Soul Of Negary-Volume 6 Chapter 18: Your heart has never been at peace

“People live for the sake of peace, if you could look into your own heart, you would find that all of your unease originates from your own feeling of helplessness”

The Celestials who were born from Negary’s information believed that there were only two kinds of eternal peace: the first was literal thoughtlessness; if one was incapable of thinking and unable to recognize their own existence, it would be natural for them to be eternally at peace. The second kind was the ability to look at oneself.

If you tried looking into yourself, you would find that simply by living, your existence was slowly fading away. While you wasted your time, while you remain mundane and uninteresting, your existence was also fading away.

By the time you were no longer alive, your existence would be changed into the form of memory, and once your existence no longer existed as a memory, your everything would have been meaningless.

The meaning of being alive was to maintain one’s existence.

Why did modern humans always feel so empty? That was because modern society’s production power had been greatly improved to the point that people did not need to work very hard in order to survive, and those who had fulfilled the bare minimum requirement of surviving were unable to look into themselves for deeper meaning.

For this reason, many people feel lost and without a meaning to live, while many others strived for their entire lives for the sake of their careers. Some people merely wish to live better, others want self-satisfaction, fame, and to leave the mark of their existence behind to be passed down.

Of course, the majority of people would simply be deluded by information from the world itself, becoming stuck as mundane without being able to escape.

And so, by looking at yourself and diligently striving for success, you would find the only enemies and obstacles that prevent you from maintaining your existence: your laziness, your ignorance, your unnecessary desires, and your limits.

When you strived and dedicated yourself to triumphing against these enemies, you would find your heart finally at peace.

And so, to achieve peace, you must be a foolish mortal who’s satisfied with the status quo and doesn’t think too deeply, or defeat all enemies that make you uneasy and become your own God.

“The Land of Eternal Peace might be a land of the future that we can never reach, but it is also our life’s pursuit”

Most of the Celestials understood very clearly that this fight had no end, after you had broken through one limit, you would simply discover an even greater limit up ahead, even Negary who created them was only a pioneer on the path they walked, but none of them regretted choosing it. Because simply by choosing to walk this path, their hearts had already become perfectly calm.

This was the path of eternal peace with the impossible goal of the Land of Eternal Peace. To triumph against all the unease of oneself, even if they died in the process, they had no fear since they had never lost their way.

Furthermore, even after they died, they would not completely disappear and instead become a part of Negary and provide support to the greatest pioneer, they truly trusted that Negary would be able to become that future Land of Eternal Peace.

Or perhaps, as soon as they followed Negary’s ideals and entered the path of eternal peace, that impossible Land of Eternal Peace was already right beneath their feet.

“To be unable to look at your own mistakes, refusing to shoulder it, unwilling to make up for the guilt in your heart, and placing your hope on someone else without the will to strive for hope. Your heart has never been at peace”

On the day that the Celestials attacked the Nanwu tribe, they also brought Yun Yi out from his captivity, and the one who told him these irrefutable ideals was the leader of the Celestial group, Celestial Po Nan.

After regaining his senses, Yun Yi realized that these Celestials were the so-called Demon race.

However, they were unlike Yun Yi had imagined, according to the tribe’s propaganda, the Demon race was cruel and impersonal, they treated the Desolates as an inferior race and was willing to mercilessly massacre them en masse, they were supposedly also hard to communicate with, but that didn’t seem to be the case at all. ƒr𝙚𝙚𝘸e𝚋𝐧૦ѵ𝒆𝒍.𝒄𝒐m

“I know what you are thinking. Our constitution is certainly superior to a normal Desolate, but that isn’t the reason why we see Desolates as inferior. The reason why we hold a portion of Desolates in disdain is because of their way of thinking.

“They only wish to create a fake sense of peace, deceive themselves, and are unwilling to face reality, so when misfortune befalls them, they only know to curse the heaven and earth, then continue to further descend”

Po Nan explained without hiding his disdain: “You are also the same, Yun Yi, but your flexibility makes you different from the others who have no value even if they were saved”

“Which is why you saved me when you could[1]” Yun Yi felt his mind fogging up.

Earlier, this group of Celestial had directly attacked the Nanwu tribe, displaying their great prowess in combat, the monsters that he feared were easily broken in their hands.

A small group of them had managed to stall the entire tribe while the others searched for something in that vicinity. In the end, they discovered Yun Yi being held captive and brought him out with them.

“That’s right. You should have met the Holy Child already” Po Nan turned around and asked: “His current name should be Meng Luo, and I was able to sense him around where you were earlier”

“Meng Luo is the Holy Child?” Yun Yi was surprised.

There is a clear difference between the Desolates and Celestials, and from his appearance, Meng Luo is a standard inferior Desolate, how could he be the Demon race’s Holy Child?

“I’m not sure about that either” Po Nan had no intention of hiding this information: “The Celestials originated 17 years ago during the golden rain shower. Our Vitality Root Fetuses are different from a Desolate on the inside, since every tribe now has a technique to discern between the two, you should already know this as well”

Yun Yi lightly nodded. He could feel his rationality and logic slowly returning as they spoke.

After the Demon race was established, the Shamans had jointly developed a new ritual called the Screening Offering. In every ritual they had conducted, a portion of the Vitality Root Fetuses would consistently be an ‘infected’ Demon race fetus, if any of these fetuses underwent Wild Release, they would eventually become a ‘Demon’ as they grew up, so they were considered useless and must be destroyed on the spot. This was also the reason why the tribes were feeling increasingly more pressure as time went by.

“Meng Luo is unique, he is the perfect fusion of Celestial and Desolate life information, unlike us who were converted through infection. He doesn’t go through the same conversion process from Desolate to Celestial that we do”

“What good does that do?” Yun Yi was a bit confused. If Celestials were a superior race to Desolates, then what good would mixing the two races do?

“He represents an opportunity, the opportunity for the Celestials and the Desolates to thoroughly fuse together. At our core, the Celestials were created from an infection so we are incomplete. According to the future that Lord Negary had observed, we would find it near impossible to obtain a Seed of Truth”

“In other words, Demon… Celestials do not have the same potential that Desolates do” Yun Yi could faintly understand what he meant.

There was a deep level of connection between a living being’s soul and body. Because of a slight rejection from the world, when the bodies of Celestials were infected by Negary’s information, an imperfection was left behind, which led to it affecting their souls.

When a Celestial underwent [Origin] release, a small bit of imbalance would appear from their souls, leading to them being unable to manifest a perfect soul structure corresponding to the Principles and Ideals within their [Origins].

One step short ruins the entire journey, and this imbalance would eventually result in an irredeemable crack that led to their soul collapsing upon attempting to shoulder a Seed of Truth.

This could only be attributed to Negary’s terrible state at the time. The injection of his information into the cycle of reincarnation triggered a bit of rejection from the world, leading to the resulting Celestials being a failed experiment.

[1] Unsure of how to express this, he was basically saved because they had the excess strength to do so, not because they specifically came to save him

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