The Prince Wants to Assassinate Me Every Day-Chapter 956 - 540: Feelings Shattered Completely (Fifth Update)
An Ning stared blankly at Xiao Jinxing.
For a moment, she really couldn’t distinguish whether the person in front of her was Xiao Jinxing or Fu Xingyi.
"Fu Xingyi’s last wish when he died must have been to hope you live well, to hope you forget him and live well." Xiao Jinxing’s deep, magnetic voice lingered around An Ning’s ears.
She lowered her eyes.
Tears continued to fall uncontrollably.
Forget?
How could it be easy to forget?
"Sleep." Xiao Jinxing had only so much to say.
An Ning could only give him so much patience.
He got up and left.
"Xiao Jinxing." An Ning suddenly called out to him.
Xiao Jinxing paused his steps.
"I’m really tired being with you." An Ning said.
As if lowering her guard.
Xiao Jinxing swallowed, suppressing his inner emotions.
"The moment I opened my eyes and saw you, I was actually grateful that I could still see a face identical to Fu Xingyi. I even considered whether to hold some hope, whether to treat you as him... But later I gave up. You and he are worlds apart." An Ning reminisced, and said.
Xiao Jinxing pressed his lips together.
No matter how hard he tried to make amends, he couldn’t cover up the harm he’d once done to her.
In fact, even if he wanted to deceive himself, he felt he was unforgivable.
"So the only thought in my mind was to stay away from you. Finally, I left you and didn’t have to see your face that’s identical to Fu Xingyi’s, but then An Luming was born." An Ning mocked, "Watching as An Luming grows more like you both, I truly had the impulse to push him back into my belly."
Sometimes An Ning pondered, did fate give her another chance at life only to make her pay some inevitable price?
For example.
To live forever in Fu Xingyi’s shadow.
She said, "When I finally adapted to An Luming’s looks and gradually forgot many emotions, you showed up again out of nowhere."
Xiao Jinxing clenched his fists, suddenly feeling very wicked.
"You’re actually very right." An Ning lifted her gaze to Xiao Jinxing, suddenly affirmed him, "Before Fu Xingyi died, he once told me if one day an accident happened and he died before me, he’d hope I could forget him."
"I’m also trying to forget him." An Ning continued, "Trying to bury him in my heart, trying to endure so I don’t collapse for him. I kept thinking I was doing well; in those years he was gone, I kept encouraging myself until I once again saw someone who looked exactly like him."
"But fortunately, you and he are worlds apart. Besides not giving me any expectation of you, it allows me to deeply feel you’re not him, so I don’t have illusions or misunderstandings, nor will I expect anything. But now... now I must admit, you make me feel more and more like him. The kindness you showed me made me feel scared—not because I’m afraid I might fall for you, but because I’m afraid I’ll never be able to forget Fu Xingyi!"
Xiao Jinxing listened and suddenly laughed.
A self-mocking laugh.
So she repelled him so much, rejected him over a thousand miles, because she feared seeing Fu Xingyi’s shadow in him.
He had always thought that if given a bit of time, he would definitely move An Ning.
If given more time, An Ning would come to like him.
And he had always planned to, after setting aside matters of the state, setting aside the throne, accompany her to wander the earth.
Half a year.
He would assist An Luming in ascending to the throne and clear all forces harmful to An Luming, then accompany An Ning wherever she wished, living however she desired.
He even once felt selflessly moved.
Imagining that perhaps An Ning would be moved by his dedication.
He endured keeping it unsaid to give An Ning a surprise.
Thinking of it now.
An Ning wouldn’t feel it’s a surprise, only a shock.
An Ning rejected not the harem, but him as a person.
The more he did, the more An Ning only repulsed him.
An Ning would only drift farther from him!
Xiao Jinxing suddenly felt some relief.
Luckily.
Luckily he hadn’t told An Ning these thoughts, hadn’t revealed his plan beforehand.
At least, in front of her, he still held a little humble dignity.
"Xiao Jinxing, I really want you to stay away from me." An Ning spoke again.
Not caring about Xiao Jinxing’s feelings.
Nor minding whether he would feel sad.
She would just tell him, "With you by my side, I cannot forget Fu Xingyi nor fall for you, such emotional torture leaves me feeling truly fatigued, even overwhelmingly painful."
It turns out his mere existence inflicted so much harm on her.
He had once naively rejoiced over the fact that he and An Ning’s beloved looked exactly the same, thinking he at least had an advantage over Gu Xingchuan.
Now he realized.
It’s not an advantage; it’s a fatal weapon.
The same appearance, An Ning would only love one person, would only love Fu Xingyi.
His affection for An Ning hadn’t even started before it was doomed.
"Can’t you even wait for half a year?" Xiao Jinxing asked her again, murmuring, "It’s no longer half a year, only four months left."
"If you keep your word. What’s wrong with half a year, a year, or even two?" An Ning looked at him, using the calmest tone, she ironically made him feel utterly defeated, "Yet Xiao Jinxing, you’ve never done anything you’ve promised me."
Never done anything?!
Xiao Jinxing’s eyes drooped.
Indeed.
He was truly deceitful.
Even this so-called half-year agreement, he had plotted.
He was planning to leave An Luming behind, to go with An Ning.
His so-called love for her was never sincere.
"This time I will accomplish it." Xiao Jinxing promised, "In half a year, I’ll let you leave the Imperial Palace."
Never to disturb you again.
Never to offend your eyes again!
"Yeah, you can do it. But it doesn’t mean I’ll be able to go." An Ning said with sarcasm, "Then it won’t be you breaking your promise, it’ll be me ruining the agreement!"
Xiao Jinxing looked at her, seemingly unable to understand.
An Ning calmly asked him, "In four months, can you take down the Bai Family?"
Xiao Jinxing’s eyes tightened.
An Ning spoke, with sarcasm, "Currently, under your high-profile love confession, I’ve already become a thorn in Bai Mowan’s side. She wishes she could kill me, even if the half-year agreement is up, as long as Bai Mowan is still around, I simply won’t dare leave. Once I leave you, Bai Mowan will try everything to kill me. The only safe place for me is by your side."
Xiao Jinxing pressed his lips together.
An Ning truly thought of everything.
"Xiao Jinxing, see how clever you are, you have various methods to force me to stay by your side, yet I cannot complain nor accuse you of breaking your promise. Because without you, surviving would be difficult!"
