Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl)-Chapter 108: I see you, I chose you

Jaehyun’s POV

Few hours earlier/ D-Day of the salvation early hours.

I huff as I stumble out of the rut room.

My dark hair is damp with sweat and falling into my eyes.

The cool air of the hallway hits my bare chest and it feels good to finally have fresh air.

I had been too hot and sweaty in that room and beads of it still runs down my face.

Irritated and tiredly, I drag my fingers down my face, feeling stubbles along the way.

I need to shave.

I look back at the room I just left and growl lowly. That place, I hate being there, I especially hate it when I come to my senses and I’m still there.

The room was specially built to keep in a rutting alpha, to make sure nothing gets out and puts the clan in danger.

The room isn’t what anyone would expect it to look like after an intense rut, instead of cum and the heavy smell of pleasure, the room is thrashed.

It is turned upside down with obvious signs of rage.

There are claw marks on the wall and bite marks on my own skin.

My alpha was fighting me.

I made the decision to stay off Yujun and my alpha won’t have it, crawling at me and fighting against my choice.

Stupid idiot.

The marks on my skin won’t be going away any time soon and I’m sure of that.

I can’t remember cumming even once but I remember punching the wall till my knuckles are bloodied.

This rut felt different from the many others I’ve had, I didn’t lose control completely or black out.

I instead stood by and watched my alpha satisfy himself by protesting and raging, it’s funny, it’s painful, but it’s best.

I slam the door shut to rid myself of the smell from there and prepare for an examination.

After ruts, the alpha will be examined to ensure his body is in a good state, it’s pack tradition.

Today, it’s the pack doctor is the one waiting for me when I step out.

"Where’s my mother?" I ask in a gruff voice and he shrugs.

"He’s busy, I’m sure he expects his son to know that he also has pack duties and a hospital to run" the old man says.

His sass gets worse with his age but he’s a loved man. He helped my mom to deliver me.

"How was your rut?" He asks me and I shrug the same way he shrugged at me with a smile on my face.

"Never serious, truly Yeon’s son" he mutters, "my rut went differently but well" I give him an answer.

"I need to keep you under watch...your rut shouldn’t go this way since you are not mated" he says.

Mate.

’Shut up’ I warn my alpha before he can say anything else.

"I feel fine" I lie as if my body doesn’t say otherwise, and instead of calling my bluff, he eyes my scratched naked chest and bitten forearm.

"I can tell..." he says while his eyes lingering on the torn bandage on my arm.

Oh. I forgot about it.

One of those Choi bastards shot me before I went into rut completely.

I’ll target them right there from now on.

"You should be healed by next tomorrow but still take care of yourself" the doctor says and leaves me standing.

I chuckle under my breath and leave the isolated area, on the way I see a member of the clan as I go to my own room.

"Updates on the Chois?" I ask.

"Yes, there’s a celebration today. the son who has been exposed as an omega is getting married to the Kangs" the man says and my alpha growls at the thought of someone else having our...his omega.

"Get the car ready, we are going to attend" I say the man bows.

I get into my room and to the wardrobe.

A black suit stares at me and I pick it out, this would be perfect to attend the formal event.

I know I probably shouldn’t go.

’You should’ my alpha says and I place it on the bed, maybe I can...one last time bring my omega back to me.

Moving with precision, I shave and wash off the four days of sweat, blood and anger from my body

I have to look social if I’m attending a social gathering.

Using my handy comb and a half used container of gel, I style my hair and then put my gun into my suit.

This is the proper way to dress formally as a mafia clan member. Anything can happen.

After a few minutes, I am ready to go, ready to see Yujun and to give it a try again...or not.

The event is glamorously prepared with gold designed everywhere.

I stand at a corner with my men and spot Yujun.

The sight of the omega makes my heart stop.

He is beautiful.

’More beautiful than ever’ my alpha says and I silently agree.

I can’t take my eyes off him, not with how he glows like he’s carrying something new inside him.

Maybe...choosing his family has done him good.

Maybe...betraying me has done him good.

I did ask him to use me like a drug and he looks more healed than I have ever seen him.

He isn’t smiling but he looks at peace with himself and looks more regal than ever.

My Yujun.

His eyes meets mine and I see a flicker of something I have never seen before.

I can’t do this. This is a fucking stupid idea.

I’d rather be reckless with my life than with his.

I turn to leave for the bathroom, seeing red as I enter the stall, my alpha is about to rage again.

I put my hands against the wall and press my head against it, breathing in and breathing out.

’Forgot it. Give him up. He’s no longer yours to keep’ I say to myself.

My alpha whines and whimpers but submits to my request.

I open the door and find Yujun there. His hands are behind his back and he has a look on his face...like he pities me.

"Jaehyun..." he calls my name and I look at him, I want to speak but I don’t.

I’m letting go.

"J-" this goodbye.

I brush past him and go out to the back of the building for air.

I lean against the wall and sigh heavily before bringing out my lighter, I look up at the sky and put it on.

The feeble flame dances for a few seconds before I put it out.

I should go back in and get my men before I lose my mind.

I watch Yujun get ushered in by a guard.

His fucking hand on Yujun looks too tight.

’They don’t belong on him’ my alpha growls and I look up at Yujun, his eyes are on me and he’s smiling at whatever his father is saying.

He’s happy isn’t he?

"Time to go" I say to my bodyguards and together we leave the hallway.

Fuck.

It feels like something is tugging me back to him but I won’t go back.

Unless he wants me. I won’t do it.

He used me and I’m satisfied with it.