To Be Yours Again-Chapter 276 Feel despicable
*RAPHAEL*
*Stop pretending to be a good person when there’s something clearly wrong with you. You keep avoiding sleeping with me like a fucking pussy! Well, let me tell you, I do not want to sleep with you anymore. You’re despicable just like the others and I don’t want the likes of you touching me.*
Those words tormented me and I couldn’t sleep.
Pretending to be someone I’m not truly made me feel despicable.
I truly hope Lorenzo was alive so he could get back his life.
But until now, there was still no news about him and I had to keep protecting his position in the family.
I just have to endure.
It would be over soon.
I would have my life back again.
I turned to face the wall.
On the other hand, I’ve come to understand Mona as someone who feels better when people around her are unhappy.
Will she ever allow herself get better mentally?
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*MONALISA*
I opened my eyes and saw Lorenzo sitting on the bed and staring at me.
Immediately, I sat up.
“What are you doing here?”
“I was watching you sleep.”
“That’s creepy.” I snapped.
“It’s not. I just love watching you sleep.” He placed his hand on my cheek.”You’re so beautiful, Mona.”
I found myself smiling.
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The sound of the door opening jerked me up from sleep.
I frowned.
I had been dreaming?
It felt so real.
But why was I smiling like a fool in my dream?
I looked up to see Lorenzo walking into the bedroom.
He was dressed in a navy suit.
“Oh sorry, did I wake you? I thought you would be awake already.”
“What do you want?”
“I thought you might not allow Flora and the others massage your foot so I....”
“What made you think I would let you?”
“Because even if you’re the most stubborn woman I know....I still want you to dance. It’s great to watch you dance.”
He walked closer to the bed and tugged the duvet aside.
“What...how can you just push off the duvet like that? What if I was naked beneath the sheet?” I asked, alarmed.
“Well, you’re not.” He replied, smiling.
How can he be smiling at me after what I said to him last night?
He sat on the bed and placed my feet on his lap.
“I have to go to work so be calm and let’s get through this.”
I sat there and watched him massaged my ankle, tenderly.
“All done.” He said.
What?
“So soon?”
“Yeah, do you still feel some discomfort?”
“Yes.” I replied almost immediately.
I love the feeling of his hand on my leg.
“I’m sorry about what I said yesterday.” I heard myself saying.
Why the fuck am I apologizing?
“It’s fine. Just don’t insult me again please.”
“I won’t.” I assured. “But why are you keeping quiet about what you heard yesterday? It’s annoying.”
He stared at me.”What did I hear?”
“Allegra came by my opera yesterday and she told me that she had informed you of what had happened to me seven years ago.”
“What?” He looked surprised.
“She said you were disgusted and annoyed that you were married to someone like me.”
“What is wrong with that woman?”
He dropped my foot and moved closer to me.
“I found out what happened to you before we left for our honeymoon. Yes, she had let out some information about it, but I had asked Dante to know the true story.”
“Why haven’t you been giving me that ‘whore’ look?”
He placed his hand on my cheek.
“You’re not a whore. You’re just someone who went through something painful. You’re just someone who’s angry at the world but what you need is peace, peace within yourself and acknowledging that you’re are a beautiful and strong woman.”
Despite myself, tears spilled from my eyes.
Curling his hands behind my neck, he hauled me close and melded his mouth to mine. As soon as our lips touched, everything seemed to fall into place. It was as if he was a pill I had taken and he had cured me.
The anger, the confusion...the pain...the fear.
It all quieted inside my head and was replaced by the way I felt against him.
I knew he was different...that he could make me different too.
That didn’t make any sense, and yet it did.
It really fucking did.
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*LORENZO*
Kissing Mona was refreshingly sweet.
She gasped into my mouth, her hands resting on my chest and I took advantage of the opening she had given me.
Slipping my tongue between her lips, I found hers and swept across it.
Her fingers fisted my shirt and she moaned.
It was the sexiest moan I had ever mother-fucking heard.
Deepening the kiss, I slid my hand down to the small of her back and drew her closer to me.
My whole hand splayed across her from end to end.
Hesitantly, her hands moved up, curling over my shoulders to latch onto me.
She tasted heavenly, she felt like it too.
The bizzare desire to lay her back on the bed and make love to her hit me like a fist to the gut.
I ended the kiss so I could resist that urge but she moaned in protest and strained to get closer.
“More.” She whispered.
I kissed her deeply again and my hands moved, sliding into her nightie, into her panties...
I shouldn’t be doing this but I couldn’t help it anymore.
When my fingers touched her pussy, she shrieked, moving backwards.
“I’m sorry.” I apologized, trying to catch my breath.
“I said I’m no longer interested in sleeping with you.” She reminded, her cheeks getting reddish.
“I was going to stop but then you wanted more...”
“So I was the only one who wanted more?”
“No, I mean I wanted it too but...”
“Why would you want it too?”
Now I’m confused.
What exactly does she want?
What does she want me to say?
“I...em...I’ve got to go to work.” I said standing up.
“But I haven’t had breakfast!” She grumbled.
“You can tell Flora to cook something up for you.”
“I don’t like her meal. You should prepare breakfast for me yourself.”
“You threw away the meal I made last night.” I reminded.
“That was...that was because I was angry.”
“It’s not nice to do that you know...apologize.”
“Seriously?”
“If you won’t, then I’m heading off to work.”
“Then go.” She snapped.
I headed for the door.
“LORENZO!” She screamed.
I laughed and turned around. “Iron lady, what now?”
“So...sorry.”
I crossed my arms over my chest. “I suppose I could forgive you for last night.”
“Now go get breakfast ready for me.”
“I don’t take orders...only polite requests.”
She huffed.
I raised my brow at her.
“Please prepare breakfast for me.”
“That’s more like it. I’ll be right back.”
I walked out of her room smiling.
I stared at the finger that had touched her pussy.
It was as if I shouldn’t wash my hands.
I slowly brought it up to my nose.
Fuck!
My trousers grew tight, I looked down and saw that I was hard.
No.
Don’t forget who she is, Raphael.
You can’t get hard for her.
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I was running late for a meeting by the time I finished preparing breakfast for her.
I walked into her bedroom and dished out the meal while she sat there like a queen.
She slowly picked up the cutlery.
“No thank you?” I asked but she ignored me.
I sighed,choosing to let that slide.
“See you later.”
“You’re leaving for work already?”
“Yeah....do you want me to stay home with you?” I asked, teasingly.
“Of course not. Get lost.”
My teeth clenched.
I should have kissed out this arrogant attitude out of her.
Are we going to forget about the kiss just like that?
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“The directors were angry that you missed the meeting this morning.”Allegra said to me when I showed up at work.
“Something came up. I will address them later.”
I sat on my swivel chair.
She turned around to leave.
“Allegra.” I called.
“Yes.” She turned to face me.
“Mona told me what happened yesterday.”
“Sir....”
“I heard you’ve been working here for years so I really do not fire you, not until...” I paused.
“I’m just looking out for you”
“I’m sorry to say this but the way I see you isn’t going to change.”
I was sure Lorenzo didn’t like her.
“You’re forcing yourself not to love me and I don’t know why.”
“You’re getting it wrong. The one thing I can’t do is force myself to love you because I know I can’t, because you’re too good for that. You need someone who can reciprocate your feeling genuinely so stop doing this.”
“I just....”
“I don’t wanna fire you because you and Lorenz...I mean you and I have known each other for a long time, we’re like siblings but if this happens again, I will have to transfer you to another branch.”
“Are you in love with her already?”
“You can leave now.” I said to her.
She sighed and walked away.
I can’t love Mona but I don’t want her to get hurt.
She’s been through so much already.
I turned on my computer.
*More.*
Mona’s voice reverberated in my head.
More.
At that moment, I had wanted more.
I quickly shook my head.
No.
I can’t have more.
Not with her.
*What the hell are you saying?I have a show coming up...of course I have to dance...I need more practice to do.*
Recalling how pissed she was at the hospital made me want to do something for her, so she could dance again.
I turned off the computer, grabbed my jacket and headed out of my office.
Allegra stared at me questioningly when I walked passed her desk.
“I have something urgent to take care of.” I said and walked away.
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I arrived home with two men.
“Lorenzo, you’re back so soon”Flora said, surprised.
“Where’s Mona?” I asked.
“She hasn’t come downstairs since you left.”
“I’m going to remodel one of the large rooms to a dance studio...in case she hears any sound and asks about it, don’t let her come down there yet.”
Flora nodded, hesitantly.
But knowing Mona, I’m sure she wouldn’t bother coming down.
I got busy with the men, emptying the space and making it look like a dance studio for Mona.
By the time we were done, I was exhausted.
I paid the men and they left then I headed up
to her bedroom.
Sighing,I knocked on the door.
“Don’t come in.”
I scoffed.
Oh this woman.
“It’s me, Lorenzo.”
“You can come in if you like.”
I shook my head as I opened the door.
“I can see you’re back from work already, kindly start preparing dinner, I’m starving.”
I gasped. “Are you gradually turning me to your cook or something?”
“You should be glad you’re becoming something to me.”
“Wow! I’m already something to you, young lady. I’m your darling husband.” I joked.
