Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl)-Chapter 84: Mom, it hurts

CW: heavy Chapter, death of character, graphic description

Jaehyun’s POV

"Calm yourself" Jisung hyung’s voice pulls me back to earth.

Yujun is walking away from me, Again, what do I have to do to keep him with me?

"He is the one, isn’t he?" Jisung hyung asks and I nod, "this is dangerous" he mutters under his breath.

"You are really your parents’ son, reckless idiots" he chuckles affectionately and shakes his head slowly.

He keeps his focus on the road and I see him patting his pocket with this left hand, craving a smoke.

"Hyung" I call and he responds with a hum, "I have a mole" I say and he meets my eyes in the mirror, his eyes are serious as he looks at me.

"You know who it is" he says and I lean back into the seat.

This is difficult to bite, too difficult to chew.

Yoon Sehwa is out of the way, now I have to deal with another?

I won’t take it lightly with this mole; taking from me is one thing, touching the omegas I love is another.

’Blood?’ my alpha asks and I sigh.

’Yes, blood’ I respond and a howl follows.

Victorious, hungry and territorial.

We arrive at Hwangyeon as I step out to wait for my parents’ car’s arrival with my hands in my pocket.

A single flake of snow lands on my nose and I look up to see; it is the first of many that are to follow.

The opening for the others to pass through.

An elder comes out of the home and sees me, I turn my head to him and give him a slow calculated smile.

He bows to me, flustered by the look on my face.

My parents drive in and step out of the car with Yunah clinging to mom.

"Son" mom says without smiling at me, "mom" I respond and he nods his head.

His message loud and clear.

My father looks furious with his arms around his husband and his husband’s arms round the shivering young girl.

"Come here" father says and I go over to him.

"Don’t miss" he says and hands me his personally crafted gun, I look at the gun silently, turning it left and right as I examine it.

"Yes father" I say after a few seconds, satisfied with the beauty in my grip, and he nods.

"Let’s go" he says and guides my mother and Yunah into the home.

Father doesn’t care she’s the offspring of an enemy, he cares that she is a child, an omega in danger and that’s what matters before clan wars.

’You are a person before you are a clan member’ mom has always said.

The weather is getting colder and Jisung hyung is still by my side, leaning against the car with a roll of cigar between his lips and his hands in his pocket.

My vision is starting to go black around the edges and I don’t stop myself.

I feel my rage shimmer down into an unexplainable calmness.

The calmness that comes with the promise of something good...something worth it.

The promise of blood.

I press the heel of my foot onto the floor and look up again; the snow is getting thicker.

My canvas is being prepared.

"This is interesting" Jisung hyung says and releases a puff of smoke into the air with his head thrown back.

I run my tongue over my teeth and put into it for that metallic taste.

I need it, to smell it, to taste it...to see it.

"Brother" Taeho rushes in through the gate with his hand over the limp one and I look at his with my head tilted, eyeing him and curious.

Brother.

The words I used hours before.

"Is everything okay? Why are you out here?" he asks as he comes closer and I cock the gun in my hand.

"Where were you?" I ask coldly.

"I needed to get my arm checked" he says with a confused look on his face.

"I needed my brother" I say and he takes a step forward.

"I’m here now brother, is the Luna okay?" he asks and I burst into laughter.

Behind me, JIsung hyung chuckles slightly and takes another drag of his cigar.

The laughter is cold and brutal.

"Really, you really don’t take anything seriously, the Luna was kidnapped and you’re..." his statement dies with the gun pressing into his head while I keep laughing.’’

I smell it slightly, breaking past the scent patch.

"B-brother?" Taeho asks.

"Was it fun fucking with me for years?" I ask him, my laughter dead and my tone bitter.

It hurts.

My alpha growls protectively for me.

My human side bleeds to see this while my alpha side pushes to tear him apart.

To dig my teeth into his flesh till I hear bones crack and I hear blood gushing like a running faucet.

Why?

"What are you talking about?" Taeho asks, his confused expression morphs into anger.

The anger I have justified all my life as his love for me, his brother, has been thinly masked hatred all along.

"You could have done anything else but touching my mother" I say and his anger deepens, "and you blame me for your mother’s weakness?" he asks and before I can react.

Jisung hyung lands a punch on his face, hard enough that a tooth falls loose with some blood to the snow-covered floor.

"You don’t speak of my Luna with disrespect" Jisung hyung says and shakes his hand to take off the blood.

"Fuck!" Taeho screams in pain and covers his mouth, his eyes red as his alpha challenges Jisung hyung.

"Kneel" I command in my alpha voice and he whimpers before he falls to his knees.

Helpless under the command of the head alpha.

"What do you think you are!" he bellows like a mad man and I tilt my head, giving him the chance to express himself...on his knees before his superior. Me. Hwang Jaehyun.

"I should have done it long ago, Sehwa is so slow and stupid" he says, his eyes wide and crazed.

Drops of spittle and blood drips from his mouth as he shouts.

"Ahh, you and Sehwa" I say walking around him in circle.

Evaluating my talking target doll.

Front or back?

Side?

Left or right?

I look at my canvas, the floor, the snow is looking pretty.

Good, people will see my mark for days.

"Father was treated unfairly" he says and I pause, what?

"Lord Hwang doesn’t deserve the throne! My father does! Lee Donghyun does" he shouts and spits to the floor.

Lee Donghyun?

"Fucking hell, I should have know you were the son of that scumbag" Jisung says.

Taeho’s shouting had alerted a number of people, and my parents stand at the balcony watching us.

"My father served this clan faithfully till that man showed up" he says and points to my mother.

Furious at the blatant disrespect, I hit him on the face with the handle of the gun in my hand and he falls over screaming in pain.

Everyone knows of Lee Donghyun, how he wanted my mother to be a clan tool...how he attempted to force my mother.

He was a high ranking member, one with a special office like my grandfather, he had everything a man of honor should have in Hwangyeon and yet...

"You Bastard!’ I hit him again and again.

"I saw you, I didn’t know you were a bastard, I saved you from death and this how you repay me?" I ask and grab him by the collar to pull him up.

’Not enough! Not enough!" my alpha roars.

"Your family threw my father out because of some omega" he shouts, some of his spit lands on my face and I growl.

"Bastard, this had nothing to do with you and I we weren’t born then" I say and squeeze his neck, watching him turn purple.

"The throne is mine! It’s mine" he says and I push him backwards.

This is who I had trusted my life to for years?

"Jeon Taeho" I call his name.

"Lee Taeho" he screams at me, and I take a deep breath.

’Not enough’

The taste of blood in my mouth, the sight of blood on his face and the smell of blood around me, still it’s not enough.

"You are just like your father, that filthy omega was made just for-"

Bang.

A bullet to the head.

His eyes look at me wide with surprise as life drains from them and then he falls forward face first into the snow.

The entire Hwangyeon stays silent as the mad dog prince puts a bullet through his ’brother’s’ head with no life in his eyes.

I adored him.

’Enough’ my alpha says and I lower my arm slowly.

Jisung hyung bows his head as I turn around to acknowledge everyone surrounding us.

"I AM HWANG JAEHYUN, son of Lord Hwang and Luna Yeon. If anyone crosses the line, I will remind them that" I roar in under the snow.

My eyes blurring with tear and my lungs burning from the cold.

Taeho and I used to love the snow.

It hurts.

Everyone bows their head but father says nothing as he returns into the home.

Mother stands there waiting for me with sad eyes.

I drop the gun in the red snow, my white shoes are stained, and I walk over to my mom, my heart tight and bleeding.

"Mom, it hurts" I say.

"I know, come here pup" he says and opens his arms to hold me.

Shielding me as I break and sob, crushed under the weight of the pain.

Can I really go on? Can I?