybe,right now things wouldn’t have been worse as it is right now.
He would be angry at him,but his anger won’t last a lifetime seeing that he’s looking for his mother to fix everything back the way it is.
But just like they said,not everything can be fixed back to the way it is initially.
Ethan is never going to call him dad,and eventually if he finds his mother,it’s definitely over for him because he won’t think twice to put in any good word for him.
He wouldn’t do that,he knew Ethan to the core to know that he can be very heartless when he wants to be,he would forget he ever existed.
He’s not going to let that happen,not ever!
The mere thoughts of Isabella being with that man, was enough reason for him to go out of his league to do what he has never done before.
He wouldn’t care what the citizens would think of him when the news is out,what matters right now is being able to get his family back or he ends up being a loser and eventually dies a lonely man.
He hadn’t felt more insecure like this,not after finding out the location of where she was staying.
Legally,she’s still his wife. They didn’t sign any divorce papers, because she left the house the day after the argument and disappeared right into thin air after giving birth.
He didn’t mean what he said,he had gone out that day insearch of her when he came back to find out that she had already left the house,he searched everywhere for her.
But all of this won’t make any sense or sound believable to Isabella if she hears it, because she had set her mind up that what he has towards her was nothing but hate toward her.
Isabella is a kind and lovely soul,who wouldn’t hurt anybody and always loved peace,she wouldn’t retaliate towards any one that makes her feel uneasy.
That’s who she was,his woman was an angel,even after finding out that his sister had been making life miserable for her for a while after their marriage, but yet,she didn’t give any complaint.
Not for once,because she valued the peace more than anything,and telling him about his sister was going to do nothing to improve the unity in the family, because he’s sure that his sister was going to bear his wrath for treating her that way.
But that’s years ago.
He isn’t so sure about now,he’s too curious that he’s holding himself from walking in the house of the man who’s keeping her away from him.
He yearned to see his angel.He yearned to see how much she had changed,he wanted to know if she had aged just like him, or was she still the ever so young angel that she always has been.
But what he knew from the way she kept a low profile to ward him off,he know that something is wrong somewhere.
She isn’t the same woman he married,she’s changed and maybe,just maybe she was thinking of hurting him for what he did to her.
He couldn’t see past the fact that this was what she wanted to do to him, that’s why she didn’t come to find him the very moment she stepped into the country.
Rather,she’s now living as the wife of his business associate and the newest investor in his company.
Was this not karma?
Yet,he couldn’t help but wonder why there weren’t any pictures of her on the Internet as the new wife of James Brown.
Rather,the fucker had an interview about the reason why her identity was kept a secret,with silly reasons that was known to her.
That’s absolute bullshit!
The only reason why she didn’t want him to make it officially known to the world,was because she hadn’t forgotten about him.
He was in no room to rejoice about it yet, because she had made no move to make his assumption about all these right.
Yet,he couldn’t help but feel good at the aspect of this,this was like giving him leverage to take back what belongs to him which was staying in Jame’s Property.
It was just mere friendship between the both of them,nothing else!
He made his conclusion,and decided to stick to that until tomorrow morning which had a lot of surprises waiting for him.
He wouldn’t lie or try to doubt that he wasn’t looking forward to tomorrow, because this was just the start of him waking up from his dream to get what he carelessly lost.
The only thing he prays for,that it was not too late to do that,that’s what he tried keeping his mind on.
The positivity.
The negative aspects of all these isn’t going to help with the situation right now, and he didn’t want to have his blood pressure rise just at the thoughts of what tomorrow has in store for him.
He needs to keep his head clear, to have a reasonable sense of understanding for tomorrow’s event,he wouldn’t like to make things more complicated than it already was if he wasn’t in his right state of mind.
He had to see Isabella tomorrow.
That’s a must.
An exasperated sigh left his lips for like the tenth time right now ,after his calls went to voicemail,Ethan wasn’t picking his call likewise his personal assistant, Tyson.
He’s worried sick about him,it’s late in the night and his men had reported back to him that he was not in his villa, which was likely the place that he was supposed to be staying.
That’s his favourite spot anytime he needed space away from work stress and all that , but right now,he was doing a good job at avoiding him too,just like Isabella.
Both mother and son were against him,but what about the daughter?
That’s likely a question that needed an answer, because amidst all the commotion that’s been going on recently.
He hasn’t gotten any hint of information from his men, who were watching Isabella about seeing both mother and daughter,not even for once.
He had concluded that she had kept her daughter away from all these,which was not any good idea because whether she likes it or not.
He’s the father of his little fairy,and deserves the right to know the whereabouts of his child.
She can’t take that away from him,and also he’s not thinking of pushing things further like going to the court to get the issues solved between the both of them concerning their children.
No.
He’s not going to do that.
He loves Isabella, and going to court was like trying to legalize the fact that he’s trying to steal her children away from her,which was not what he wanted her to think of.
He wants her back in the most peaceful way ever, and not through violence,but if that’s going to be the way to get her back from James Brown using their kids.
Game on.
This time,he’s not afraid of the consequences of Ethan finding out the truth,it’s officially out that he’s the worst excuse of a man who didn’t fight for what he loves.
This time,he would right his wrong doings,he wouldn’t be the worst dad and husband of the year.
Definitely!
