Trapped In A Novel As The Breeding Mate For Four Powerful Alphas-Chapter 407: Don’t pressure Jo-Pil

Suddenly, the door opened and light from outside the hallway seeped into the room, shadowing the man who stood at the door.

Seo-Jun.

(You won’t believe it if I told you I wrote Sung-min at this part, (⁠〒⁠﹏⁠〒⁠)

"I heard it all." He said and began to walk in. "I didn’t know you’d make such a request, Jo-Pil. You’re bolder than I thought."

I looked at him.

He didn’t look like he was angry but... There was this distinct feature in his face that I could not put into words.

Maybe it was because it was kinda dark.

"Does it bother you?" I asked him. "I already planned to tell everyone else of my decision, so it’s not a bad thing that you overheard, but... Why were you eavesdropping?"

Seo-Jun tilted his head, darting his eyes away and then back at me, as if searching for the answer to the question I had asked him.

"I was worried?" He shrugged. "Though you fell asleep, I didn’t know if you would begin to sleepwalk again, even with Ki-hoon by your side, so I was behind the monitors and watching the entire thing."

My gaze swept past him and to the security camera hung up on the wall.

And then the one at the corner of my bed that allowed a microphone.

Well, he has a good reason so there’s no need to be mad.

"I’m thankful you were worried about me," I said and then reasked my question. "So, does it bother you that I decided to ask Ki-hoon Hyung to go first?"

"Does it matter?" Seo-Jun asked. "I mean, we all care about you and would like to help you with your heat, but who you want to spend it with is your sole decision. You could even decide not to do it with anyone else aside from Ki-hoon, it’s your decision."

"What are you talking about? I won’t ask for such a thing." I said. It would be too unfair for them if I said I wanted to do it with just one of them because I was scared of being overwhelmed.

They all showered me with their love, care, and genuinely wanted to mate with me and make me their Omega. I won’t throw away the truth they have for me just like that.

"I don’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings by being extremely partial," I said, and then a blush ripened my face. "A-and... I want all of you to hold me too. I desire you as much as you desire me."

My words made Seo-Jun pause for a second and then he blushed. Yes, that’s right. He blushed.

But he didn’t want me to stare so he threw his face aside, brushing the back of his neck awkwardly.

"Dammit!" He cussed under his breath. "You sure know how to tug at our heartstrings, Jo-Pil."

I smiled.

"Know that you’re important to me, Seo-Jun."

"Then," Seo-Jun dropped his hand, looking at me.

He started stepping closer till he dropped his hand on the bed and pushed his face into mine, staring into my eyes to catch a moment of hesitation or lie.

"...do you love us?" He asked and my eyes gradually widened. "I noticed you didn’t respond to Ki-hoon’s feelings the same way. You did not throw back his words but that doesn’t mean you don’t feel the same, right? Did you not tell him you love him because you feel it’ll tilt the balance you’ve been maintaining all this time?"

"Don’t pressure Jo-Pil." Ki-hoon guarded defensively.

"I’m not. I just want to hear his answer." Seo-Jun said. "If it’s just as I said then you have no idea how happy I’ll become because I..." His gaze lowered to the bed as he confessed. "I never thought I’d be someone worthy of anyone’s love in my life. And I still think that’s true but..." He raised his gaze again and grinned at me. "Jo-Pil treats me so differently that I think maybe there’s a possibility. Maybe..." He gripped the sheets. "Maybe even someone like me can be loved."

My heart was thumping.

What do I do?

What do I say?

It wasn’t just Seo-Jun’s question about me loving everyone that got my heart thumping heavily.

It was his other words. They left a pang in my heart. The way he feels he’s not deserving of love because of the kind of person he grew up to be.

"Everyone..." I muttered. "Everyone deserves to be loved."

"Including me?"

I nodded.

If I say Seo-Jun is a kind soul, I’ll probably be mistaken for having lost my mind but... Deep down I could feel it.

Because of the dark exterior he used to coat his heart, almost every part of his heart had turned black.

He was almost successful in making himself a villain. Only, he couldn’t coat that lonely child buried in his heart and I see that child.

"Don’t rush me, Seo-Jun," I said to him.

Even if I did love him, I confessing now would be...

"As you said," I took his hand and pressed it on my cheek. "...confessing would tilt the scale so..." I smiled brightly at him. "It’s a secret."

Seeing this, Seo-Jun laughed.

"Alright, alright. I’ll let you have your secret, Jo-Pil." He said and then glanced at Ki-hoon. "At least with this, I know you’re not being biased."

"I am not being biased!" I repeated his words.

"I know, I know. That’s what I just said." He said.

He was trying to mess with me even now, eh. I guess that’s what makes him Seo-Jun.

"I already know how much you care for me so it doesn’t make a difference if you confess to it now or never."

"Well," my face was a bit red but I managed to ask a question that cropped up from his words. "You said you believed you were someone who isn’t worthy of love but does that mean you also believed you weren’t someone capable of loving someone?"

My question made Seo-Jun pause and then he let out a sad laugh.

"Thankfully, that’s not the case." He said. "But I’m starting to believe those are just words, and mean nothing if actions don’t accompany them. Or does it mean something to you?" He pushed his body closer, his forehead pressing down on mine. "Do you want me to say it, Jo-Pil? Want a confession from me?"

After those words, silence followed.

While everywhere was silent, I could feel my heart racing and drumming in my ears.

He was so close that it caught my breath, having that wild look in his eyes and his lips spread in a sinister grin while talking about things of confession.

I opened my mouth and the words that came out weren’t something he had expected in the slightest.

"I... I told you." I said. "If you want to make a confession, then go to a church. I’m not a priest."

The words stunned him for a bit but then he laughed.

I could also feel Ki-hoon trying not to laugh behind me.

Good, I had broken the tension.

"Yes, yes you did say something like that." He said but that didn’t make him move away. Instead, he got even more savage with his words. "But I’ll just assume you’re a priest and tell you anyway. No one else is worthy of hearing my confession anyway."

"You—"

Seo-Jun laughed.

He liked getting a reaction out of me.

He pulled away, still laughing, and then his laughter faded, leaving a bitter, melancholic expression on his face.

"You know it, Jo-Pil." He turned his head to me. "You know what I feel more than anyone else."

"Yes," I said, brushing my palm over my cheek, trying to hide my blush.

He was handsome, even when being melancholic.

"Then, I’ll get out of here now," Seo-Jun said and stood up. "If I stay any longer, I might want to drag Ki-hoon into my jokes and he isn’t a fan of jokes, you see."

"For the kind of jokes you make, I don’t think there’s anyone who could take them," Ki-hoon said.

"What do you mean? Jo-Pil likes my jokes." He claimed but I immediately denied it with a blank face.

"No, I don’t," I said.

"Aw, come on. That hurts. I think my heart is bleeding."

"Get a bandaid, it’ll heal," I said and he laughed.

"See? He even plays along." Seo-Jun claimed and I grunted.

Was that really me playing along?

I guess if I respond to his jokes in kind then that means I’m playing along. Then am I supposed to just stay silent as if I never heard it?

"What are you thinking so intently about?" Ki-hoon asked.

"Oh, it’s just nothing," I said. "Maybe I’m just hungry."

His face immediately lit up as I said that.

"You finally have an appetite. Come," he stood up and then lifted me from the bed. "I’ll carry you."

"My legs are fine, though," I said but he did not agree with it.

"No, their not fine." He simply said and then carried me out of the room.

The entire mansion, aside from my room, was so brightly lit that the moment we got out of the room, I had to squint my eyes before my eyes could adjust to the light.

Was Ki-hoon okay?

He wasn’t even stopping as if the change didn’t affect him at all.

"Are you okay?"

"Why wouldn’t I be?" He asked, looking down at me and I saw that there was nothing wrong with his vision.

I quickly turned my head away. I should probably worry about myself more.

Unlike them, I don’t have that Alpha armour on, welp.