Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl)-Chapter 95: Rage, despair, break.

Jaehyun’s POV

I push off the floor seeing red.

They can’t take him from me again.

I roar once more and begin to run after my guns in hands. I will end Choi Sanwoo now, I will pay later.

’Kill him!’ my alpha roars, my blood hot and pumping with unfiltered rut rage.

I pull the triggers, aiming and shooting repeatedly and blindly at the moving car until my guns are emptied of bullets, even then I don’t stop.

I keep pressing down on the trigger.

"I need to...I need to..." I say to myself, not sure what I need, I just know I need to do something.

I return to the spot I had been kneeling at and all the rage seeps out of me within seconds and I fall to my knees again.

My fingers loosen from the guns and they fall to the floor.

Heat and cold at the same time.

Breaking and raging at the same time.

I remain here on my knees, staying still on the melting snow under the hot sun.

Around me are the dead bodies of the men whose lives I ended.

On my face is the drying blood from my opponents and the tears that fell from Yujun’s eyes. I have never seen him cry before.

’He didn’t choose us’ my alpha says.

"He didn’t choose us" I repeat to myself.

I don’t know how long I stay like this, but I don’t move till voices of my clan members reach me and pull me out of the hole I’m sinking in.

"Young Lord" a familiar voice calls and he grabs me by the arms to pull me up.

"Are you okay?" he asks but I hear and see nothing.

My omega has been snatched from me...no, my omega has walked away from me.

He had chosen to leave me when he knew I would do anything for him.

"My son!" my mother’s voice snaps me out of my haze, and I look up at him.

His eyes are blue and his chest heaving with sweat beading at his forehead, he must have run all the way here.

"Mother" I say and he engulfs me in a hug.

"My pup, what happened?" he asks, searching my face.

"Who did this?" he growls.

"Yujun...is gone" I say, "gone?" mom repeats.

"Choi Sanwoo" I say and mom nods, "we will get him back" mom says and I shake my head. "He chose to" I say.

"We will get him back" mom repeats, his voice firm and confident when he says it.

My alpha whines and bows to the Luna’s declaration.

I want to believe...I want to believe.

Yujun’s POV

The sound of bullets hitting the car finally stops but my heart doesn’t stop pounding.

He’s going into rut; he would hurt himself if he’s not careful.

I want to open the door and run out but I already made my choice.

This space is suffocating me.

I can’t breathe; everything is tight and heavy.

Too much.

My hands won’t stop shaking as I sit next to my father and the sobs won’t stop coming.

My heart hurt and there’s nothing I can do about it, I ripped it out myself and threw it to the floor.

My omega is wailing and clawing for freedom inside me but I shut it down.

’Please’ I am already breaking.

I can’t take two beings heart break.

"How long has this been going on?" father asks and I shake my head.

"You bastard, you...you punk! I would have had your head on a stick if you haven’t been so useful" he says and grabs my hair.

I press my lips together as the pain in scalp spreads through my body.

"Weak! Pathetic" he spits in my face, and I dare not make a sound, I can only accept it...I have been nothing but pathetic and weak.

"I have always known you were going to bring nothing but shame to my clan" he says and a sob escapes my lips.

I am a disaster.

A mistake.

A curse.

’You are divine’ Yeon’s voice says and another sob follows. 𝑓𝘳𝑒𝑒𝓌𝘦𝘣𝘯ℴ𝑣𝘦𝑙.𝘤𝑜𝑚

"My own son has been rolling around in the enemy’s bed?" father asks with his voice raised and I immediately bow my head when he releases my hair.

It hurts. Everything hurts.

"And now you...cry?" he asks with disgust.

"Am I that bad?" I ask and he stops talking, "I just...I just want to be loved" I sob.

"I just, I just, I just" father mocks and lands a slap on my face.

The force of the slap throws me to the chair, why does everything feel twice as amplified?

"Get your act together Choi Yujun, if I do it for you...you will not like the outcome" he says and I sit up as best as I can.

Father brings out his phone and dials a number I don’t see.

"These children are useless" he says into the phone, "I want an instant meeting, bring in Lee Sehwa, she is one of us now".

He looks at me with disgust in his eyes.

"The Hwang clan has done too much, prepare a meeting two days from now" he says and ends the call.

"Father" I call, needing to plead for the family that isn’t mine but I have come to love.

"Choi Yujun, in two days’ time" he says and I freeze, already afraid of what he will say next.

"In two days’ time you will prove your loyalty to this clan" he says and my body goes weak.

"If you show me you no longer belong with us, the family that made you...it would be disappointing, do you understand me?" he says gruffly and I bow my head tiredly.

I want to cry more but no crying would save me.

No crying can save me from the ultimatum waiting for me because my choice remains the same.

Alphas don’t cry.

Alphas don’t betray family.

Alphas don’t...

But I am not an alpha...no matter how hard I try, I am still am omega.

Two days’ time.