The Ordinary Me is Worshipped as a Deity by the Extraordinary Them-Chapter 36 - The Irrational Su Li

Su Li stood motionless for a long while. He thought about many things, yet seemed to think about nothing at all. However, as an adult, his rationality returned faster than others.

To others, this was merely the beginning of an emotional outburst.

But Su Li had already contained all the emotions that shouldn’t affect others.

Su Li stared at Roy, who sat on the ground with a dejected expression and lifeless eyes.

He needed an explanation now.

An explanation of why Roy did what he did. Although Su Li had already figured it all out, he still needed an explanation.

And it had to come from Roy’s own mouth.

Su Li knew that understanding Roy’s motives wasn’t enough; Lan Zhe needed to know.

Given how vigilant the Church of Light was of the Dark Church’s power, they must have held a considerable position. Someone designated as a holy son, unless schemed against from the start like Egbert, would surely possess some personal influence.

If Roy didn’t provide a reasonable explanation, his fate would be exactly as he wished – death.

But…

“I don’t believe you truly want to die,” Su Li’s sharp eyes fixed on Roy. “You just don’t know how to live on.”

“You can’t be compared to Na’an at all. Her chosen death was her choice, but you, choosing to wallow in despair and die after your revenge, that’s just…”

“Meaningless.”

These harsh words made Roy’s whole body tremble.

“Little master is still as perceptive as ever, easily seeing through what others carefully hide, even wounds. He even forcefully tears them open and pours strong liquor on them,” Roy leaned back on his hands, looking up at the sky. Though the rainbow reflected in his eyes, they remained completely empty.

“This isn’t about seeing through anything or not. It’s simply because I personally don’t want you to die,” Su Li stared directly at Roy. “Or do you think all truths should be buried underground? That those evil ones who others died trying to defeat should be crowned as heroes? That you, who committed assassination, will later be praised by ignorant fools as someone who endured humiliation for a greater cause?”

“Don’t you find it ridiculous?”

“Are the people you care about so cheap that only you will remember them?”

“Or perhaps, would those you care about want to see you become such a weak and incompetent coward?”

Su Li’s words transformed into the sharpest blades, piercing deeply into Roy’s internal wounds. The wounds that were merely covered but never healed began bleeding profusely once again.

Roy pressed against the ground, clenching his fists. His head, which had been held high, now dropped completely.

“If you truly believe that dying at this moment is your best ending, then go ahead and do it. After all, I’m just a useless person who’s good at running their mouth. In the end, words are the most useless and cheapest things.”

Was this truly what Su Li thought?

Of course not.

He was gambling – betting that Roy chose to be his bodyguard not just to get close to Egbert, but because he genuinely wanted to live as a human being before completing his final revenge.

As long as he still possessed human consciousness.

Su Li’s words would have meaning.

Adults never believe that sincerity alone is enough to easily move others.

Don’t be foolish – that’s just a sign of weakness, relying solely on intangible things due to lack of ability.

In this world, Su Li was well aware that even a three-year-old could beat him to death.

But he never forgot that he originally lived in a world where giants could touch the sky and mountains rested on their shoulders.

Su Li clearly saw a crystal-clear droplet, mixed with the dirt on Roy’s face, fall silently to the ground.

“It’s not a good story,” Roy choked out.

Su Li remained silent, and even Lan Zhe, who held the last remains of the Crystal Winged Dragon, stayed put without making any fatal moves against Roy.

And everything that happened to Roy, as he said, wasn’t a good story.

Roy was a two-star mercenary qualified to advance to three stars, not just because of his strength, but because his completed mercenary missions had reached a certain threshold.

Originally, like the Lion’s Club leader, Roy should have chosen to advance after reaching his goal.

But his wife believed that three-star mercenaries were different from the commonplace two-star ones – they were among the rarest, most elite individuals.

Roy’s wife told him: “You’ve achieved your goal of giving me and our child a good life.”

Roy’s wife was an exceptionally gentle woman. As the eldest sister of her prominent family’s younger generation, rather than being an imposing figure, she embodied true gentleness.

Having raised and taught most of the younger generation’s children, she was like a mother to her siblings. Yet she chose to marry a lowly mercenary with nothing to his name – something initially unacceptable to everyone.

But they still ended up together.

This should have been a common story of a commoner’s rise, gradually gaining his true love’s family’s acceptance.

But when Roy’s wife, three months pregnant, chose to return to Siliqing City to share the good news with her family, everything changed.

Roy had wanted to go with her, but she didn’t want her already disapproved husband to face even more rejection because of her pregnancy.

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It would have hurt her too much.

So she told Roy: “Let me go back alone this time. When I return, next time we can go back together as a family – you with your three-star mercenary badge, me, and our child.”

That’s how it should have been.

Instead, monster beasts launched a massive attack on Siliqing City.

The fact that Roy’s wife’s family could establish themselves in Siliqing City proved just how peaceful a city it was.

No one could have imagined why a place so far from Jisuo Town would suddenly face a monster beast invasion for no reason.

Once it happened, all questions became secondary to her safety.

However...

The black and white mourning banner hanging at his wife’s family home turned everything into unspeakable silence.

Those children his wife had raised, though they had once treated him, a lowly mercenary, somewhat harshly, had become more restrained because of her.

But at that moment, everyone looked at him with hatred.

The youngest child pushed Roy hard, though couldn’t move him, and with tears and snot running down their face, wailed: “Why didn’t you come back with sister? It’s all your fault! All your fault!!”

Yes, why hadn’t he returned with his wife?

If he had gone with her, would she still have… died so suddenly in this invasion?

So easily.

Like many others in Siliqing City…

Their deaths, aside from being mourned by their families, had all traces buried.

Was it the traitor’s doing? If so, then kill him, and kill the Crystal Winged Dragon too…

Roy told Su Li woodenly. “When I first met you all, I was considering whether to kill the suddenly two more children around the target together.”

He gave a bitter laugh, and in an instant, Egbert grabbed him by the collar.

“Take that back! Even with Lord Su Li’s orders, I won’t let you go otherwise.” Egbert’s eyes pierced Roy like daggers.

The former Son of Light’s purity always showed in how no one could affect Su Li in his presence.

“That was before,” Roy said weakly, making no attempt to break free from Egbert’s grip, and continued while being held. “Reality is just that ridiculous – the traitor was manipulated, the slaughterer was trying to save their child, and even a worm like me who only knows how to assassinate from the shadows has a laughable reason for revenge.”

“Laughable?” Su Li walked to the two men, removed Egbert’s hand from Roy’s collar, and looked down at Roy who collapsed back to the ground. “Then do you remember saying you were ‘just a worthless person living under his wife’s name’?”

“Still laughable?”

Su Li’s usually steady voice suddenly turned sharp. “If you find it laughable, why did you choose to live on carrying your wife’s name!”

“If you could manage to live on carrying a lady’s name, what right do you have to die while bearing that name?”

“Or do you want ‘Roy’ to die twice?!”

Su Li’s decisive tone left Roy frozen in place, unable to say another inappropriate word.

He was, just as Su Li said, simply someone who didn’t know how to continue living.

No aspirations, no expectations, no goals, nothing at all to support a person’s existence.

Barren as a desert, silent as the starry sky.

If his first tears were from uncontrollable emotion, the tears now streaming down his face were truly uninhibited.

“If I don’t seek revenge, what do you think I should do? But if I do seek revenge, I end up killing someone who was just trying to get their own revenge…” At this moment, his expression was completely broken.

No one could offer judgment.

All the conviction that the other was simply a murderer, all the thoughts of making the Crystal Winged Dragon suffer worse than death, ultimately became just… delivering a fatal blow…

How could Roy find a way to live on?

“Then come to me,” Su Li looked at Roy, his green eyes as pure as when he first arrived in this world, never taking in the whole world, remaining clear and empty as always.

He said. “Precisely because I have nothing, I can accept anything.”

“Stay by my side, continue being my bodyguard, let the name ‘Roy’ live on for a long time.”

This decision was too rough, not one a rational adult should make.

But…

“No one stays rational forever, so this invitation is only offered once.”

Su Li extended his hand.

Bony, pale, young…

Yet compared to Roy’s slightly trembling hand, it appeared incredibly resilient and strong.