Trapped In A Novel As The Breeding Mate For Four Powerful Alphas-Chapter 404: How does braised pork sound?

I fluttered my lashes open and a familiar voice asked,

"Are you awake?"

His hands gently stroked my hair in a soothing way, as if trying to take away all of my worries.

"Yeah," I answered softly but closed my eyes again. It was Ki-hoon.

"Then, would you like to eat now?" He asked and I opened my eyes again, gently and slowly, as if reluctant to wake up and face reality.

Just about a few hours back, Min-Cheol left for the hospital with Cha Hyun-woo. I wanted to go with them. I felt guilty, sad, and pained for what Min-Cheol would have to go through, but Min-Cheol smiled at me, telling me not to go.

He said it’d only make him feel embarrassed.

But he promised to come back soon and then I could take care of him as much as I wanted. He said,

"Don’t worry, Hyung. I’ll be back soon." He chuckled. "And then when I’m back, you can shower me with your attention and affection. But remember, you’re also not doing well, so you have to rest in the meantime. Hm?"

He looked me in the eyes, soft and gentle, confident that he could go through this like it was a piece of cake, and then smiled.

When he said it like that, how could I not agree?

I decided to stay back.

I hadn’t had dinner yet.

Ki-hoon and Seo-Jun tried to make me have dinner but for the first time, I lost my appetite.

I felt it would be too shameless of me to eat happily after everything that had happened.

I know it’s not good to neglect one’s health and skip meals, but... I just couldn’t push myself.

The thought of swallowing made me gag and I wouldn’t be able to stomach anything.

You know I don’t play with my food. Meals are the best and are very important... In my definition.

So, when I said I couldn’t eat, it alarmed my masters. Thankfully, Min-Cheol was already gone by then.

If not, he’d have stayed, trying to convince me to eat and I’d only make a mess.

I felt I would throw up.

Though Ki-hoon and Seo-Jun tried to convince me to have a bite of something. They asked what I felt like eating. What side dishes I wanted but I didn’t want anything... I just... Wanted to close my eyes and fall asleep.

"How does braised pork sound?" Ki-hoon asked with a soft tone, still brushing my hair gently and softly. "You used to love it a lot."

Hm, yeah. I do love braised pork. And it’s been a while since we had anything pork-related... Probably because I don’t handle the kitchen menu... So maybe that’ll be fine.

And since I’ve slept a bit, I feel better and can probably stomach something.

"Or would you like pork rib soup?"

Okay, now his words were making me salivate.

I raised my body, but then winced, feeling a stinging pain in both my elbows. It was so clear now and it felt itchy. Was it because it had already begun to heal?

I wanted to scratch it. But I didn’t. I let it be and faced Ki-hoon.

The place was dark, no... Dim. The lights weren’t completely off and were dim so I could see a full view of Ki-hoon’s face.

He stared at me softly. His eyes held such warmth that even in that dim room where I couldn’t see clearly, I could feel the warmth and his intentions towards me.

"I’m awake," I said. "And I think I can eat now."

What was the time anyway? Why was he still awake? Wasn’t he exhausted from having worked so hard all day?

I was taking up his sweet resting time.

I reached my hand towards his face and softly grazed my fingers over the line of his chin and then his jaw.

I caressed his face softly, feeling his warmth seep into my palms and then he leaned further into my palm, as if wishing he could just melt with my touch. All the while, his eyes stayed on me.

Sharp dark eyes were speaking to me about how much he cared for me. How much he needed me. How much... He wanted me.

I gulped.

Maybe I was reading too much meaning into it. Yeah, I tend to overanalyze.

And in this room where it was just the two of us, such thoughts are bound to tempt my rationality.

I patted my lips, gulped down the saliva in my mouth, and then opened my mouth to speak. But the moment I decided to speak, Ki-hoon held my hand and then leaned in to capture my lips so that words wouldn’t come forth.

I was taken aback. But it wasn’t like I didn’t expect this situation.

The atmosphere was just right, if you ask me.

He just needed to push himself to make a move. And once he makes the move, it’s a pretty much done deal.

The sound of our lips smacking together gently made me feel chills down my spine.

It was as if I was getting a wake-up call, but... How can he kiss me as soon as I wake up? Doesn’t he care about morning breath? I mean, it’s not morning yet but you know what I mean.

Ki-hoon slowly interlocked his fingers with mine, clenched tightly as if scared that I would pull away with this contact, and then moved his second hand to my body.

Through the thin fabric I was wearing, I could feel the hotness of his palm. He traced his hand slightly, the fabric folding with his gentle and simple movements, and then he tightened his hold when he touched my waist. It was as if he was comparing the size of my slimness to the wideness of his palm.

I didn’t have time to think of all this, obviously. I was more drawn and drowned in his lips and how he could make my eyes feel hazy with a small leak of his Pheromones.

Once Ki-hoon had gotten a taste, not that he was satisfied, he decided to pull away since this wasn’t the time for this.

But as he pulled away, a thought came to mind. It was an absolutely weird thought.

I think I have been tempted so much these days, and my heart, which just doesn’t want to come, made me so bold with desires I didn’t know I had up until it started manifesting.

’I want to have sex.’ Was the thought that surfaced in my mind.

A hunger for something canine... Something raw and animal.

I wanted to be devoured, be it by a stud or a beast. I just... Wanted a man to hold me.

This thought made me go crazy.

’Should I just forget my initial thought to hold it off till my heat?’ I wondered, panting heavily as Ki-hoon tore his sweet lips from mine. ’Should I just make him take me here and now? I... I want him inside me.’

The thoughts made me mad.

But as much as they drove me mad, I couldn’t say a word.

Why? Because a part of me was so self-disciplined that I had learned to keep my true intentions to myself, no matter how badly it ate at me.

Should I say it saved me at this point? Because it helped me clear my mind a bit.

Just because I want to eat cake and I happen to see a slice of cake in front of me, doesn’t mean I can just eat it.

But then, what if I eat it and then die because it was poisoned?

There’s no reason to make haste in things like this, I thought, breathing in and out to calm myself.

"Jo-Pil, what’s wrong?" Ki-hoon asked, seeing my usual heaving but I shook my head.

There was nothing wrong with me. I was just stuck in my own thoughts.

At the end of the day, ’save the best experience for last’ would be the most ideal thing to do.

So, I’ll save up my chance to have sex for later.

And right now...

I grabbed Ki-hoon’s arm and then said to him,

"Hyung," I called, subtly startling him. But I looked him in the eye with the boldness I had gathered and a lot of sincerity and said, "During my heat... When I can no longer think rationally and it feels like I’m not myself anymore... I’d like you to be..." I bowed my head, trembling as the thought of saying these words embarrassed me, the speaker. My face flushed.

It’s not a big deal. It really isn’t. I’ve said a lot more embarrassing things than this so why am I...?

"What are you asking?" Ki-hoon asked, seeing my hesitation.

I looked at him. He looked like he really didn’t know what I was about to say. If he did, he wouldn’t be as composed as this, you see.

This thing I was about to tell him... It could be considered cheating, and maybe I’d be accused of picking favorites, but I have my reasons.

I have a reason why it has to be him first.

"At that time," I continued and raised my head to look him in the eye, despite my flushed face. "I want you to put it in me first. You... You’re going to be the one to take my virginity."