Surviving in Woman's world as a novel villain.-Chapter 34 34. Hope
"You know, We didn't leave a single place in that room, Everywhere are traces of our lust and passion, You can see it if you shine blacklight in there."
Alex continues to barrage these sharp words like knife on Grace.
*Crack* *Tear*
Each word of Alex felt like a sledgehammer, Hitting on her heart. She didn't want to listen to this, She didn't want to hear him talk about how he made love to another woman.
She wants him to stop talking, She wishes this was just a nightmare she was having, and she will wake up soon.
Her whole being is in immense pain. She felt like crying but no tears escaped from her eyes. She just wants to wake up from this nightmare right now.
"Also you know, I fucked her so much that Alia had to beg me to stop countless times, You should look at her that time, She didn't look like her usual cold demeanor but the pitiful woman"
Alex didn't stop even seeing how much his words affected her. He had to do this. If he didn't, Someone else would, So it was better for him to give her a knife.
"A-Are you hungry, Alex, We should get something to eat."
Grace spoke in a very hoarse and unnatural voice trying to suppress her sorrow, To hide her pain from Alex and tried to change the subject, But her heart was in chaos, She couldn't bear it, She didn't want to hear how and where they made love.
"I lost my virginity to Alia last night. Didn't that make me a worn shoe or what they say? Ahem Yes, Broken goods right? Now I am broken goods in a woman's eyes."
Alex ignored her attempt to change the subject, He continued speaking and asked her a question.
"What?! No!! How can a man be broken goods? Man didn't even have physical characteristics to represent the purity and whole body. You are the same to me as you were yesterday. Nothing has changed."
Grace jumped up from bed hearing his question, And hurriedly spoke to defend him, Even though he was the one who was hurting her the most right at the moment. She still wants to defend his honor.
Actually, it was not the fact that he was with Alia that was hurting her but the fact that both Alia and Alex were in love was the reason why she was feeling this much pain.
She can handle it if it was just a physical relationship, Because that means she still had a chance, She is still able to steal him from that cold ruthless Alia but if they were in love then she didn't want to do it. If Alex was happy with Alia then she can only bless them with a heavy heart.
That's why these words of Alex are like a sharp knife slashing her whole being. Because in her eyes, This was not just a sexual relationship for physical needs but more emotional needs they fulfill through physical ones.
"Really? That's good to hear, So where am I? Yeah right! You should have looked Alia at that time she was-"
"ENOUGH!! Please stop talking about you and her fucking each other over and over again, I get it. You guys are in love and this is a normal thing for a couple to do."
Grace finally snapped, She howled at him in pain and anguish, She really can't hear him anymore talking about his last night with Alia. She still wanted to keep some little illusion of hope. Maybe she still had a chance but if Alex kept speaking it was not possible. That weak fire of hope will also extinguish in a barrage of his cold words.
"Why? Don't you like hearing it? Weren't we supposed to be friends? So what's wrong with me sharing my first experience with a friend?"
Alex retorted, He still has to hurt her a little more. Although he didn't like hurting her like this, he had to do it. If he got soft now, Then that would only be going to harm Grace even more in future.
"That- Yes we- NO!! Are we just friends? Just a friend? Then why did you kiss me before? Why- Why did you say it was beautiful? Are you just playing with me and my feelings?!!" 𝙛r𝚎𝐞𝑤𝚎𝗯𝗻𝗼𝐯e𝚕.𝒄𝐨𝓂
Grace broke out all her suffering in her heart, She didn't understand why? WHY? Why is he doing this? Is he not seeing her pain, Not feeling the sorrow in her voice? Then why does he keep hurting her like this? Does he just enjoy watching her like this?
"Grace- "
Alex wanted to speak, he too was not like this one bit but he had to do this right now. It was like a bandage. He had to remove it even though it would be painful.
"You are just playing with me, right? You like watching this hopeless girl dance like a monkey in front of you right?"
Grace was very emotional now. She didn't even let Alex speak anymore fearing it would be just another chain of sharp words Which would stab into her heart even deeper.
"Grace Tha- "
"So please Don't *Sob* Don't stop!!! I will be whatever you want, I will be the monkey for your entertainment, You can even hurt me like this as much as you want, I will not even raise a single word of objection but please don't stop."
Greece's delicate cheeks were stained by the constant flow of her hot tears, As she looked pitifully at him, with begging in her eyes, Then she directly kneeled on the ground and pleaded Alex to not stop playing with her. She wanted him to still be like he was in the morning even if that was just an act, Her delicate cheeks were stained by the constant flow of her tears, As she looked pitifully at him, with begging in her eyes.
Because even though it was fake, She was just a joke, A plaything in his eyes but for her it was real. She was happy, She had hoped to be with a man she loved.
That hope was the only thing that was keeping her together, Alex is the only good thing that comes in her life, He was the one who brought her Hope. A hope that made her realize that she was not worthless.
A hope that made her feel alive for the first time in her life, She can't lose that hope. She can't live if that hope is gone.
So even if it was fake, She wanted Alex to treat her the same way, She can be his monkey, He can do whatever he wants with her, and She would be happy to get that hope even if it was an illusion.
She rather lived in the illusion of hope than lived in a reality where it didn't exist.
"*Sigh* I was not playing with you, I really do like you, I like you very much."
Alex too kneeled in front of her, What he wanted was achieved, She finally opened her sealed heart to him. So now she will not be influenced by others by exploiting the weakness in her heart, especially people like Alia, Who are very good at mental warfare.
"Really??"
Grace raised her head, Her two red swollen eyes looked at him with expectation, Even after he hurt her this much there was not one speck of resentment in those big void-like eyes.
There was only the expectation, She didn't even bother to think whether what he was saying was true or not. As long as he said it, even if it was fake, It was enough for her.
"I am not lying, I do like you very much. That's why from this moment onwards, You will be my personal secretary, So you can always be close to me."
Alex cupped her rosy cheeks in his palms and with his thumbs gently wiped out the tears from her eyes and cheeks. He then spoke to her in a very gentle doting voice.
"Secretary? And me? Alway close to you?"
Grace asked in surprise and joy, All her worry and pain just vanished, A broken heart of hers that was on the brink of breaking into million pieces like a phoenix did a nirvana and healed completely just hearing his words.
She now felt like a raft lost in the sea finally found solace of the shoar, He became the lighthouse in her dark life of hers.
She even forgotten about Alia's issues, Which were tearing her heart and soul a moment ago. As long as Alex says anything sweet to her like this, She can forgive and forget anything.
"There is also one more thing, What I did with Alia yesterday was just for carnal desire, A physical need, There was nothing even close to love in that, We just threw ourselves in the passion and lust."
Alex looked deep into her honey-colored eyes, and said very seriously to her.
He knows even though, Even if she does not say it, This is the reason why she had this big reaction, and why she felt that much pain. So he wanted to ease the worry now.
"What? There was no love? Only carnal desire? A physical need?"
Grace's pupils dilated, She looked at the seriousness in Alex's eyes and understood that this was clearly not a lie, There was no love in their actions last night's actions.
Suddenly the body felt quite light, A worry in her heart vanished. The flame of hope which was about to extinguish, Re-ignited, And turned into an inferno of fire.
"Also, You are the first woman I've ever confessed to liking."
Alex didn't let go of her cheeks, He was still gently holding them and said in a very romantic soothing voice.
He hurt her before, So now he had to make up for it. Also, she was the really the first woman he liked and confessed.the
"I don't know, If I might be able to love anyone ever now, But I do know, I like you."
Alex still had to make a persona of a broken hearted man, So he said these words just to firm this identity in Grace's heart. 𝐟re𝐞w𝐞𝒃𝓃𝒐𝐯𝚎𝒍.c૦𝚖
Then he gets his face very close to hers, Almost touching her cute nose, Before saying these words.
*Bang*
Grace couldn't handle this cold and hot treatment of his. First, he hurt her so much that she cried in pain and now he made her happy so much that she once again cried but this time in joy.
But she didn't hate this at all. If every time Alex hurt her, if he treated her like this, Then she would surely bear the soul-tearing pain everyday just able to taste this sweetness.
'How did he become this handsome? Or am I hallucinating?'
Grace didn't say anything, She just looked at Alex's divine face at close range. She didn't understand why suddenly he was looking this handsome but his charm also awakened the deep primal desire in her heart.
She seductively bit her lower plump lip before she made a move, Face oval face moved forward and her red juicy lips interlocked with his thin reddish ones.
(A/N : Like always that you are reading and have a good day ????.)
