Tangled Hearts - The Alpha's Baby Mama-Chapter 211: Kragen… that’s his name. My son...

Selene POV

I watched quietly as their eyelids fluttered severally as the girls struggled to stay awake to listen to their favourite bedtime stories.

The storm had passed...Noah was back to me again; Nora would be punished and her accomplices and I had finally put an end to whatever it was that I had with Xavier but why does it feel like a punishment? Where was the joy... the ecstasy that came with victory? And where was Kragen? ƒгeewёbnovel.com

I sighed for the thousandth time, as Faustina gently closed the bedtime story, and walked noiselessly to their shelf to return it. "I’ll be off, Your Majesty," she whispered to me.

"Sure!" I nodded with a smile "Thank you for everything today and also thank Brenna,".

"It was nothing," she murmured, turning loving eyes to the girls "To say the truth, your majesty... when I first came here to work as a Nanny after you lost Linda... I had a lot of reservations. Back then, the royal family felt like another planet and I was bothered that the children would be spoiled silly but I feel like this is my consolation. The moon goddess’s gift to me...".

"The moon goddess’s gift to you?" I turned to look at her perplexed "What do you mean?"

"I had just lost my husband, a few moons before I came to work here and it felt like my whole world was void. I had no child to console me and Brenna was the only person that could understand my pain. When I started taking care of the girls, they showed and taught me what it means to love and I’ll do anything..." she paused and raised her eyes to meet me. The first since she started working here. "Even if it means laying down my life for theirs...".

"Faustina..." my lips trembled as fresh tears sprung to my eyes.

"It’s nothing but the truth, your majesty. I will lay my life down for the girls and for you too. You don’t treat us with spite... we’ve never had any reason to feel lowly and it’s all thanks to you. You may not know this but everyone loves you and many would be willing to do anything just to see that you’re happy,".

"Oh, Faustina!" I sobbed and rose to my feet pressing against her for a hug "You don’t know how much I needed to hear those words," I sobbed harder.

She didn’t say anything and continued patting my back while I sobbed away. At some point, it just felt like I couldn’t stop the tears. I didn’t know if I should blame it on the hormones or something else.

"Selene!" a voice called behind us, making me leave Faustina’s arms reluctantly. When I turned and saw it was Noah, fresh tears sprung to my eyes again. "Are you alright?" Noah rushed inside the room. "What’s wrong with her? Did something happen? Are the girls, okay?" he was asking Faustina.

"She’s fine, Your Majesty!" Faustina said with a quiet smile "I think it’s the baby. She has a lot of pent-up emotions inside her... plus being pregnant. I think she’s trying to figure it out but she’ll be fine. She only needs to rest, that’s all. If you don’t mind, I’d like to retire for the night before the Pack House Gates gets hurt,".

"Sure!" Noah nodded.

Faustina gave us one last bow before she hurried out of the room. Now alone with, Noah and the girls fast asleep behind us, Noah tried to reach out for me but I shifted backwards. I didn’t want his comfort.

"I want to be alone!" I sniffed. "I’ll go take a walk in the Pack garden,".

"No problem, let me come with you," he said quickly.

"The doctor said you should rest. Besides the night is chilly, you’re in no condition to be out in this weather. The human side of you might catch a cold and get worse. Don’t worry, I won’t stay out long,".

"Selene, please!" he tried to reach for me again, but I swatted his hand viciously, my eyes brimming with hate.

"I said stay away from me!"

Without waiting for him to say another word, I turned on my heels and marched out of the room, ignoring the servants I found in the hallway murmuring greetings at me. I started towards the garden, glaring at one of the guards who volunteered to go with me. All I wanted to do at that moment was to make everyone disappear and just be by myself.

I heaved and cursed as I made my way to the small hill that I and Kurtis had perched on the other day. As I got to the top, I sank my weight on the soft grass, trying to catch my breath. When I was pregnant with the girls, everything had been in a haze... I couldn’t remember all the symptoms I went through and back then I was very weak but with what I was seeing now...I didn’t know if it was even normal.

After a while, I lay facing the sky... the stars twinkled at me, drawing a smile from me as I gazed at them. I felt peace seep into every part of my body the more I stared... and for a while, it was just me in my world and the stars until someone spoke beside me.

"You’ll never get used to it!" she chuckled startling me as I sat up with the speed of light only to find a silver-haired woman that looked like she was in her late twenties staring at me with troubled eyes. "May I sit beside you for a while?" she asked.

I didn’t know what to say. I was so busy staring at the woman whose beauty was captivating. The moon had suddenly risen high and was illuminating the whole place, so I could see her face. After waiting for a while for my approval and since she wasn’t getting any, she shrugged and came to sit beside me anyway.

"When I first found out that I was pregnant with my child, it took me a few weeks to come to terms with it because I was never expecting a baby and I was so sure at the instant I knew that I didn’t want to go through with it but after a few days, I would catch myself in front of the mirror staring at my flat stomach... a few days after that, I was consumed with the idea of becoming a mother and it didn’t change when I felt like I was going to die giving birth to him and he’s the only thing that makes sense to my chaotic world. I might be going through so much but one thought of my son, rights my world,".

"You can say that again!" I nodded in affirmative "My children saved me from dying. They’re the reason why I decided to choose life even when the odds were against me. Their thoughts alone kept me going,".

"Nothing equals a mother’s love for their children!" the woman’s voice broke as she wrung her fingers helplessly "But sometimes, in other to protect the people we love, we might have to take very drastic decisions and I took that decision... and now my child hates me!"

"Oh!" my heart fluttered with pity, instinctively, I covered her hand with one of mine "I know the guilt that comes with it but you have to forgive yourself first, only then can you be receptive of forgiveness,".

"You think so?" she turned to stare at me.

"I know so!" I smiled "Today, I just cut off ties with my children’s father and told him to never come an inch close to me or the children and I feel like they would hate me when they know what I did to them but it was a difficult decision to make too and all that I ever wanted was to make sure they’ll be fine!"

"Do you ever think they’ll understand and forgive us?" the woman asked.

"Children these days do not care so much about anything. They focus more on the hurt and sometimes, they refuse to see the reason behind the action. So, I won’t get my hopes high but..." my hands strayed to my stomach "I hope it’s a boy... I heard boys are closer to their moms more,".

"I wish!" the woman sighed sadly "Fenrir is a boy but we cannot be in each other’s space for more than two minutes without quarrelling, fighting or itching to leave and it’s all my fault,".

Fenrir... that name sounded familiar... I could feel my brain nagging me that I’d heard that name before. "Fenrir?" I said the words under my breath, hoping calling the name would remind me of where I heard it.

"Kragen!" the woman said again with a small smile "He hates it when I call him Fenrir... so, Kragen... that’s his name. My son...".